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Chapter 37 - Chapter 37: Into the Depths of Darkness

The clearing was silent except for the soft crackling of the energy surrounding the guardian. The air itself seemed to hum with power, as if the very forest was holding its breath in anticipation of what would come next. Xander stood before Kaelthir, the last guardian of the Abyss, his heart pounding as if it would burst from his chest. This was the moment he had been waiting for, but now that it was here, doubt crept into his mind. Could this ethereal being truly help him control the Abyss? Or was it just another step closer to his doom?

Kaelthir's eyes, glowing softly in the twilight, locked onto Xander. The gaze was piercing, ancient, as though the guardian could see into the very core of Xander's soul.

"Why have you summoned me?" Kaelthir repeated, his voice echoing like a distant storm. There was no anger in his tone, just an otherworldly calm. Yet the power in his words sent shivers down Xander's spine.

"I'm connected to the Abyss," Xander said, trying to keep his voice steady despite the weight of Kaelthir's presence. "I don't fully understand it, but it's inside me, growing stronger. If I don't find a way to control it, it will consume me and… and everything I care about."

Kaelthir's expression did not change, but there was a faint flicker of recognition in his glowing eyes. "The Abyss is not something one can control, mortal. It is a force beyond our understanding, a void that feeds on chaos and despair. Many have tried to harness its power. All have failed."

"But I have to try!" Xander's voice grew more urgent. "If I don't… if I don't find a way, it will destroy me. I've already seen what it can do to others. I've felt its pull, its hunger. There has to be a way."

Kaelthir remained silent for a moment, considering. The wind rustled through the trees, their branches swaying as if the forest itself were listening to their conversation.

"You are different from those who came before," Kaelthir said at last. "The Abyss is drawn to you, yes, but it has not consumed you. Not yet. There is a reason for that, though even I cannot say what that reason is. But if you seek to understand the Abyss, to control it, you must face its trials. Only then will you discover the truth of your connection."

"What kind of trials?" Xander asked, his stomach knotting with a mix of fear and determination.

"Trials that will push you to the brink of your own darkness," Kaelthir replied. "You will face the deepest fears, desires, and regrets that the Abyss can manifest. If you emerge with your mind and soul intact, then—and only then—will you have a chance at mastering its power."

A heavy silence followed the guardian's words. Xander glanced at his companions. Mira's face was pale but resolute, Kael was frowning in concentration, and Lyra gave him a small nod of encouragement. They had been through so much together, but this… this felt different. It was something he would have to face alone.

"I'm ready," Xander said, his voice firm despite the fear clawing at his insides. He wasn't sure if he truly was ready, but there was no other choice. If he wanted to protect his friends, if he wanted to stop the Abyss from consuming him, he had to face whatever trials lay ahead.

"Very well," Kaelthir said, raising a hand. The air around them grew even heavier, thick with ancient magic. "The first trial will begin now."

The ground beneath Xander's feet began to shift, the world around him twisting and warping as if reality itself were being pulled apart. He felt a sharp tug in his chest, and before he could even blink, the clearing, his friends, and the guardian all vanished. He was standing in complete darkness.

Xander looked around, but there was nothing—no trees, no light, no sound. Just an endless void. It was disorienting, like floating in a dream where nothing was real, yet everything felt suffocatingly close.

"You think you can control me?" A voice slithered through the darkness, cold and mocking. It echoed around him, impossible to pinpoint. "You think you can resist me?"

Xander's breath hitched. The voice was not just around him—it was inside him. The Abyss. It was here, with him, its presence thick and heavy like a shroud of despair.

"I won't let you win," Xander said, his voice trembling but defiant. "I won't be consumed by you."

"You are already mine," the voice whispered, and suddenly the darkness shifted, forming shapes around him. Xander turned, his heart racing, as figures emerged from the void—familiar figures.

His parents. Standing before him, just as they had been the last time he saw them. Their faces were pale, drained of life, eyes filled with a cold, accusing stare.

"No…" Xander whispered, stepping back. "This isn't real. You're not real."

But the figures didn't waver. His mother, her voice hollow, spoke. "You left us, Xander. You abandoned us when we needed you the most."

"I didn't…" Xander's voice faltered, guilt tightening around his chest like a vice. "I tried to save you. I wasn't strong enough."

"You ran," his father said, his voice harsh. "You let the Abyss take us."

Tears pricked at Xander's eyes. The memory of that night was still raw, a wound that hadn't healed. He had been so young, so powerless. The Abyss had come for them, and he had done everything he could to protect them, but it hadn't been enough.

"You are weak," the voice of the Abyss hissed. The shadows shifted again, and now he was standing in the middle of a battlefield. Bodies lay strewn across the ground, blood soaking the earth. His friends—Mira, Kael, Lyra—were among the dead, their lifeless eyes staring up at him.

"No!" Xander shouted, falling to his knees. "No, this isn't real!"

But the images wouldn't fade. The Abyss fed on his guilt, his fear, twisting his memories and his nightmares into something more tangible, more horrifying. Xander felt his resolve slipping, the darkness closing in on him.

"You will fail them," the Abyss whispered. "Just as you failed your parents. You are nothing without me."

Xander clenched his fists, his body trembling. He could feel the pull of the Abyss, the temptation to give in, to let it take control. It would be so easy to surrender, to stop fighting. The weight of his guilt, his fear, his uncertainty—it was crushing him. But then, through the haze of despair, a voice echoed in his mind. A voice from the past.

"You are more than your fears, Xander. You are more than the darkness inside you."

Zara's words. Her voice, calm and strong, cut through the noise of the Abyss. Xander took a deep breath, forcing himself to focus. He couldn't let the Abyss win. He wouldn't.

"I am not weak," Xander said, his voice steadying. He stood, his fists still clenched, but now with determination. "I am not defined by the Abyss."

The figures of his parents, of his fallen friends, flickered before him, as if the shadows were struggling to maintain their hold. The voice of the Abyss grew angrier, more insistent.

"You are nothing without me!" it roared.

"No," Xander said, his voice rising. "I am not nothing. I have people who believe in me, who stand by me. I won't let you take them away."

The darkness around him quivered, the images of his fears and nightmares flickering more violently. Xander could feel the light inside him, the small spark of hope and strength that had kept him going all this time. It wasn't much, but it was enough.

"You are not in control here," Xander said, his voice firm. "I am."

With those words, the shadows around him shattered, the figures dissolving into nothingness. The darkness that had once felt so oppressive began to fade, and Xander found himself standing once more in the clearing. The air was still, the oppressive weight of the Abyss lifting from his chest.

Kaelthir stood before him, watching with an unreadable expression.

"You have passed the first trial," the guardian said, his voice softer than before. "But the path ahead will only grow darker. The Abyss will not give up its hold on you so easily."

Xander wiped the sweat from his brow, his heart still racing. He felt drained, both physically and emotionally, but there was a small sense of triumph as well. He had faced the darkness inside him—and for now, at least, he had won.

"I'm ready for whatever comes next," Xander said, his voice quiet but determined.

Kaelthir nodded. "Then prepare yourself. The next trial will be even harder."

With his first trial behind him, Xander felt a new weight settle on his shoulders. The road ahead would be even more perilous, but for the first time in a long while, he felt a glimmer of hope. The Abyss could be fought, but the battle was far from over.