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Chapter 11 - Chapter 10: What if I try to accept him for the sake of the baby!!

Evelyn sat by the window, her hand resting gently on her stomach, feeling the faint, delicate flutter of life growing inside her. She had spent the last few days reflecting deeply, her mind constantly pulling her in conflicting directions. The revelation that she was carrying Nickolas's baby was both a shock and an undeniable reality. How could she reconcile her fear of him with the knowledge that she was now tied to him by something so innocent, so pure?

The baby was not just a symbol of their complicated, tangled past, but also a future she hadn't imagined once she couldn't run from him.

Could she accept him, even if only for the child's sake? The question gnawed at her as she tried to process everything that had led her here.

Her mind drifted back to the heated night on Nickolas's island. She had been terrified and angry, yet she couldn't deny the raw intensity of their connection. He had been obsessive and controlling but also relentless in his love for her. It was suffocating, but in some dark corner of her heart, Evelyn wondered if there was a way to make peace with that. Was it possible for her to accept his obsession for the sake of their child? Could she find a version of him she could live with, if not for herself, then for the baby?

In the hallway outside, Dmitry leaned against the wall, his sharp eyes watching every move of the Maxwell security detail. He had spent his life protecting his little sister, but this situation with Nickolas was far beyond anything they had ever faced. His jaw tightened as he replayed their recent conversations. Evelyn had always been strong, but Dmitry feared that her compassion might blind her to the reality of Nickolas's dangerous nature.

Zie Xin approached him, her expression as grave as his. "She's been quiet all day. Do you think she's really considering it?"

Dmitry glanced at the closed door of Evelyn's room, the tension visible on his face. "I don't know. She's confused. I can see it in her eyes."

Zie Xin sighed, folding her arms across her chest. "She's thinking about the baby. And Nickolas knows that. He's counting on it."

"That's what worries me," Dmitry muttered. "She wants to protect her child, but accepting Nickolas could mean losing herself."

Inside her room, Evelyn's thoughts were interrupted by the sound of light knocking. Dmitry entered cautiously, as if sensing the heaviness of her emotions. He sat beside her, his usual confident demeanor softened by concern.

"You've been distant," Dmitry observed gently, watching her closely. "What's going on in that head of yours?"

Evelyn sighed, her gaze still fixed on the outside world. "I don't know, Brother. It's… complicated."

"Complicated is an understatement," Dmitry replied, his voice tinged with frustration. "You're not seriously thinking of… accepting him, are you? After everything?"

Evelyn closed her eyes, her heart pounding with the weight of her decision. "I'm not saying I've made up my mind. But… this baby—Brother, it changes everything."

Dmitry's brow furrowed, his protective instincts flaring. "He's dangerous, Evie. You know that. A baby doesn't change who Nickolas is."

Evelyn shook her head. "I know he's dangerous. But he's also… the father of my child. I can't pretend that doesn't matter."

Her brother's jaw tightened, and he leaned forward, his voice low but intense. "What about you? What happens to you if you go back to him? Do you think he'll suddenly change? That he'll stop being obsessed with controlling every part of your life?"

Tears welled in Evelyn's eyes, and she struggled to find the words. "I don't know," she whispered. "But I can't let this baby grow up without a father. I don't want that."

Dmitry's expression softened his heartbreak for his sister. He reached out and gently placed his hand over hers. "You don't have to sacrifice yourself for the baby, Evie. We can protect you. You don't have to go back to him."

"But what if I'm wrong?" Evelyn asked, her voice trembling. "What if he really does love me in his own way? What if… accepting him is the only way to give this baby a future and protect our family from getting hurt?"

Dmitry stared at her, his heart heavy with worry. He had always been the rational one, the protector. But this—this was something he couldn't even fix. All he could do was be there for her, whatever she decided.

"I don't know, Evelyn," he said softly. "But whatever choice you make, we'll be with you. You're not alone in this."

