Fear felt like it was my new normal, slowly consuming me, mind body and soul.
I woke up screaming every night since the rouge attack, dad said I would learn and get over it,
Melody told me to go to therapy.
Just the thought of those soulless dark eyes creeping towards me, the hulking vicious forms trained to kill and destroy, made me feel like a simpering pup.
Not very Beta warrior of me.
Nissa has been mad at me.
She wanted out, she needed to run, to stretch her muscles, but I haven't shifted once since that day.
I haven't done much since that day.
I've been avoiding training after school, when I really shouldn't, I proved I needed it.
As I lay back on my bed staring at the ceiling, I wonder if I should just run now while the pack is dealing with all the chaos?
Grab my money and a few pairs of clothes and bolt of the borders.
I know once I was over that territory I was home free.
No threats of rouges, no more training, no more werewolf bullshit.
Then I could heal my mind.
Oh goddess that sounds amazing, the only thing that kept me from following through with my plans was Melody, I couldn't just leave her, she needs me and I need her.
"You're stupid" Nissa huffed finally breaking her silence.
"If we run the paranormal court that governs us will hunt you down, it's not like we're some disposable omega, were Beta blood" she continued.
Goddess I wanted to just block her out, but that was hard when you essentially were the same person.
" I thought you were ignoring me?" I questioned her, a sneer creeping on to my face.
"I was but I'm done listening to your pity party, it not like closing out your pack will help you feel any better, we need them" nissa exclaimed.
Ha need them I've never needed them, only Melly the only person I've ever trusted and relied on ever.
Nissa didn't understand she was the wolf she wanted that pack bond but I'm wholly human and wanted to have my own life.
To just wake up in the morning and life be boring, I wanna paint and not worry about all out war, or mates.
Then I heard the front door open gently, dad was trying not to startle me which I did appreciate.
"Hey kid!?" he called up the steps " I need you to come here" he added, great dad wanted to talk that never ended well.
Throwing on some sweats from the not too dirty to put away but to clean to wash pile, I Marched down the steps dreading whatever conversation was about to happen.
Running down the steps, I turned and walked passed the kitchen to the living room where not only my father but alpha pascals son Dryden were currently occupied.
As I walked closer, dad cussed letting out a hiss of pain.
"Dryden gently please" dad pleaded.
"Sorry Beta Clint I'm trying" he sighed.
Carefully I walked in front of the coffee table to see what hell was going on, I could tell dad was hurt but when I saw her leg bile raised in my throat, I swallowed it down quickly.
Dads leg and foot were completely purple and hung at an odd angle.
Soundlessly I covered my mouth with my hands and let out a small squeak.
"What happened" I whispered.
Dryden looked up at me with sympathetic eyes.
"We ran a new border route and Beta Clint went over a cliff into a small ravine, then the genius shifts back and a bolder falls down on his leg" Dryden sighed, gestures to dad's leg and reaches into a bag on his hip, pulling out a horrific looking syringe, it was filled with a milky substance, he flicked his finger against it and pushed some of it out to remove the bubbles.
"What's that?" I asked cocking my head to the side.
"This is a very strong painkiller that can knock out a 800lbs bear, and the only thing that works on werewolves because our bodies burn regular painkiller out of our system in minutes" he explained then not so gently stabbed dad in the leg, causing dad to bite down on his lips and throw his head back in pain.
"So he should be good as new in about 3 months" Dryden carried on as if he hadn't just shoved bear tranquilizer into his Betas leg.
But as I watch dad's face he relaxed and started gently snoring.
"I need you to come to the pack house with me Dad wanted to talk to you, and I need help bringing some stuff back to help set beta Clint's leg" Dryden looked so stressed, but that didn't stop him from being the most attractive person in the world ever, his eyes looked like storm clouds, he was pretty tall 6'3 with a wide chest that showed off his massive muscles, he kept his strawberry blonde hair long with an under cut that he dyed black.
looking at him was like looking at the sun, he was tan and God like, the moon Goddess definitely blessed him.
Even his sent was delicious and intoxicating he smelled like cedar and Brandy It was hard not to drool even worse when he was so damn close.
"Fuck he's yummy, I want a taste of that" Nissa howls in my head.
