BEGINNING PHASE

Hey you guys! I'm Matt from philippines. I'm just an average introverted person with a big heart, ideal dreams that I can't wait to turn them into tangible in the physical realm. Not typically, average! The right vocabulary for that is "EXTRAORDINARY". Much like an arrogant person who had a big head (I'm totally kidding) . If you're going to describe me in one word that would be "GRIT". According to the Merriam Webster dictionary "grit" means passion and perseverance for the long term. It got me thinking "am I really that special or does it mean I would be much more powerful than others. I have taken personal tests online numerous times for me to find myself. Are you the kind of person who asks introspective questions such as am I an introvert? If so, what makes me tick or how can I use that to my advantage? If being an introvert has its advantages, does that mean I'm much more talented than the extroverted ones? I felt terrified in terms of expanding myself to the biggest version of myself. Once I do this, not everyone would understand my journey as an unique individual. People might look at me and say "who do you think you are" "oh he's so arrogant". This endless cycle of people pleasing questions scares me the most. Much more intensified compared to people who are not highly sensitive as an INFJ. For those who don't know this "INFJ", this is a myers-briggs indicator test for people who want to know who they really are, and want to know themselves on a deeper level. Identifying what their strengths and weaknesses are and the list goes on. Once I took the test through these sites (I vicariously utilize the power of google and our existing internet) , I was shocked at how accurate it really was. It felt like a jigsaw puzzle had fit into those missing pieces. Everything clicked. This type of test understands me more than my loved ones would understand me. I was ecstatic on taking the step on getting to know myself. Self-awareness is key. Without self-awareness? How would you pursue your dreams and goals that align with who you are? For example you're driving a car without knowing your exact destination you would like to visit. Your inner GPS doesn't know. The moment I started to realize how I wasn't aware of who I am as a person. This is the part that scares me intensely. I decided I would change this bad habit from now on. I feel like I'm not tapping into my potential. That's why I envy people who have this strong self-assurance standing their convictions on the beliefs they have. I personally lacked it.   I was looking for answers on what is the formula for success and personal growth. If I follow people's footsteps, it isn't the right path for me. There's an underlying false belief that says "this is not who I am". I don't want to be boxed in. People who lack self-esteem would probably accept their life for what is less. Rather than doing things outside their comfort zone. 95% Percent of our human mind goes to our subconscious. It represents our beliefs, patterns and behaviors we accumulated since we were children. As children, we don't know what is right and what is wrong. We just accept it and program it from our subconscious mind until we carry those beliefs, stories and patterns from adulthood.