[I dig out the heart of a loved one like a jewel and stab it in the back of the loved one. The wounded person looks more closely at the thing that wounded he/her than at the wound. The memory of that person kills me more than the wound. The hunters I hate are only thinking about finding and harming my deer.]
Letters
Everyone has different and varied preferences. And I respect varied preferences you and people around you. However, you must distinguish between good and evil. I am not saying that this is the the correct answer or that is what you should live like. However, They make the rules. You must look after the children who fall into the wrong rules. Be a small but big person who takes care of those around you.
If you have a lot of people around you and are popular, it feels good. If they know the path you are taking now, they won't do it recklessly. The problems that keep happening to you should be thinking about whether you are interacting properly in society. I think it's good to have a lot of friends, but I don't want people around you who invade and destroy you at any time. Problems keep happening because you are walking a path you are not sure about. Images can be recreated in many ways. Anyone can. But the path we are taking is not like that. It is a path in history. I am with you. It is a path full of shame, but there will come a day filled with glory and meaning. Now is the time of loneliness. If you endure and overcome, the promised day will come. I don't worry, and you don't give up.
Today, I erased the memories I wanted to forget from my head. It's sad to be forgotten in someone's memory. But people find this process fun and follow it in their own way. They make up memories they love. I don't understand. I remember the story with my broken loved one - whatever it is - and confirm that it's lie. I confirm that it was lie, but the memory remains. If we just erase the data, will we be forgotten? It's foolish to tear off a part of your head. Deep wounds must be healed first. My heart must be healed before I can forget those memories. I still haven't recovered from the images you gave me. I'm afraid to stand in front of the mirror.
I feel at ease because I saw your smiling face.
Yes, you are right. The world's art and products are almost corrupted. 'Beautiful' people and works are appreciated, but beauty only has a sexual scent. When I find a beautiful flower and smell its fragrance, the smell of sweat vibrates at the tip of my nose. The desire to have something, the desire to possess. I have never been greedy for anyone. Greed was an emotion that came up from below me. I was a person who suppressed, cut, and imprisoned those emotions, thinking they were sins. That's why people say I'm depressed. But that's not all. I'm accepting these emotions and focusing on you. They say I'm crazy. But I'm starting to feel uncomfortable with this feeling in my heart.
It is 1:43 PM. The word redemption came to mind as I looked at your face. When people are bound, they want to be free, and when they are free, they want to be bound. From someone they love. I learned to control such feelings while loving God. I was able to learn how God teaches redemption and freedom to His people through the history He leads. However, the process of not understanding is truly pitiful for humans and cruel for God. Today, I think about redemption, the promise between you and me... When I didn't know God, I talked nonsense to God a lot. Of course, in my heart. God is so boring and demands things that can't be popular with humans. Humans live centered on pleasure. This was the society I encountered. I said that God could disappear, that there was no pleasure, and that it was boring. I didn't want to endure for God. Humans talk nonsense, and God teaches humans, and the earth keeps turning. Still, we need time to understand the cause of this nonsense and stress and resolve it. I learn God's heart with humans by being with you. Let's cheer up. This is the feeling that humans feel.