Kira's POV
I got married at the tender age of 19, a decision heavily influenced by my parents' beliefs about what was best for me. They were concerned that I might act on my feelings and perhaps lead a life they couldn't understand or accept. You see, I am gay, and my parents struggled to come to terms with that truth. They believed my orientation was a result of my upbringing, attributing it to my education in an all-girls school rather than recognizing it as an intrinsic part of who I am.
At that young age, I found myself wed to a 25-year-old man named Jesse Garcia. On paper, he seemed like the ideal partner. Jesse is a kind-hearted, gentle soul who truly cares for me. Unfortunately, my feelings for him do not go beyond friendship. In fact, he is a wonderful person in many ways, but intimacy with him has always felt like a challenge. I often needed a drink for courage, just to push through those moments of closeness that every marriage seems to require.
Fast forward four years, and here we are—I've never cheated on Jesse. Until today. Today, everything changed when I met Luna. She has this captivating aura about her that draws me in like nothing I have experienced before. In all my time with Jesse, I had never felt a spark of attraction towards anyone else until Luna came into my life. The weight of this crush is heavy, particularly as she is eight years younger than me, making her a minor. This complicates everything tenfold.
Now I find myself in a precarious position because I fear that acting on these feelings, which I have already started to do, could jeopardize everything in my life, including my job. It's worth mentioning that while I possess a business acumen—making me quite competent in the corporate world—I have a deep-seated love for teaching. The thought of losing that passion and being forced away from something I love just complicates matters even further.
What could this girl have done to me? How has she lit a fire in my heart that I thought was long extinguished? It's bewildering and thrilling all at once. The internal struggle I face is overwhelming. On one hand, I long to explore these new feelings, to follow my heart toward something that feels authentic. On the other hand, I'm terrified of the repercussions—not just for my marriage, but for my career, my stability, and the life I've already built. The turmoil within me grows, tangled in a web of desire, fear, and confusion. What am I to do?