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Chapter 13 - Conversation with edith- Part 2

Edith leaned in closer, her warmth a stark contrast to the chill in the air. "You must, my boy," she whispered, her voice a gentle current in the sea of his turmoil. "For to deny love is to deny life itself." Her hand, still holding the woven grass, reached up to cup his cheek. Her touch was firm, a silent declaration of her support and understanding. "Your mother," she began, her eyes searching his, "she is the sun that rises and sets for you. Her love is the foundation upon which you stand."

Her gaze grew distant as she spoke, the shadows playing across her face like memories of summers long past. "And Lily," she said, her voice taking on a softer, wistful tone, "she is the moon, ever-changing, a beacon of comfort in the darkest of nights." She paused, her hand dropping to her lap, the grass still twisted between her fingers. "And I, Jack," she said, her voice as gentle as a butterfly's wing, "I am the stars that twinkle from afar, a guide through the vast expanse of life's journey."

Jack felt the gravity of her words settle upon him like a heavy quilt. The love that bound them was not a simple thing, but a tapestry of colors and forms, as intricate and varied as the blooms in their garden. Yet, the thought of losing any one of them, of shattering the delicate balance of their family, was unbearable. "How can I...I don't want to hurt anyone," he murmured, his voice cracking like dry leaves underfoot.

Edith took a deep breath, the air carrying the scent of the night-blooming jasmine that grew along the fence. "You must navigate these waters with care, Jack," she said, her eyes shimmering with the light of the moon. "Your mother's love is pure and selfless, a beacon that guides you through the storms of life. But it is a love that expects nothing in return. It is the purest form of love, unblemished by desire."

Her words were a gentle admonishment, a reminder that the love between a mother and son was sacred. "And Lily," she continued, her gaze drifting to the house, "she is a young girl still, her heart as fresh as the dawn. To love her in the way you speak of now would be to burden her with a weight she is not yet ready to bear."

The silence that followed was as vast as the sky above, each star a silent witness to Jack's anguish. "And what of you?" he managed to ask, his voice barely a whisper.

Edith's eyes grew soft, the twinkle in them dimming for a moment before they brightened again with a knowing smile. "Ah, Jack," she said, her voice filled with the warmth of a thousand fires, "you and I, we share a bond that is as eternal as the stars." She paused, her hand still cupping his cheek, her thumb gently wiping away the tear that clung to his lashes. "But it is a bond of the soul, not the body."

Her words were a gentle reprimand, a reminder that the love they shared was not of the same kind that stirred within him for his mother and sister. Yet, there was a fondness in her tone that spoke of an understanding deeper than the roots of the ancient willow that towered above them. "The love between a grandparent and grandchild is as timeless as the seasons," she continued, "but it is a love that must be cherished from afar, like the stars in the night sky."

Jack nodded, the weight of her words sinking into him like a heavy stone into the river's embrace. He knew she was right, that the love he felt was not something to be acted upon, but rather a force to be channeled into something pure and protective. Yet, the fire of his desires burned with the intensity of a thousand suns, threatening to consume him from the inside out. The scent of jasmine grew stronger, as if the very air was suffused with the fragrance of their shared love, taunting him with its sweetness.

"Grandma," he whispered, his voice trembling with the effort of holding back the flood of emotion, "I don't think I can do it. I want to be near them, to cherish them as you do, but...it's not the same."

Edith's smile grew solemn, her eyes never leaving his. "I know it's hard, Jack," she said, her voice as steady as the rhythm of the river's flow. "But remember, love is not a possession to be claimed, but a gift to be shared." She took his hand in hers, the warmth of her skin seeping into his own. "You must learn to appreciate the beauty of each moment, without the need to possess or control it. Like the stars, love is most brilliant when we stand back and admire it from afar."

Jack took a deep, shuddering breath, feeling the weight of his grandmother's wisdom settling upon his shoulders. He knew she was right, that his love for his family was something to be nurtured and protected, not a destructive force to be acted upon. The garden, once a prison of his own making, now felt like a sanctuary, the whispers of the night offering him a quiet peace that had eluded him for so long.

Slowly, he rose from the cool embrace of the earth, his hand lingering on the trunk of the willow tree. The moon had climbed higher in the sky, casting a soft glow that transformed the garden into a dreamscape of shadows and silvered leaves. He turned to Edith, her eyes reflecting the light of the stars above, and kissed her cheek, feeling the warmth of her love wash over him like a gentle wave.