Season: Autumn
Weather: Partly cloudy in the morning with frost but then becoming fine and slightly warmer in the afternoon, despite the chilly breeze.
Day of the week: Saturday
Date: 20th April, 2024
The dark shadow lord is a narcissistic, annoying, irritating, disrespectful rascal.
He took my clothes off and slept with me naked again. He bathed me while I was asleep and unconscious and I didn't wake up. How did I not wake up? He touched me and I didn't even know. The meanie took advantage of me.
The good thing is that the dark shadow lord hasn't done anything besides look and touch. As in, I'm still... chaste. Of a sort.
I'm so mad. So, so mad. I want to kick him.
Deaglan was looking for me and so Umbrey brought Deaglan over while I was still asleep, naked in his bed. Deaglan was so mad that he cried and tried to punch Umbrey who playfully fended him off with ease.
Deaglan is mad with me now. What am I meant to do? How do I explain to him that nothing happened? I was tired, unconscious, asleep. I didn't know what had happened. Deaglan is ignoring me and I don't know what to do with myself.
I managed to kick Umbrey when I was given some clothes so that I could get out of the bed, but that had only made him laugh uproariously. When I tried to kick him again, he caught my ankle and pulled me into a weird position that made Deaglan want to fight him again.
Maybe I should cook dinner today for Deaglan. Do you think Deaglan will calm down if I cook something nice? What should I cook? Let's go see what's in the fridge.
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Deaglan ended up going out for dinner. I sat with the few dishes I had made at the table, staring forlornly at the door. When midnight came and there was still no sight of him, I covered the food and put things away. I wrote him a small letter, explaining what had happened.
If he didn't want to listen to me, perhaps he would be willing to read.
I wanted to go to sleep but couldn't. So I decided to write some more in my journal, but it's not helping and I feel jittery. I can't sit still. I'll go out for a walk.