I saw your body there, laying in the battle field,

Motionless.

I couldn't get rid of the fear slowly creeping upon me as I dropped my weapon and ran to you. I couldn't shake away the sense of dread for you.

I longed for your touch again.

My legs were weak, my heart heavy, yet I still ran to you til I fell to my knees, reaching out for your once warm body. The warmth was gone.

I wrapped my arms around your cold body, desperately trying to get the familiar feeling back. I longed for your touch once more. No.. I longed for you. Your voice, your smile— Everything.

For the first time, I was able to figure out what I was feeling when we hung out. How I always seemed to look at your soft smile, your soft, cherry lips.

I didn't want to believe you were gone. I didn't want to say goodbye. I couldn't.

I muttered a few words to your dulled body. This isn't a goodbye. I'll wait for you, as long as you need me to. This is my confession towards you. For you.

"I love you, Xingqiu. I always will."

What was once our tassels, was now nothing but a decoration, soaked in your blood and my tears, a sign to prove that I'll never see, nor hear you again.