It's been three days.
The sky was still black, not yet softened by the break of dawn. A faint line of grey on the horizon hinted at morning, but the night held on with a fierce grip. I sat in the trench, knees drawn to my chest, hands buried in the mud, waiting for the light to come.
I glanced up. Stars blinked faintly above, but the smoke from the battlefield smothered most of them. It was like being caught in a haze, a dream you couldn't wake from, where everything you touched turned to ash. Kakashi-sensei was somewhere down the trench, talking in low tones with Anko-san. Sakura sat beside me, quiet, staring at her hands, her skin pale against the grime. Shikamaru leaned against the wall, arms crossed, eyes closed—but I knew he wasn't asleep. None of us had slept in hours.
The trench stank of blood and sweat, of decay and damp earth. I could hear it—the low groans of the wounded, the faint rustling of supplies being shifted, men muttering. Somewhere far off, the steady pound of explosions echoed. We hadn't seen the enemy yet, not up close, but reports suggested they were nearby—waiting, amassing, just beyond the line.
It was strange. You could almost believe there was peace in these hours, that the war had ended in the silence of the night. But the truth was one everyone knew. The tension was thick, curling in the air like smoke. And then, just as I felt the weight of it pressing down, the first shrill whistle cut through the darkness. My thoughts grew lethargic, slowing down, slee—
"KAI!"
The genjutsu broke. My body moved before my mind did. I hit the ground as the world erupted in fire. Dirt sprayed into the air, raining down on us as explosions tore through the trench. Earthen shrapnel screamed past. I could hear the cries now, loud and frantic—men issuing orders, calling for help, in pain.
"Take cover!" Kakashi's voice sliced through the chaos. He was already on his feet, kunai in hand, eye narrowed beneath his forehead protector. Sakura scrambled beside me, her breath coming in quick, shallow gasps. Shikamaru was crouched behind her, shadows spilling from his feet.
"From the northeast!" a voice down the line shouted. The first wave appeared over the horizon. The silhouettes of Oto-nin standing in a line. I could feel their chakra churning in the distance. A pulse. I didn't recognize the technique, but the heat came first—a sudden, blistering wave that tore through the trench, searing my skin. I looked up just in time to see it—an enormous fireball roaring toward us, crackling and alive, turning the night into a hellish blaze. My heart hammered in my chest, instinct taking over as my legs moved, faster than thought, faster than breath. The world was chaos—mud flying beneath my feet, the cries of shinobi shouting warnings—but they were drowned out by the roar of the flames. I stumbled, blind with fear, lungs burning, and just as the heat was about to swallow me whole, a hand gripped my shoulder. I froze, breathless, and the fire vanished. I blinked, confused, sweat pouring down my face.
Kakashi's eye met mine. "Genjutsu," he said, his voice low, pulling me back from the edge of panic. I could still feel the heat, the phantom flames licking at my skin, though they were never really there.
My fingers tightened around the hilt of a kunai. The Oto-nin on the other end of No-Man's Land had dispersed. A real fireball struck where they stood earlier. For a moment, the world returned to its grim reality—shouts of orders, the crack of airborne kunai piercing the air, and the rhythmic thud of explosions in the distance. Then, a sound cut through the chaos—a high-pitched note, thin and eerie, carried on the wind like a whisper. At first, it seemed harmless, a flute's melody lost in the battlefield's noise. But as the sound twisted in the air, my body betrayed me. My limbs grew heavy, sluggish, like they'd been bound by invisible chains. I tried to move, but my feet sank deeper into the mud, my arms weighed down as though held by the earth itself. Panic flared in my chest. I couldn't move, couldn't fight.
The battlefield warped before my eyes, the trenches distorting into grotesque shapes. Blood-soaked corpses rose from the mud, their hollow eyes staring through me, their hands reaching out, pulling me into the earth. My breath quickened. The dead whispered my name, their voices hollow and cold, filling my ears with a dread I couldn't shake. The kunai slipped from my fingers, falling to the ground with a dull thud.
My mind screamed to run, to fight back, but I was paralyzed, held captive by the sound. The visions tightened around me, suffocating my thoughts. My legs buckled, the horror creeping closer, a darkness I couldn't escape.
