On that very day i queued In a quick unranked match as I was very disturbed by my past boyfriend. We were still in a somewhat relationship yes! But he disappointed me in not being on a very social stage with me as it was a long distance relationship. He became tired and stopped speaking to me regularly, this caused me anxiety "are you texting another girl? Why are you so busy? Why won't you tell me anythiny, do you really love me?! Who would ever want to feel like this? Who would ever want to feel so unwanted and rather lonely especially if your a loner in the real world at that? Wouldn't you want to feel wanted? Wouldn't you want to be kept on update with care and love between your partner at all times. I grew tired too and therefore i did not want to involve myself anymore with him. As he was not my Sun anymore.
And so, my day started like this. The first match came upon in a successful victory, all of us rushed In like mad dogs hunting down our prey (the opposition) resulting in a glorious victory! 1-0. As I spawned again to the starting point I felt a presence in game of a killjoy player looking at me, or rather at my pistol? Why do that? It's just a regular cringe battle pass skin. I passed him my pistol then. He replied "oh why thank you! It's the first time I've seen this pistol". He sounded as if he was European as he spoke fine English, this was my first thought, strangely enough though I felt soft after hearing his voice, it was like magic even tho I was feeling distressed, as well as stressed over my past relationship, I felt a little happy that I made another person even happy over a simple action. Unfortunately after this one match, after I felt happy meeting this person, my computer brain shut down disappointedly. I felt so down yet again. Maybe it wasn't fate? Or was it?