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Chapter 18 - July 18th, 1781

When those words came out of your mouth, in such tender and careful ways, my body trembled, like a ruin falling onto the ground. No one had ever said those words to me, they seemed extinct in my world. felt as if your words weren't real, after all, we've only been together for a short period of time, how could you be so sure of those words? However, the same would go to me. How could I love someone in such a short time? What if you regretted ever saying those words to me? What if you regret me?

My skin combined with yours, each of my fingers felt the warmth of your body, and the warmth of your passion. Your body slightly moved closer onto me, and your lips searched for mine, carefully you moved, like a lion hunting for a gazelle, your eyes were filled with tears with colors of blue gold and that strawberry cream. Were these the eyes of your love? 

"You're shaking…"

You suddenly stopped, as your hand carefully passed through my hand, as our foreheads rested upon each other, your nose intertwined with mine, I could hear your breath. Your eyes turned shying away from mine. 

"Are you" The sudden stop between your words made my mind stop, you never stuttered, you never feared of your words "a-are you scared of me?"

Your hand pulled away from mine. And you distanced yourself from me, even though your body was with mine, I could feel you dissipate into the darkness. But I couldn't say anything. Something about your passion did scare me but it also attracted me. Then your body pulled away from mine, your eyes closed. And your body turned away from me, as you stood up your hand offered to help me up. 

"Im sorry"

Your eyebrows crouched, your other hand held into a fist next to you, you wouldn't even look at me. Why couldn't I say anything? My mouth stayed closed, disobeying my commands to speak into you. But my body knew what it wanted. As it longed to be close to you, it rapidly raced to you, as my arms embraced your shy body, mysterious and beautiful. As my hand followed your face, you still neglected to look at me, I passed my fingers through your temple walking to your ear, slowly your head turned to mine, lowering your chin to meet my gaze. Your eyes stayed closed; your frowned eyebrows made me realize how beautiful you were. Soon I had forgotten of my fear as it became overwhelming overpowered by you, by who was in front of me, and who loved me.

"I could never be scared of you" 

Softly your eyes started to open, looking down at me again. They were filled with your rosy colors. I smiled, you were back to me. As I stood on the tips of my feet to meet your lips, once again we completely combined into one. Your deep breaths into my body completely suffocated myself, yet each breath that I take into you felt sweeter than the air around us. Swiftly your hand raced to the back of my neck, pressing my body against your skin. My hands became alive, as they danced through the back of your body, searching for an opening in your clothes, as I felt every muscle of it move like the sand that melted into the ocean. Slipping away into the insides of the house, each step we took the wood planks creaked, as you slowly pulled me up into your body, and you drive me to the kitchen, where the food was burning, the suffocating smoke filled the air, as i grabbed your cheeks, I took a deep breath before you could keep searching whatever it was that was in my mouth. I smiled and you melted into my hands. 

"The food burned" 

I said as my eyes turned over to the burning pot besides us, as you had placed me over the top of the kitchen counter, your hands rained down upon the sides of where my legs were, you smiled softly and turned slightly into the burning pot, your chuckled as you looked back at me. 

"It doesn't matter, after all, you're the most exquisite banquet I have ever tasted" 

Your alluring voice and words made my heart flutter with laughter. As your head bumped into mine, you smiled as I giggled. 

"No food can fill my hunger of you darling" 

The music in the back of the house rumbled through the windows, it was calm, unlike yourself, the night continued to be filled with the warmth of your skin overflowing through mine, the heat of our bodies constantly rising in our hearts, I could never forget your eyes that pierced my skin, how much you held onto me, and how careful you were. It was a night I have never been able to forget, the way we ate each other and never felt inseparable. We danced together, our skins grew onto each other's, as you held me with care, my body was on your hands, trusting you to forever hold me and never let me go. I trusted you wholeheartedly.

As I rested myself on your chest, we had started in the balcony and now we rested under the fine blankets of the most deliciously comfortable bed of your room, decorated with the most gorgeous furniture and covered in papers and plants, the room was cold, yet I could still feel my body burning, my ears heard your soft breathing, your heart pounding with joy and passion, your hand caressing my bare back. It was morning, as I looked up to you, you slept with such pleasure, you were calm, my legs intertwined with yours. 

"Your cold" your sudden body jolted as you let out a deep groan, your thin lips turned upward as your body shifted into me, my body opened to your calm whispering, the music still played. Your hands wrapped around me, pulling me into your chest even more, and you rested your chin over my head, your legs wrapped tightly to mine. I smiled, as the vapor of your body slowly drifted off into my oxygen, my feet slowly began to flow with your warmth. 

"Good morning" I said as I kissed your chest in front of me, and my hands wrapped around your thin waist, I had not seen the body that hid under your tight clothes of a scholar, the large back and strong arms that protected me. 

"Good morning my love" you said softly as you kissed my forehead, in a gentle manner just like last night. I loved the way you called me yours. And now you were mine too. 

"How are you feeling, does anything hurt?" 

You slipped away to look at me, your eyes opened wide, filled with a light blue and a light red, a light rosy tone, your hand slowly mobed into my hip, I shook my head as I smiled at the beautiful man who was now mine. 

You smiled.

It's surprising how easily we became so accustomed to our nakedness, so much that I wanted it more than anything. I closed my eyes as your eyes began to approach me, and your lips continued to kiss my face, crawling from my forehead to my eyes, to my cheekbones, down to my lips. 

"I want this forever" 

You suddenly spoke between our kiss, as you traveled down even more, exploring my every spot splattered on my skin. 

"I want to always wake up with you clinging on to me"

You stopped as your hand traced a path back from my hips to my shoulder. 

"Forever?" 

That was my only condition. My voice trembled as you stared back into me, not my skin, but my soul. 

"Forever with you is not enough my love"

You smiled.

"I want it to be for an eternity"