Sudden alarm at 5 in the morning woke him up with beating heart.
"what was that? was i dreaming? its december ! its cold outside and air condition was on for the most of the night why am i sweating?"
He thought in confusion and glanced the two angels sleeping with him one was 2 year old girl who had one leg on him and the other on the young woman sleeping beside her. how adorable they are ,he smiled and kissed both of them on the forehead.
Abhinav was a 35 years old man living in a small town of bihar, he was married to a girl from remote areas of jharkhand and had 2 year old daughter who recently started blabbering words and walking on her own. he was a in medical business and owned a pharmacy too. He lived in a joint family with his father,bhaiya ,bhabhi and 4 kids.
He freshened up quikly and went to his work which was in his residential space not far from home just out the campus.
He sat at the chair and started scrolling his phone as the market went cold for months sale was almost null. there is nothing to do "he thaught" and went deep in scrolling for something to pass his time .
2024
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2018
"my life " scrolling in the depths on modern technology he swam in the data of his phone reaching to the year 2018 and found a pic of two hands joing to make a complete structure of a half moon with the lines of the palms. pic was named "my life".
How naive is am why cant i accept my life as it is ,he talked to himself in his thaughts. Aren't you happy? you have a beautiful caring wife, an angel of a daughter who has smile to solve your problems,why do you cling over what you couldnt get?
His mind was having a full-on debate inside of him. he seems way to calm over his face.
"bhaiya combiflam dena " sudden voice took him out of his inner world. someone was at the counter asking for some medicine. he gave the medicine and took the money. sat back at his chair.
"shall i call her? is it right? would she talk to me now? after so much happend?"
again he sliped into his thaughts.
it was 10 in the morning and he was at shop from 8 am,
'wife calling'
his phone rang.
"haan bolo"(yes speak)
nashta ban gaya hai ,ghar aa kar kha lijiye.(breakfast is done ,come and have it)
"Thodi der me ata hu"(coming in sometime)
and disconnected the call and put it on the counter.
why is she so good to me? i married her because it was my mother's dying wish to see me married, i was in love with someone else , what is this life? i have everything in my life have a family who loves me, a beautiful loving wife ,a daughter to complete my life with happiness and satisfaction.
why cant i still breathe its been decades why didnt i got what i wanted? did it happen because i dont believe in god? is this punishment for not believing? but how is it a punishment? having a wonderful life without inner peace? am i hippocrate? where did it all started? my birth?
no it was the day i went for studies out of town after my tenth.
Thinking ,arguing abhinav faded in his past.....
A railway station of a remote area in bihar,it was year 2008,Abhi was running with his luggage to the platform. train was yet to start signal was red.abhi boarded the train,rakesh and gautam was already aboard the train.they greated there parents and train departed.the parents were sad but also proud as there kids were going to live alone outside the home in other state for the first time of there lives.
to be continued.....