The way in which we rapidly connected was still strange, you trusted me, and I trusted you even if I don't know why or how. Recently my head has not stopped thinking of my mistakes or maybe the greatness of my life. I can no longer tell if I'm right for choosing the path I've chosen.
I've been trying to get past you. Elikai helps me do so. His sudden visits to the coffee shop with Katherine make me forget you, they act as a cover of you, but sometimes I could still feel your presence in the kitchen. And those days where he doesn't come, I feel you the most with me.
More than anything. I'm scared.
Mostly scared of not being one of the chosen ones, to be someone who stands out.
Maybe I never was.
It was just me. All this time.
I knew I wasn't made for this country you call home, Euromerica, maybe I wasn't one of the chosen ones to be great, to stand out, to be the one amongst ones. And now I lie in the shadows of the stained name of my country. Discriminated by your kind.
But, even so, I stand out in my own way, I try at least. But nobody, no one knows. They all think of it as talent, but in reality, I work hard. Music is hard.
Maybe I never was supposed to stand out as a person. And maybe I was never supposed to love another man other than you, is it a curse or blessing.
I don't know.