Later that evening, after everyone had retired to their rooms, Evelyn sat in front of the fire, lost in thought. The flickering flames mirrored the confusion and turmoil swirling inside her. She thought about the man Nickolas had once been before the obsession had taken over. There had been moments—rare but real—where she had seen glimpses of the man who had captivated her heart. Could that version of Nickolas still exist, buried beneath the layers of his possessiveness and control?

She knew one thing for sure: if she decided to accept him, it wouldn't be because she was giving in to fear. It would be for her child. This baby deserved a father, and if there was any chance that Nickolas could change, even for the sake of their child, wasn't it worth considering?

But was she prepared to live in a world where she would always be watched, controlled, and even loved in a way that suffocated her spirit? Could she really raise her child in such an environment?

Evelyn stood up, wrapping her arms around herself as she gazed out the window at the night sky. The weight of the decision pressed down on her, threatening to crush her. But one thing was clear—whatever choice she made, it would shape not only her future but the future of her unborn child.

The winds of fate were blowing, and Evelyn could feel that her life was about to change forever. She just didn't know which way they would take her.

The next morning, Evelyn woke up to the sound of rain tapping gently against the windows. The soft patter seemed to echo her restless thoughts, and as she lay in bed, she couldn't help but run her hand over her stomach again. The connection between her and the child grew stronger by the day, but the future still seemed uncertain. Could she really give her child a stable life while entangled with Nickolas? Could she accept him, his darkness, his obsession, for the sake of this innocent life growing inside her?

Her phone buzzed on the nightstand, interrupting her reverie. It was a message from Zie Xin:

Are you okay? Sir and I are here if you need anything. Take your time, but don't isolate yourself.

Evelyn appreciated Zie Xin's concern. She was one of the few people who truly understood the depth of the situation. Evelyn typed a quick response, thanking her for the support, and then put the phone aside, knowing she had to face the reality of her decision soon. Today felt like a turning point, and she needed clarity.

Nickolas had not called, and for that, she was grateful. It had been two days since their last conversation, and while his silence was unsettling, it gave her the space she needed to think. She did not doubt that Nickolas was planning his next move, but for now, there was peace. As much as Nickolas had been relentlessly pursuing her, he seemed to understand—at least on some level—that she needed this time.

Evelyn took a deep breath and went to the living room, where Dmitry and Zie Xin were waiting for her. Dmitry looked up from a pile of paperwork, his sharp gaze softening as she entered the room.

"Evie," he said, standing up. "We've been waiting to talk."

Zie Xin nodded from her seat by the window. "We're worried about you," she added, her voice calm but serious.

Evelyn offered a small smile, though her heart was heavy. "I know you both are. And I'm sorry for shutting you out. I've just… I've been thinking."

Dmitry crossed his arms, his protective nature immediately kicking in. "What are you thinking, exactly?"

Evelyn hesitated, her eyes falling to the floor. "I've been considering… accepting Nickolas. For the sake of the baby."

The room went still. Dmitry's expression darkened while Zie Xin's brows furrowed with concern.

"Accept him?" Dmitry asked, his voice tense. "You can't be serious. After everything he's done? Evie, he's dangerous. He's obsessed with you."

Evelyn's hands clenched at her sides. "I know. But the baby—Brother, I can't raise this child without considering what it means to have Nickolas as the father. If I keep fighting him, it will only make things worse. I'm not saying I've decided, but… what if I try? What if he's willing to change for the baby?"

Dmitry shook his head, clearly frustrated. "He won't change. Men like him don't change, Evie. You'll only trap yourself in a life of control and manipulation. You've already seen what he's capable of."

Zie Xin chimed in gently, her voice steady. "Miss, we know you're thinking about the baby. And we understand that. But you must also consider what kind of life you want for yourself and your child. A father who's controlling, obsessive, and possessive… that's not a healthy environment for a child to grow up in."

Evelyn's heart twisted. She knew they were right. She knew all the warnings were justified. But part of her still clung to the idea that maybe—just maybe—Nickolas's love for their child could soften his edges. Maybe fatherhood would make him see things differently.