I was so zoned out thinking about how sexy he was I didn't notice his snapping his fingers in front of my face yelling earth to Essie.
I felt a blush creep over my face, which made him laugh.
"Wow, I even get the ice queen hot I feel honored" he teased, wait did he just say ice queen.
"Huh? what are you talking about"
I muttered, feeling my face heat even more.
He laughed, "you know... ice queen.."
Wait what?
I don't think I heard right, there's no way I could possibly have heard that correctly.
"Ice queen...you know because you don't like men?" he smirked.
My jaw flopped open in shock, did he think I was a lesbian, oh my Goddess.
"I- I'm not gay" I stammered awkwardly.
He froze his eyes growing wide, he looked like he wanted to be anywhere but here.
"But you and the omega girl, what's her name" he looked like he was about to be sick.
"you mean melody?" I asked eyebrows raised.
"She's my best friend, we aren't in a relationship, she has a mate" I replied I was kind of annoyed, "is this why I don't get asked to pack events?" I gasped putting two and two together.
"I fell like I should just shut my mouth, we should go and grab some clothes" he was about to run away I could see sweat forming on his brow.
He turned and started walking out of the house, I ran after him grabbing him by his shirt sleeve.
"Dryden stop!"
I shouted tugging at him.
He stopped and faced me, I had to look up to make eye contact.
His eyes shifted to black startling me, I let go and stepped back, he came forward at me pinning me between him and the wall with his huge muscled arms, I could hear a soft growl rumbling in his chest.
"I wouldn't do that beauty" he panted his voice deep and husky, the sound made my stomach tighten my core growing hot, no doubt he could smell my aroused state.
"D-Dryden? what are you doing?" I was stumbling over my words I had to look up to look into his eyes seeing as I only came up to his chest, he bent his his face down closer to mine, his hot breath fanning me.
What the hell was happening.
"Kiss him you pussy" nissa taunted "he wants you, and look at him he would completely destroy us in the most amazing ways" she wasn't making this easier, wolves were usually very Open to sex, but I was not.
And Dryden looked like I was his next meal as he inhaled deeply.
"You smell so good" he moaned, planting a gentle kiss across my temple.
I shivered at the sensation, I've never been touched by anyone ever I have no idea what to do in this situation.
Nissa kept imagining all the pleasure the large Alpha male could do to us, fucking horny wolf.
"I've always wanted you" he gulped, I was frozen. I've known him my whole life, we had been really close as pups but we drifted apart when Melody joined the pack, I can't believe this is happening.
His large hand wrap around the back of my neck as he tangled his fingers in my hair, gently pulling my head back to expose my neck better for him.
"Please Dryden" I whimpered.
He smirked against my skin before nipping and sucking my neck harshly.
There were sparks flying from my neck up to my brain, every time he bit my skin it sent jolts down to my core, it felt so good, so good like nothing else, my body couldn't keep up, I groaned lightly.
The warmth of his hands move from behind me to cup both sides of my face gently lifting me up and moving back until he was pressed fully into my body, his erection resting firmly against stomach.
Leaning down he kisses me passionately, I couldn't think only feel, and it felt amazing.
"Good girl" he growled against my lips, his tongue running over my bottom lip sucking it into his mouth.
The way his tongue brushed against my bottom lip caused me to moan softly, I wrapped my legs around his waist and pulled him in closer as he deepened the kiss further.
"Mmh..." he hummed.
When the kiss ended it left us panting and dazed.
"Let's take you to bed" He said in a low seductive tone.
"Yess" I breathed
He took me in his arms and took me like some kidnapped bride out of the living room carrying me up the stairs towards my bedroom door, my heart was beating rapidly as the anticipation grew with every passing step he took.
My bedroom door opened and Dryden placed me on the edge of my bed.
"Come on gorgeous, i need to see your body" he purred rubbing his thumb across my belly button teasingly.
My breathing got heavier as my nipples hardened, I licked my lips and slowly slid down the zipper on my shirt.
He grinned devilishly watching me slide down the zipper, his eyes locked onto my exposed breasts.
Reaching behind me I unclasped my bra, letting the straps fall to the floor.
"Fuck i'm going to take my sweet time" he smiled, his eyes darkened, his pupils dilating.
As my breasts fell free, he sucked in air through his teeth, his gaze flickering between my breasts and my eyes.
