"Stop talking, you talk a lot."
"Is that so?"
"Yes, you don't have to comment on each and everything."
It wasn't the first time when I was asked to shut my mouth. They have heen saying this even before we moved to the new house. And they made me an introvert, after moving, I decided that from now I will keep everything inside myself.
There were barely any people living in the new locality, getting new friends was completely out of the question. I missed the ritual of my uncle forcing me to introduce myself to neighbours whenever we shifted to a newer house, even though I never really liked it.
I visited my old friends once or twice in a month, though they never did the same. Cricket and Miragine War evenings were now TV and videogames evenings.
Though I made a best friend, Shin-chan. It was always fun to spend time with him, he would always make me laugh.
I invited my old friends to my birthday in 2015.
"Did you make any new friends?"
"Nope, do you see anyone else here?"
--2016--
I lost a friend. My grandpa died.
Now I'm completely alone.
With no friends, I had completely stopped playing chess, though I played it online sometimes, I had forgotten most of my strategies.
[At School]
"Let's talk about something else today, do you know about the horror dolls?"
"What dolls?"
"There is a horror doll called Annabelle, it is believed that a spirit resides inside it."
"Oh, what else do you know about it?"
"The original doll is currently kept at a museum in USA, there are various movies made on her."
"So it's just a movie doll?"
"Nope, you should check the doll's story at google after school."
Ghosts and mysteries were always interesting to me. I looked up all its story, I didn't find it interesting enough but I didn't want this topic to end either.
[Another day at school]
"Annabelle's story seemed fake, what else you got?"
He tells me about other dolls, but I found all of them to be fake. But someone else joined our conversation.
"There is a pencil ghost called charlie."
And now the other guy tells me about someone else
"There is a ghost called Bloody Marry too."
We enjoyed talking about ghosts and mysteries, but that was limited to school. At home there was nothing to do. There was usually a silence at home but the surroundings were loud. This is how the whole year went, sitting around in the house was all I did.
--2017--
All the students were shuffled when the next year begun. And now I had lost my school friends.
My teachers used to complain about my talkative behaviour to my mom, and now it came to an end as well.
I rarely talked with anyone in the new class. I was a silent student with a good impression on a few teachers. At home, I had nothing to after studying. The channel was still airing the same pokemon episodes without anything new.
I would still visit my old friends once or twice in 1 or 2 months.
Adobe flash games lost their popularity, but I found an upgraded version of miragine war as a phone app.
"You know miragine war has a phone app now? They have a lot more stuff than what they had before."
"Oh wow, let me check."
"Take my username, send me friend request so we can play it together once again!"
I never got that friend request.
In summer holidays, I had nothing to do, I missed playing afternoon cricket and game of life with them.
I decided to invent my own board game, similar to the game of life, which I could play alone.
Though the IPL (a cricket league) was on during summers. I would still grab my bat while watching at evenings.
I spent the summers alone and bored. Having no one to talk with even after summer holidays.
This is how the whole year was spent, no fun at all. During Christmas celebration at school, 5 students formed a chat group, with me being one of them. I somehow dared to ask them. However, the group didn't last long.
--2018--
I already had no friends, but at least, the teachers were good. But this year, I got the worst teachers. The main teacher hated me for no reason. And others too had a hatred for me.
My grades went from A+ to A during this year, all because of the teachers and I was already pretty much lonely because no would talk to me in class the people who sat near me were bullies.
The main teacher still continued to harass me, even after making me a member of the class committee herself.
I would still visit my old friends once or twice in 2 months. They still never visited me except for my birthday before. This was the last time I invited them to birthday at my house.
Fun and games were still missing. The only one who kept me away from being sad was Shin-chan. The whole year went like that.
--2019--
The year was over, fortunately the students were shuffled again this time. I decided to try to change myself this year.
I got good teachers, made 2 friends and shared our numbers to text each other. We didn't text much but at least now I had something different at home.
For all the years, I had a private tutor who would come to my home and teach me. This year's tutor was a nice man (and finally a man). I could actually talk with him about cricket and other stuff I loved. And I loved the way taught me.
My grades were back to A+ again. I impressed my teachers.
Once during the english class, I spoke a few words on a personality. It was my day in the class, and the whole topic turned about me.
After speaking, I walk towards my seat while the whole class was clapping for me.
"Well done! You spoke nicely!"
"Thanks"
[Talking to other students] "He is such a good student, how nicely he spoke on something unique"
Then my friend says to her
"Also he likes Japan a lot, that country has impressed him a lot."
Then she looks at me and says
"Hey, are you not happy?"
I was stunned for a second, then my friend talks with her
"And he rarely smiles or laugh, and talks very less this is how he is."
The teacher suddenly stops smiling and changes the topic. I was still stunned and wanted to say something, but I holded back. I just couldn't say I had no irl friends.
The year ended, just like other ones.