"I'm not saying I'll forgive him," she said, her voice quieter now. "But maybe… maybe if I don't push him away, he'll be better. For the baby."

Dmitry exhaled heavily, running a hand through his hair. "You're asking yourself to accept a man who has already hurt you emotionally and who will continue to control you. That's not love, Evie. That's a cage."

"I know," Evelyn replied, her eyes filling with unshed tears. "But maybe… maybe this baby is the key to changing things. I don't want my child to grow up without a father. I know what that's like."

Zie Xin's gaze softened as she touched Evelyn's shoulder. "Miss, your child doesn't need a father like Nickolas. Your child needs love, safety, and a healthy environment. And if Nickolas can't provide that, then it's okay to let go. You can't let guilt or fear drive your decisions."

Evelyn wiped her eyes, overwhelmed by the weight of it all. She loved her brothers and her family and knew they only wanted the best for her. But the thought of Nickolas—of how deeply he loved her in his twisted way—made the decision infinitely harder. She didn't doubt that he would be a devoted father. But would he be the kind of father she wanted for her child?

Later that night, Evelyn stood on the balcony, staring out at the city lights below. The baby inside her was a constant reminder that every choice she made now wasn't just about her—it was about her future and the future of her child. As the cool breeze brushed against her skin, she closed her eyes and tried to imagine what life would be like if she accepted Nickolas's presence in their lives.

Would it be a life of fear and control, or could it be something more? Could he change, or would his obsession only deepen?

The sound of footsteps interrupted her thoughts. She turned to see Dmitry standing in the doorway, watching her with a mixture of worry and love.

"You don't have to decide tonight," he said softly, stepping out onto the balcony with her. "But whatever you decide, I'll be here for you. We all will."

Evelyn nodded, leaning her head against her brother's shoulder. "I know. I just… I wish things were different."

Dmitry's arms were wrapped around her shoulders, pulling her close. "So do I, Evie. So do I."

As the night stretched on, Evelyn couldn't shake the feeling that the winds of fate were shifting, guiding her toward a decision that would change her life forever. The only question was whether she was ready to face it head-on or let it slip through her fingers.

The days blurred into one another as Evelyn wrestled with her thoughts. With each passing hour, the mansion felt more like a gilded cage. The distant remains of her family's voices filtered through the halls, starkly contrasting the storm brewing inside her heart. Dmitry had been distant but watchful, always at the edge of her space, ready to pull her away from her thoughts if they grew too dark.

Evelyn stood in front of the grand mirror in her room, running a hand over her belly. It was barely noticeable, but she felt the life inside her growing. The thought of becoming a mother brought a soft warmth to her heart, but it was always shadowed by the reality of whom the father was. Nickolas Alexander Jr. His name remained in her mind, mixing everything she had run away from and everything she now considered surrendering to.

But how could she truly accept him? Could she ever find peace with a man who had pursued her with an obsession so fierce it left no room for her to breathe?

A knock at the door interrupted her thoughts. Zie Xin entered her calm presence, a welcome relief. "Miss," she began, her eyes scanning the room before settling on her friend. "I thought you might like some company."

Evelyn smiled softly, appreciating Zie Xin's quiet understanding. "I'm glad you're here."

Zie Xin sat by the window, watching the rain fall outside. "You've been thinking about him again, haven't you?"

Evelyn sighed, sitting down across from her. "I can't stop. I've tried. He's the father of my child, Zie Xin. That connection is something I can't just walk away from."

Zie Xin's eyes softened with understanding, but there was also a hint of caution. "I know this is hard, but you have to remember that love and control are not the same. Nickolas is dangerous, Miss. His love isn't built on trust or respect—it's built on possession. He doesn't want to share you with the world. He wants to own you."

