I have been training and working the best I could for the last few weeks and today, I am supposed to beat the beta during combat. I highly think it's impossible but the confidence the beta gave me days ago, pushes me to think that I can beat him.
You see of my two weeks here, beta Ello pushed me to use my body as my strength to beat my opponent. Since we are running out of time and I am supposed to prove something with the Alpha at the end of this month, I have to maximize the days that I have and train what I can do best. And, just to my luck, beta Ello knows exactly what I have to do.
After warming up, I went straight to where beta Ello was already waiting for me. He was in his knuckle shirt and sweat pants, aside from him, two deltas were already with him and talking with him.
"Beta!" I greeted with a smile. When he saw me he immediately excused the two deltas, who both went to the side guarding.
"I've instructed them to watch and take notes of our every move. We can't record your movements or else…"
"Someone might hack and gain access to every members file and potentially use that to memorize every weaknesses and loop holes inside the pack." I continued for him and that made him smile.
"Right. That was your job before." He recalls.
I hid the smile I had on my face and replaced it with a focused and cleared mind. Totally ignoring the crush for the beta, growing inside the pits of my body.
For the last two weeks I have been training and alone with the Beta, I have seen and experience things that are exceptional and full of bliss. He was different and though he was serious during training, he was gentler to me than the Alpha. He listens and takes not of what I can, I cannot do. He knows where my limitation is and above everything, he was kind. He understands me. And though it is supposed to be impossible to like someone else other than your destined mate, my heart just keeps beating fast every time he is there.
And yes, I know werewolves have powerful senses, so he should be hearing the fast beating of my heart, but because I did warm up before coming here, I could always fake it into something that is related to my daily warm up exercise.
"Are you ready?" He asks me while he removes his reading glasses.
"I am Beta" I politely answered and he nods in satisfaction.
This is not the first time for me to have a hand to hand combat with the Beta. Only this time, I have to think and move according to my own will and not according to his instructions. I have to survive and I have to show him that the last two weeks wasn't such a waste of time.
I threw the first punch with the stance he taught me and the hint of smile on his face only encourages me that I was doing something right. I keep throwing punches to which he swiftly dodges. When it was him who started to attack, he was quick and if he didn't teach how to be fast and swift with my actions, his punches would have landed somewhere in my body.
As I was smaller, I can freely move around and use my size to land a blow to anyone that is bigger than me. Though I'm pretty sure my punches are just like feathers for the beta.
"You're slowing down. Breathe through your nose not your mouth." Beta Ello commented while avoiding my attacks.
I manage to make another series of attacks towards him and for some reason it felt so good. It felt so free.
My body that once felt so stricken, so fragile and full of scars, now filled with little muscle and strength. Being able to block the Beta's punches, though painful, it was still liberating.
We took hours of exchanging punches and basically me trying to beat the beta, but hours after, my lungs just couldn't take it anymore, I had to raise my hand in defeat while I try my very best to catch every oxygen floating in the air.
"Beta…" one of the deltas hold out the clip board for the beta to see. Though we are both catching our breathes, he was composed than me.
"New record. You are able to last 4 hours without asking for a break and though you didn't beat me, you were still able to dodge all of my attacks. Your muscle are slowly forming and they are not as rigid as they were before. Your punches are also gaining power and base on what they see, your physical strength and your ability to fight increased since the the first time you got here." The beta explains while still scanning the notes made by the deltas. He was nodding like he was agreeing to something and while I wait for his next words, I sat on the grass to calm my heart.
When he's finally done assessing my new record, he returns the file to the Delta and looks at me.
"Starting tomorrow, we'll mix combat and endurance exercises. And since your body can now handle as much stress as it could, maybe we can try shifting. Your wolf can help you and reconnecting with her can give you additional strength to actually use your gifts." Beta Ello explains while trying his best to make it sound like it's the easiest thing to do.
I do realize that everything he just told me is pretty much for my sake but then again, reconnecting with something that never once helped nor appeared in my life is simply impossible.
Even when they tell me that she's actually inside of me and simply waiting, it is simply hard to believe.
"Beta, I don't think the wolf inside me appreciates being bothered after all the years it been quietly residing inside the depths of my consciousness." I tried sounding reasonable but to everyone who is hear and every wolf ear out there that is able to hear our conversation right now, I am simply trying to make some excuse to skip waking up the beast inside me.
