I flung my room door open and threw my bag on the bed before crashing into it . Ina had escorted me to my house before leaving afterwards, although before she left we did have a conversation. Yes it's exactly what you're thinking.... THE INVITATION. Was I going to attend or not?, but to be honest Ina bluntly told me to tear off the invitation card and toss it in the trash. well it was understandable, because the relationship Ina and I had with Jaden was a strained one . And of course it'd be a bumpy ride to even try and amend it.
I brought out my diary from under my pink throw pillow gifted to me by Ina on my previous birthday. The diary cover was black and pink and was very cute, for a while I just stood there admiring it as if it was not the same book I write and see everyday. soon enough I realized that and flipped the pages over to the next vacant one, ready to accommodate another write-up of how my day was. I cocked my pen and began to write, I started off with the fact that going to school i had another motive but trust me it didn't go as planned . And even returning was more hectic, Ina had nagged all the way from school down to the entrance of my house before leaving. At first I thought she was right, not even at first till now I still think shredding the card is the best idea . The only problem is I just can't bring myself to shred it, I really do not like Amaya for what she did to me but Jaden.... Jaden.
Anytime I plan to toss it in the trash motivated by his devilish smirk, as well as when Scott smiled at me probably to mock me . Then again I'd restrain myself when I imagine him getting close to me and the moment were we almost kissed. And how handsome he would look when he is all dressed up for his sister's birthday. I know you think I'm crazy cause the guy in question is a chronic playboy but then I really like him that much . I heaved a sigh and closed my diary for a while, staring into the ceiling while laying on my bed. To be honest my head was blank at that time and I wasn't really thinking about anything, not even Jaden . The thing is I'm hungrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyy, I'm starving but too tired to cook. mom had gone to get groceries and I just hope she could grab some snacks as well before lunch or probably dinner is ready. so I could devour and feed the raging worms in my stomach, I wanted to call her and ask for some snacks but my battery was down and I had just plugged it in.
I went downstairs with a rumbling stomach and flung the door of the fridge open , thankfully there were some stored food I just needed to heat up and some drinks. Unconsciously I slammed the door of the fridge to the extent that I had to check if it wasn't broken . Well it was old enough to at least be used to some harsh treatment especially when Mom was angry, you could hear her slam the fridge door from miles away lol. As for me I get furious anytime I get hungry, and at that time talking to me might be furtile. My hunger was turning to anger and pain so I hurriedly put the food in the microwave and waited for it to heat up , as I was waiting i heard my phone ringing a couple of times and I assumed it was definitely Ina.
When it was heated enough I removed it from the microwave and dished it on my favorite plate. I was a very picky person so you should expect I have a favorite for everything. Grabbing a Pepsi from the fridge I headed upstairs to my room and opened the door with my elbow as my hands were full. I placed my food on the bed and started eating, I didn't even bother to check my phone that had been ringing all this while. Although I was curious... could it be mom ? does she need something? or probably Ina..... anyways my belly was more important right now .
After eating I went to wash my plate and came back to my room, now I had time to attend to anything and even think probably. The first thing I did was to pick up my diary and continue writing, dear diary I continued , I forgot to tell you the fight I and Ina had on my way back home. Can you imagine she told me she wasn't going to talk to me if I attended the home party , but I really wanted to get close to Jaden on any slightest opportunity I get . Now I'm torn between Ina and Jaden the two people I held close to my heart , so sad right. But I've decided I'm going to attend the party, the only hurdle in my way now is Ina.... she is my best friend but how on earth would I convince her to go with me. Seriously, I would look left out if I were to go alone but she didn't even want to hear Ja... not to talk of Jaden . arrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhh this was killing me .
I heard the doorbell and yeah it was mom, I assisted her to get the groceries inside and helped with the preparation of dinner. we had dinner and it all happened like a flash , all I knew was that I landed on bed snoring quietly ...
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THE NEXT MORNING
I woke up feeling ecstatic as I slept so soundly, by now my phone had finished charging and so I unplugged it. I unlocked it and checked my call log oh my gosh it was Ina... twelve missed calls from Ina . we had a fight yesterday and I remembered my phone kept ringing but I forgot to check ...I just slept. Ina must really think I ignored her call intentionally. And to make matters worst today's Friday, and tomorrow was Amaya's Birthday. Ina would think I chose Jaden over her or the goddamn party, not knowing it was inadvertently. My diary was also still on my bed opened... uncompleted, I wouldn't bother completing my sentence I'd just leave it as an incomplete day. she didn't come to see me as usual so I had to walk to school alone and sluggishly.
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AT SCHOOL
At school Ina snubbed the hell out of me, she wouldn't talk to me or even look at me. she made sure she went in the opposite direction of wherever I'm headed. everyone noticed this change and they started to poke their noses asking numerous questions as to why we were apart. I don't blame them because Ina and I were always glued together but at some point it started getting annoying. We shared the same seat but today in class she didn't sit beside me and it was killing me I felt so lonely, bored and left out..... like why on earth would she make it this obvious. Today I was so concerned about Ina's attitude that i forgot about jaden like he was invincible to me , I didn't see him and I didn't even bother looking for him. I just wanted Ina..... I wanted my baby.
It continued the whole day, so when school was over I knew she'd always wait behind to do some extra two hours reading and just has I thought she did. the school had gotten scanty and most people had gone home so I went to talk to her.
" Ina can we talk?" she ignored me . " please Ina at least just say something"
"what do you want me to say"
" listen I'm sorry okay, and no matter how much I like Jaden I can never choose him over you" I sat beside her seeing how she had become calm .
" he invited me and I just wanted to go , but if you don't wanna go with me then fine I won't go so please just stop ignoring me Ina I can't tolerate it........ please, I won't go without you I promise "
" pinky promise?" she said
" pinky promise baby , I cross my heart I won't go without you..... happy now? " I pushed her playfully and she giggled, I'm so glad I settled things with Ina reallllllllllly .
" so why didn't you pick up the call yesterday " she asked
"trust me it was not intentionally, my phone battery was down that's why I'm so sorry"
" it's alright, let's head back home now, you don't want to be too late do you? "
" of course"
I said and smiled as we headed back home together, but all the way as we walked down the streets I just thought about Jaden......I was too occupied with Ina's attitude that I didn't notice him today. How I wish I could honor his request and attend the birthday party...Now you tell me what should I do?