This is just my rambling.
I feel so lost in this world its just ridiculous, i see people my age act so human i feel inhuman.
Like how can they be so free, how.
Where did i go so wrong in life, where did i take wrong road?
One moment life itself is at its peak and then the next second its all blown to hell.
I write because it makes me happy and hopeful a bit.
Its like im sharing a part of myself to be judged and seen because i myself dont feel seen.
Most days i feel empty, hopeless and dreadful.
But then theres the days where i feel beyond the world.
Where i remember there's something i can do, something i can make happen so that at least if that one person feels happy im happy.
By no means im a good person, i have sinned and lied but i dont want people to go through what i did to myself and at least make that one person feel safe and warmth and have something to look forward to makes me happy.
Theres a saying that goes "if you save even one person you save the world entire"
That fits with the character of peter parker and many fictional and real heros.
I want to feel better and be better but idk how.
Ill delete this soon i dont know why im rambling but it feels good not to hold everything inside.