I am partially scared of what she'll be like, or if she's even able to look like a decent werewolf, unlike her human. Half of me wondered all this time and somehow, I also grew up thinking that it is better that she never got to experience what I had to go through. However, the look of disappointment coming from the Beta, tells me I shouldn't even be thinking about it.
"We won't know that unless we do try. Right?"
"Right." I dejectedly answer.
The two deltas left to continue the rest of their tasks for the day, as for the Beta he stayed behind because there are actual days where he actually acts like a friend
"I requested for some steak and eggs, but the pack chef has other idea and gave us a plate of sausages and fries." He complained as he entered the cabin with two plates of sausages and fries.
When he took the time to get our food for dinner, I also took the time to take a bath and wash off the dirt from earlier. I thank Jada for packing me my good clothes and not the ones I usually wear when I'm alone, you know the ones with holes and stains
Beta Ello placed both plates on the empty table before he grabs a drink in the fridge. To be quite honest, he acts too friendly around me that there are days that it gets too confusing.
"Beta, I'm just curious. Don't you have a mate who waits for you to go home or at least a lady that expects you to be with them during these hours?"
I do not know where my confidence comes from, and I am basically pushing my luck right now.
The surprised look on the beta's face tells me that he didn't expect my question. He is not the only one, because with each second that he's silent about this, grows a big deal of fear inside me.
"That is actually a good question, you see, due to my busy schedule as the beta of a pack the contains warrior headed wolves, I have to sacrifice a lot of time and patience just to take control. My mate, whoever she is and wherever she is, I only wish that she waits or the very least, alive and well." He said in plain tone but his eyes says something else.
I took a piece of fries before asking him my next question. I'm already this confident, might as well push my shots.
"You never consider dating? I've seen unmated werewolves roaming in the city before, dating and fooling around with other race."
The world had accepted that there are others. Others that hold much power than humans, others that coexist and roams freely as they wish. The new leaders that came up with the new treaty and set of rules, made it their top priority to ensure that equality is given to every race.
Before, dating another kind other than your own would have resulted death or worse, but today, it's totally normal to see a vampire and a wolf dating.
Dating and meeting people became simpler now than it was ever before.
"Dating is for those who are pretty lonely and wishes to have an endless headache, I am nothing like that. I can simply wait for my mate to come. So up until then, I'll do my duties the best way I can."
I admire his faithfulness. His fated she wolf will be one hell of a lucky woman. I really do pray he finds her soon because if they do not find each other soon enough and this thing, this unknown feeling boiling inside me, will get out of hand and I'm not entirely sure how long I can last holding it in.
The evening ended with Beta Ello telling me to sleep early because I will need every energy I could absorb since he'll bring hell tomorrow during our training.
I slept like a baby that night and the next morning, like how the other days I had inside the pack lands, I trained and tried to wake up the beast inside me.
Then the day finally came.
The day I can finally prove to the Alpha that saving me and giving me this chance isn't a waste of time. I know I can fight. Compared to what I was before, I do know that I have gained the necessary courage and power to at the very least defend myself and withstand punches.
As for my wolf, well, she didn't show up nor did she reply to any of my inner mind calls. The beta told me maybe it was because it's been so long so her showing up and allowing me to freely communicate with her will probably take more time.
I was waiting in the cabin, already prepared and pumped to finish whatever this is. Two deltas were already outside my the cabin, guarding and informing me whatever news it is that comes from both the beta and alpha.
I was growing impatient but I couldn't demand anything. I have to wait and constantly tell myself to calm my nerves or I might just lose without starting on anything.
And so I patiently waited. Breathing in and out. Refocusing my mind and pushing my head to thinking other things than possible death and failure.
I don't have powers that can match the Alpha's skills, I also do not have anything that could be valuable for the pack, all I have is hope. Hope that they'd see me valuable enough to keep. That is all I need.
A knock sounded that took my breathe away. It was time.
"Miss" after the knock one of the Deltas entered the room, looking alert and ready to attack if I do something out of ordinary. "The Alpha ordered for us to bring you to where he and the Beta is waiting."
I simply nod, understanding the command and the need but a part of me grew weary.
Trap
I heard the same voice before. The same voice who whispered things in my ears the first time I woke up at the pack clinic.
It's a trap. Don't go
It says but I chose to not listen. I chose to ignore the voice that's stopping me from going. I chose to follow the Delta even with doubts forming inside my head. I chose to walk away knowing full well that this is what I'm supposed to do.
I chose.
I…
I chose wrong.