Hey there, my name is Tanaka. I am a brown skinned chubby lady aged thirty five. I am married with two kids. The man laying on the bed beside me is my Dad. He's suffering from lung cancer and liver failure. He only has a few days to live and yet, here I am feeling nothing. No remorse as I stare at him dying , No pain as he cries out for mercy, just nothing!!! But before I judge myself and you jugde me for my emotions. Let me start from the beginning, from the day I wish never happened.
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It was thirty six years ago, my mother sat on a small stool near the door while my father and his family members sat on the couch rendering their verdict. " Just abort it!!" His mother spouted out with an ounce of guilty. " His a father in the church, you two are not married yet. You'll ruin him. " She added. My mother's eyes widened in shock. ' abort it!! I should abort my baby?' She thought. " Dear, the decision is up to you but I won't support you in any way." His father also added. Everyone in the room seemed happy to have finally come to the conclusion of abortion. My so called father just sat there looking down with nothing to say in defense of his child and the mother of his child. " Andrew???" My mother finally spoke. " are you seriously going to agree to aborting our child?" Her eyes where filled with tears and her lips trembled as she asked. Her heart clenched and raced minute by minute , she thought she'd drop dead. She asked him again but he just kept quiet...burying his head in his hands. The silence was so chocking. " No-o I...I...will not be aborting my baby. Kill me if you must!!" My mother declared and stumbled outside that house to get hold of some oxygen cause at that moment she felt like the room was becoming heavy to breathe in.
Six months passed with my mother staying alone as a caretaker in an incompleted house. She got by through selling vegetables and fruits and farming despite being heavily pregnant. One afternoon, my father