Evelyn swallowed hard, her throat tight with emotion. "I know," she whispered. "But… what if he could change? What if the baby changes him? I've seen a side of him that no one else has, Zie Xin. When he holds me, there's something in him. A part of me wonders if that's enough to hold onto."

Zie Xin's expression remained compassionate but firm. "You're asking yourself to live in hope, Miss. Hope that Nickolas will become someone he's not. People don't change because we want them to. They change because they choose to. And Nickolas has shown you who he is—again and again."

Evelyn's heart ached. She knew Zie Xin was right, but the thought of raising her child without a father still gnawed at her. "I don't want my baby to grow up without knowing its father."

Zie Xin's voice softened. "And your child won't. But there's a difference between having a father and being trapped in a life of fear. You have to think about the kind of example you want to set for your child. Do you want them to grow up in a home where love is about control? Or do you want them to know what true love and respect look like?"

Evelyn closed her eyes, the weight of Zie Xin's words sinking in. She had always envisioned a future where her child would grow up in a loving, supportive environment surrounded by family and security. But could she ever provide that with Nickolas in the picture?

Later that evening, Dmitry found her sitting on the balcony, staring out at the darkened sky. He approached her quietly and took a seat beside her.

"You're thinking about him again," Dmitry said, his voice soft but laced with concern.

Evelyn didn't bother denying it. "I don't know what to do, brother. I keep going over the same thoughts in my head. I want to believe that he could be different, that the baby could change him. But deep down, I know I'm lying to myself."

Dmitry placed a hand on her shoulder, his touch comforting and steady. "You don't have to make this decision alone, Evie. We're all here for you. And whatever you decide, we'll support you. But I need you to be honest with yourself. Nickolas isn't going to change. He's been obsessed with you since we were kids. That kind of obsession doesn't go away—it just grows. And the more power you give him, the harder it will be to break free."

Evelyn's eyes filled with tears, her voice trembling as she spoke. "But I can't ignore the fact that he loves this baby. That he wants to be involved. I can't just shut him out of our child's life. What if that pushes him over that?"

Dmitry sighed, his grip on her shoulder tightening slightly. "Nickolas is already on that, Evie. You're not responsible for his actions. You're responsible for protecting yourself and your baby. And if that means keeping him at a distance, then that's what you have to do. You can't let his obsession dictate your life."

Evelyn's tears slipped down her cheeks, and she wiped them away quickly. "I just don't know if I'm strong enough."

Dmitry turned her to face him, his eyes filled with the fierce protectiveness he had always shown her. "You are strong enough. You've survived so much already. Don't let him break you now."

Evelyn nodded, her heart heavy with the realization that she could no longer run from the choice she had been avoiding for so long. Nickolas's love was not the kind of love she wanted for herself or her child. It was a dangerous, suffocating love, and it would only grow more controlling if she gave in.

The next morning, Evelyn made her decision.

As she stood in front of the mirror, her reflection staring back at her, she felt a calm resolve settle over her. She couldn't let her child grow up without their father.

Then, Evelyn stood on the balcony, the cool evening air brushing against her skin as she looked out over the sprawling gardens of the Maxwell estate. The moon hung low in the sky, casting a silvery glow across the landscape. It had been days since she'd decided—one that had haunted her nights and weighed heavily on her heart.

She had chosen to accept him.

Despite everything—the suffocating possessiveness and dangerous obsession that had shadowed her for years—she chose Nickolas Alexander Jr. again. Not because it was easy or because she had forgotten the pain of the past. No. It was because of something deeper, something that now grew inside her—her child.

Evelyn ran a hand over her belly, barely showing the signs of life within, but she could feel the change. The baby connected her to Nickolas in a way that frightened and grounded her. She couldn't deny the powerful bond between them, and no matter how hard she tried, Nickolas's love—or obsession—was something she could no longer ignore.

She had fought against it, tried to escape his grasp repeatedly, but there was something relentless about how he pursued her. It wasn't just that Nickolas wanted her; he needed her. And as much as it scared her, that need was undeniable.

