Paul reflects on what Ray told to him and the only answer he
is able to get is "It has to provide to them itself there's not much other
choices other than that… I think but anyway God would look upon it and he would
provide…" "ok it looks like you finished the smart stuff to say, you could have
ended it when you said that IT had to
provide for his own needs. Well, that's the answer but how do you do that? How
can you reproduce the calming voice of a mom that breastfeeds you, or the
laughter of a dear friend, how can you do it if you never had one? Well as the
little being grew bigger and stronger and he was able to create more complex
concepts, that's why without any teacher or parent IT was able to become so
powerful, but it took billions of years. It was one of the few beings that
instead of growing 'evolved', IT was able to feel evolution on his own skin,
the same evolution that sees us as close relative of the chimpanzees. And when
consciousness appeared IT too developed the need of pleasure and this was made
by it to itself".
Paul realized and asked "Is… is this creature singing? But
things still don't fit" what he didn't
understand was why he heard different sounds, maybe one of them would be a song
but what about the sounds that were
coming from the underground, then something was
noticeable, Bara and Mike were actually pointing to one of those voices,
the sound that thew were hearing was hypnotizing them and the only thing that
was stopping them to get there immediately was their opponent's attacks, from
their prospective the sound became always clearer, way more than what Ray and
Paul were able to hear from the starting point, Bara though had some more
limitations he couldn't wait too much around there since those powerful nail
that he was shooting at full power towards Mike would soon ran out, instead
Mike could probably keep swinging his sword for a lot. Even if at the beginning
Mike had a special advantage since his weapon would let him control more space
around him, as time passes Bara's nails were accumulating around them and were
trapped in their vortex so they kept putting Mike in dangerous, naturally they
could hit Bara too, but he was good
enough to know where they were heading. This fight was the fight of a Praying
mantis and a spider, full of lethal swings, and nails that formed a net, but
only the spider that made the net knows the strings that aren't sticky and that
won't trap you there.
The sound heard by the two that were fighting in the vortex
became a voice inside of their head, Mike could hear "I'm here, I'm from your
side" it was a voice that was coming from in front of him, it wasn't hiding, it
wasn't… distorted, it felt so real, for the first time, he started to cry, only
a little bit but he couldn't contain his emotions dancing inside of his heart,
and then a lot of memories were going through his eyes. But it wasn't happening
to Bara he wasn't crying and that made him think "did I suffer too much? Or was
I too weak to resist it? Maybe this can be the beginning of a big change in my
life, maybe I was meant for this moment, but when… ugh… when did it even begin?
And why…!>!>3^895& ahuu
ahh" the pain inside of his
consciousness that he thought to have sealed once and for all was now coming
out all at once following the music of that planet that felt like the key meant
to open him, to open Mike, all of his being. Time felt heavier, it was slowing
down, it isn't very uncommon to feel something like this, it is said that when
somebody is about to die, he lives once again his whole life in a couple of
instants before passing out, naturally those are only urban legends, or are
they? Well, it never happens, on that level at least, but when your
consciousness is in certain particular circumstances, for example, when it
thinks that its journey has come to an end it may give lots of kind of memories
in a very small fraction of time, it could be considered as the funeral that
the person makes for his own self. It's a moment of self-pity but also a
reward, because it has achieved the goal of life itself: 'DEATH'.
When your mind realizes that there's nothing to do anymore,
it lets you feel reassured it gives you a sweet sensation, that feels more like
a dream than reality, since in a certain way sleeping is a little anticipation
of death. Death and sleep have lots of things in common, both may be tempting,
and if you don't fight to get out of it you might fall on its trap, but the
only difference between them is that DEATH IS EVERLASTING, a was even
different. Each living being that feels emotions, has certain 'buttons', that
can activate the feelings inside of them, but since the types of feelings
inside of one's mind every actions it's
pressing a different number and a different kind of buttons, but there are
certain actions that can press so many of those buttons at once that make us
feel incredibly strong feelings. That was what that song was doing to him, it
pressed so many of his buttons making him even more vulnerable and letting him
slip in his own unconscious.