Then, a sharp pain at the back of my head. Kakashi's voice, distant but clear. "Focus, Naruto." His hand gripped my shoulder again. The nightmare shattered, the chains dissolved, and the twisted figures melted into the mud where they belonged. I gasped for air, the world snapping back into its brutal clarity. Kakashi's eye lingered on mine, the look telling me everything. He didn't trust me to look after myself. Weak, he probably thought. In a way, he wasn't wrong. Sasuke's face emerged again in my mind. Unknowingly, the comparisons began.
Disgusted at my ineptness, I pushed myself up, kunai drawn. A figure rushed at me from the fog—an enemy shinobi, his face hidden by a mask. He crashed into the mud a second later, Kakashi-sensei's kunai buried deep in his face.
"Stick with your teammates," sensei ordered. I turned to find them. Sakura was healing a wounded shinobi, her hands glowing with a faint green light. She flinched as a fireball struck closer, but didn't pause even as blood and burnt flesh spattered her face. Shikamaru stood in front of her, stabbing a shinobi bound by his shadow to death. The man was screaming. The Nara's face was pale, his eyes cold. Uncaring.
At that moment, the hatred I felt wasn't for the enemy. It was for myself. All the grand speeches, all the promises I made about bringing Sasuke to justice for his crimes—they felt hollow now, empty. Here I was, frozen in place, unable to take even the first step. My own cowardice, my weakness, choked me, more suffocating than any genjutsu. The doubts that had always lingered at the edges of my mind now screamed with clarity. Was I truly that weak? Am I truly that weak?
The frustration boiled over, a sickening knot twisting in my gut. All the anger, the shame, it burst from me in a savage roar, "RAAAAAAGH!" The sound felt desperate, pathetic. Even as it escaped my throat, I knew it couldn't change anything. It never could.
Only through action could I do what was expected of me.
There's a sound to war. Not the explosions or the clashing of steel, no. This is quieter, duller. It creeps in when the fighting stops, in the gaps between breaths, when you can hear the wind again. It's the sound you hear when the exhaustion comes—not the kind from swinging a blade or running until your legs burn, but the kind that settles in your bones. The kind that makes you feel older than you are, like life's been draining out of you with every drop of blood spilled.
It's there, this sound. Always there, it seemed. Faithful. Persistent. Unforgiving. The sound of nothing. The silence of places where people once stood. The whisper of Yomi talking her fill of the earth. When you've seen battle, even once, you start to notice how much louder that silence is than anything else.
I stood there, in the trench, looking up at the corpse pinned against the ruined wall before me. It was strange, staring into the emptiness of a man who had just been alive moments ago. His blood was warm on my arm. His weight heavy on my shoulders where his limp body rested.
In some distant way, I had always known this day would come. The Rasengan was not a trivial technique. A great volume of chakra spun and compressed to a single point was a dangerous thing. It ground granite, crushed wood, and tore metal all the same. Mere flesh and bone were nonexistent before it. Trivial.
I stepped back, pulling my arm free of the Oto-nin's torso. The body dropped in the mud with a wet noise. I stared down at him, at the mess I'd made. His face was slack now, the lines of struggle erased, like the earth had claimed its due already. A smudge of life reduced to filth.
That silence draped over me like a shroud, hollow. It stripped away the world's noise and left only my thoughts to gnaw at me. It clung, a coldness settling in where there should've been something—relief, victory, maybe even satisfaction. But there was nothing.
I wiped the blood off on my sleeve, but it didn't come off clean. It never did. It stayed with me even as I tried to scrub it off, the feel of it, the weight of what I had done. Kakashi's voice cut through it, the silence. My thoughts. "Pay attention to your surroundings," he said. Distantly, I watched him brush past me to examine the corpse. Dark blood soaked the waterlogged earth. Bile rose in my throat. I forced it down. Weakness. Not again. Never again.
I nodded, dragging my foot through the mud, feeling its pull, as if it wanted to hold me here, trap me in this moment. But there was nothing here for me. I moved on, turning my back on the body, on the silence. The sounds of battle reached me again. The clanging steel. The explosions. Shikamaru's grunts as Sakura tended his wounds. My gaze slid over the scene to settle on the horizon. No-Man's Land. The enemy was retreating. We'd forced them back.
Victory.
Though it didn't feel like one.