Its 3:51 in afternoon and I came from school a while ago.Yeah I'm in 12th standard in a Highschool. I have a crush on my classmate whose stream is Maths, lets call him Ren , mine is Biology (I will talk abt him for now 😅). In 11th class we had separate classes but now we study common subjects combined.
Let me tell you what I can say about him. We were classmates since kindergarten to 5th standard , then his section changed .
Then we went to same Maths coaching in 10th class .
Well my friends used to tease me with his name(well they still do ) , then when Shifu was teasing me in front of my former classmate
" Should I tell her who you have crush on 😉?" Shifu said teasingly.
I said " If you're going to say my cousins name then I will kill you"
"No, he's our brother😁 " she said.
"She thinks that Ren has a crush on me " I said being so done with her teasing before she could say anything .
Then my friend said " Yeah I already know that " as if stating the obvious.
And I was like what, I mean she was our classmate till class 4th and he was till 5th. So HOW the heck does she know that?
An d till now I regret not asking her how she knows that even though we were just children. But now I think it might be true since I catch him since then till now staring at me .Sometimes even with a pained longing expression .That I still don't understand.
In fifth standard we had oral exams so we used to sir roll no. wise he and I used to sit together (since his full name starts with S abd my too but his real name starts with R . So Shifu and I were so mischievous we used to have fun all the time (and in 1st class we were basically bullys who used to bully boys ) so at that time it was all normal .
So his bag fell from our seat Shifu and I "snickered" BUT HE was smiling while looking at me while picking his bag.
Like what the hell your bag fell and two girls are laughing at you and you are smiling? Maybe he does have a crush on me for a long time ? We were like a good friend group of two boys and two girls at exam time (only) but rest of the time it was normal .
An sometimes I don't understand why he always keeps smiling .Is it because of me? He always does But I caught him with an angry expression on places he might never expect me to be there .Like i 10th when I was closing the tution door and he came with his cycle so I opend it for him he said thankyou but because of my introvertism I didn't say anything .And once when we were going to my maternal grandmother's house he was sitting behind his father angrily.
And he saw me but maybe didn't recognise me? Whatever. In 10th class I was submittingmy tution fees to my coaching teacher he was lost in his own world taking foreverin finding my name and Ren and Rudra wre arranging the seats. So my hand hit table an although it didn't hurt I still said ouch and I am not sure who said it but I definitely heard "careful" maybe it was Ren. Well I want it to be him and it was neither one of their's voice .
Yesterday I was zoned out and was staring at a boy standing in front of Ren thinking it was our teacher and he, was staring directly at me and I feel so bad about it.
So thats all for now do tell me if you het bored I will try to improve myself since I am a new writer 😊.