It was a rainy day, and a little kid was wandering around
under the violent tempest, or at least it looked so to the little kid that felt
a strong pressure over his little arms, it was his little umbrella that he took
with him with a lot of effort, like it was his mission to bring that treasure
back to safety or something like that. He was walking on a big path, incredibly
tall trees surrounded the path around him, and they'd live him shocked and at
the same time amazed each time he'd get in that place, he was almost home, he
was able to see it after the long path that he has been taking there was a not
too big house, but surely very pretty.
The smell of the rain and or the wet wood and plants around him made him
feel a little happy since he often felt that kind of sensation and it meant
that he was getting home, after each step he took, his boots would make a weird
sound 'splash kk spadshkk kk', sliding a little bit on the wet mud under his
own feet, that was the sound that acted as a clock for him, it meant that he
was getting close to her, but… "ehmm… guyah, who is" the little kid, for a
moment he didn't remember who was waiting for him, who was inside of that
house, he closes his eyes for a little
bit and then he opens them once again, but it seems that his house has got more
distant from him, how could it be? He doesn't let this demoralize him and keeps
marching under the rain until he thinks he's arrived, NO, that's wrong. His
feet think that he arrived but he is didn't, his eyes, they see something else, the house is even further away. A
feeling of confusion took place inside of him, but it soon turned out into
terror. He started to walk a little
faster, but the house got even further, and then he kept going even faster
until the house was only a little dot.
He started running with everything he got but his house
completely disappeared, and that's when he totally panicked and felt truly
helpless. "Where is her, NO, ahh… who is her?" He noticed some beings around
him, his feet felt tickling, but he didn't pay much attention to it, but then
he saw some of those creatures, they were little very little, probably just
half of an inch. He looked away scared, but then he was too curious to not
look. He turns once again and he sees them again, now they were almost half of
an inch, their face was scary they were... scared... too.... But aren't they
the scary one? That's just one of the kid's fears that he can't express as
words but like image they go through his eyes until he can't distinguish what's
in front of him and what is just a part of his own imagination. The mud-like
creatures acted always more fiercely in his regard, he felt them pinching his
skin, and he also felt the wet and disgusting feeling of them sliding over his
skin, climbing over his body. At first, he feels them touching his feet, than
his legs and arms. He wanted to turn around, but he couldn't, he knew that he
had to check for his own safety but anyway confirming that this creatures were
on his sides meant… that he'd feel even worse, so he doesn't want to but he has
to so he finally does it… and… an enormous creature was with her giant mouth an
with its scared eyes looking at him. At
the same time the little mud-monsters climbed his body enough to reach his chest
and they were directly attacking his heart.
He felt death over his skin, a sensation that nobody could
ever forger even in a million years, he thought "They… uhh… are… uhh… going to
take my heart". After saying this a lot of the creature that were running with
him on his side united forming a huge green monster that with one of his arm
swings over the kid's body, he thought
that he'd be cut in half, but that didn't happen, instead something came from
behind very quickly coming from both side… they were arms. "Wait, are you…" the
kid says with the little amount of voice that was left in his body, he raises
his face and looking at the sky he sees a dark shadow that, that was very dark
because of the strong light that was coming from the sky. "The sun is back…
uhm… mom". The kind wanted to trust this thought and he was right, that was his
mom, he looks around and the rain stopped, and his house! His HOUSE! It was
there too, and he was just in front of it. How could that happen "Why were you
walking in a circle for so much time? I know you want to play but right now
it's time to eat Mikey! Let's go in!".
Mike was very confused, walking around? Since when was he walking around? He
was sure that he was going home, but 'home' fled from him, or did it not? After
his mom took him by the hand she brought him to the door and allowed him to get
in. He looks around and everything is back to normal.
The feeling of death crawling over his body was now very
far, although that didn't mean that he didn't see any problem anymore, instead,
when something so bad happens to you, the last thing you want is that
everything goes back to normal instantly, because you need safety, reassurance
and instead what you got it's actually that you have lost your target, it could
be hid anywhere, in front of you, up in the sky, under the ground and even in
you own mind. He turns around searching for, NO, craving his mom's attention,
NO, it didn't even need to be his mom. He needed just somebody to save him from
that atrocious feeling that wen over his whole body and to tell him even for an
instant that everything is ok and that he is safe now. What he saw though was
very different from what he was expecting, it was rather scary, his mom face,
that he finally sees clearly was scary "Why do you have to behave like this,
you brat!"