Zie Xin, her closest aide, had urged her to reconsider. Dmitry had warned her about the dangers of being bound to a man like Nickolas, but something in Evelyn had shifted. Was it the baby? Or was it the quiet realization that no matter how far she ran, she would never truly be free from him? The truth was that Evelyn had stopped running. She wasn't sure when it had happened, but the fight in her had slowly given way to a strange kind of acceptance.

Nickolas's love was dangerous—there was no denying that. It wasn't the kind of love she had once dreamed of, the soft and tender love that she had hoped for. No. His love was fierce, possessive, and all-consuming. But maybe… just maybe, that was the only kind of love he knew how to give.

A knock on the door startled her from her thoughts. She turned to see Dmitry standing in the doorway, his expression a mix of concern and quiet understanding. "Evie, are you sure about this?" His voice was gentle but firm, the protective older brother who had always tried to shield her from the world.

She smiled softly, though her heart ached. "I've thought about this a lot, brother. I couldn't keep fighting him. The baby… our child… deserves a chance to know its father."

Dmitry sighed, stepping further into the room. "But at what cost, Evelyn? You know what he's like. You've seen what he's capable of."

Evelyn's eyes dropped to the floor, her fingers tracing the curve of her belly. "I know. I know better than anyone. But I also know that a part of Nickolas is… different from me. When he's with me, there's something about him. He's not the cold, ruthless man the world sees."

Dmitry crossed his arms, his brow furrowed. "And that's enough? Enough to overlook everything else? His control, his obsession? Evie, I'm scared for you."

Evelyn swallowed hard, her voice barely a whisper. "I'm scared too. But I've made my decision. I'll accept him—for the sake of our child."

Dmitry shook his head, running a hand through his hair. "I just don't want to see you hurt again."

"I won't either," she admitted. "But I can't deny him the chance to be a father. Maybe… maybe this baby will be what changes him."

Dmitry's gaze softened, and after a long moment, he stepped forward and hugged her. "Just promise me, if you ever feel trapped… if you ever feel like it's too much, you'll come to me. You don't have to do this alone."

Tears welled in her eyes as she rested her head on his shoulder. "I promise."

That evening, after Dmitry left, Evelyn sat in her room, waiting for this. She had sent word to Nickolas—she was ready to see him. The silence of the night was broken only by the sound of her heart pounding in her chest. Every second felt like an eternity, and yet, part of her was oddly calm. She knew what was coming.

When the door finally opened, Nickolas stepped inside, his presence commanding as always. His dark eyes locked onto hers, a mix of longing and triumph evident in his gaze. He approached her slowly, his steps deliberate, as if afraid she might disappear if he moved too quickly.

"Evelyn," he whispered, his voice low and rough. "You called for me."

She nodded, unable to find the words at first. She had always been strong, even in the face of his intensity, but tonight… tonight, she felt vulnerable in a way she hadn't in years. "I… I've made a decision," she said, her voice soft but steady.

Nickolas's brow furrowed slightly, his hand brushing her cheek. "What decision?"

"I'm going to stay. With you." The words hung in the air, heavy with the weight of what they meant.

His eyes darkened, but not with anger. There was something deeper there—relief, desire, and something she couldn't quite place. "You're staying… with me?" he repeated, as if needing to hear the words again.

Evelyn nodded, her heart racing. "For the baby. For us. But, Nickolas… there have to be limits."

His hand stilled on her cheek, his gaze intense. "Limits?" His tone was cautious.

"I need space. I need freedom. You can't control everything, Nickolas. I'll be with you, but you must understand that I'm not something you can own." Her voice wavered, but she held his gaze, refusing to back down.

Nickolas's jaw tightened, the possessive edge of his personality flaring momentarily. But then, surprisingly, he nodded. "I'll try, Evelyn. For you… and for the baby. I'll try."

She wasn't sure if she believed him, but for now, it was enough. This was the man she had chosen despite everything. And now, they would face whatever came next—together.