His eyes flashed black, he began trailing kisses down my abdomen, he stopped just above my belly button before leaning back and reaching up to push off my sweatpants.
He pulled them down my thighs slowly exposing my naked legs, he looked me up and down with such lust I thought my heart may burst.
He moved on lower kissing me along my inner thigh.
Pulling my underwear down my legs one inch at a time, taking my panties off too. As soon as they hit the floor I felt his warm, wet lips pressing against the inside of my inner thigh.
My whole body stiffening as my eyes roll back at the tingle of pleasure spreads through my entire body, and I gasp.
Pulling his lips from my skin he stared down at me with a hungry gaze.
"So beautiful, you're so full of much passion for me" He whispered.
Slowly he traced the outline of my pussy with his index finger.
A loud moan escaped my throat and I closed my eyes, he continued his trail up my pussy until he reached the edge.
"Do you trust me?" he asked, his voice laced with lust.
"Yes"
My answer pleases him as he smiles licking his lips, before sliding his tongue into me.
The sensation pulled a loud whimper from me as he filled me completely, I could feel the tension build in my muscles and I knew if he didn't stop I was going to explode.
"Oh Goddess yes" I moaned out.
It was beautiful torture as he continued to lick and suck me, his tongue swirling around my clit causing me to squirm and arch my back.
"Ahhh" I cried out, my hips bucking up trying to get closer to him.
"Shhhh baby, relax" he cooed.
My lungs tried to pull in a breath but failed miserably.
"Baby just relax" he moaned, I nodded unable to speak as my orgasm rolled over me, I screamed loudly as the waves of pleasure crashed over me, my legs shaking as I collapsed against the mattress and sobbed in bliss.
Dryden chuckled against me.
"That was perfect" he murmured.
"You're unbelievable," I sighed.
"Don't tell anyone I did that" he joked.
Then after my body calmed I felt the guilt. What the fuck just happened?
Dryden looked up at me hunger still filled his gaze as he stood and pushed himself between my legs .
"You're so sexy," he muttered leaning down and kissing me passionately again.
"I'm sorry"
Dryden pulled away frowning "why are you apologizing darling."
"I don't think I can do this" I whined, biting my lip.
"Can't do what?" he asked confused.
"Sex.... with you"
I didn't want to do it, I couldn't.
"I won't hurt you, you won't even know what hit you" he smirked.
"I know you won't hurt me, but we aren't mates" I said softly, guilt consuming me completely, I should have never let this happen.
Dryden sighed pulling himself off me, he sat down on the side of my bed,
"You're worth waiting for if you'll give me a chance"
He said sincerely.
"What's that mean?"
I asked tilting my head slightly, confused.
Dryden smiled and chuckled darkly at me before getting up, walking to my closet,
"Take your time, it's all right darling" he said throwing the clothes on the chair in front of the door
"Dryden" I pleaded
"It's fine I'm not going anywhere I'll wait for you, I think my dick just took over, but I don't regret tasting you" he smirked.
All I could do was laugh.
"What's so funny?" he asked sitting beside me.
"You just called me 'darling' " I giggled.
"Well you are my darling" he giggled right along with me.
We found me a bag in the hall linen closet, to take along with me to the pack house tonight as I stepped back into my sweatpants, then righting my bra and zip up crop top.
Quickly I grabbed my tooth brush And a hair brush, the shoved everything inside it haphazardly.
"We need to get going I still need to come back and set your dad's leg" Dryden called from the hall bathroom.
Holy shit my dad was down stairs, I felt like I was about to be sick, I really hope he was still asleep.
But seeing as we didn't hear a peep from him the whole time Dryden face was buried in my pussy, I think I was safe.
Dryden walked back into my room a shit eating grin plastered on his face.
"I found your friend" he smirked mischievously, he then held up a small pink vibrator, I wanted to die.
"Give me that now" I tried to order him.
But he didn't budge swinging it back and forth in front of my face, so I lounged at him catching him by surprise, but he was fast and had me pinned under him in a second his thigh pressed between my legs, he looked down at me eyes wide, we then both busted out laughing, he wrapped me in a crushing bear hug kissing my forehead sweetly.
And for the first time since the attack I didn't feel any fear.