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Chapter 17 - Her Condition

The hospital hallway felt familiar yet heavy with emotion as I walked toward Rebecca's room. Each step echoed the worry in my heart. It had been a week since I found out, and every day felt like a battle between hope and despair. I took a deep breath, trying to steady myself. I needed to be strong, not just for myself, but for Jake and Lily.

As I entered Rebecca's room, the soft beeping of the machines filled the air. I took a moment to look at her. She lay still, her face peaceful but so fragile. I pulled up a chair and sat by her side, holding her hand gently. "Hey, it's me again," I said softly. "I've missed you so much."

I wanted her to know that she was still a part of our lives, even if she couldn't respond. I had been talking to her every day, sharing stories, and reminding her of the love that surrounded her. "The kids are doing okay," I continued. "They've been asking about you a lot. Jake keeps drawing pictures for you, and Lily talks about her favorite memories. We're all waiting for you."

I leaned closer, hoping that somehow my words would reach her. "Today, Jake said he wants to make a big 'Welcome Back' sign when you wake up. He wants it to be colorful and bright, just like you." I smiled at the thought. "And Lily wants to bake cookies with you again. She misses your chocolate chip cookies."

As I spoke, I remembered the warmth of our family moments—laughing together, playing games, and just being together. Those memories were the light guiding me through this dark time. I squeezed her hand gently, feeling the warmth of her skin. "I'll keep talking to you, Rebecca. I'll keep sharing our lives."

Just then, a nurse entered the room, checking the machines and adjusting the IV. She smiled at me. "How's it going today?"

"It's okay. Just talking to her," I replied, trying to keep my voice steady.

"That's great. Studies show that hearing familiar voices can be very comforting," she said. "Keep it up. It helps."

After she finished her work, she left the room, and I returned to my thoughts. I looked out the window at the bright blue sky, wishing for the same lightness to return to our lives. "I know you're fighting, Rebecca. I believe in you," I whispered.

As the hours passed, I talked about our everyday lives—how Jake was doing in school, how Lily was learning to ride her bike. I wanted Rebecca to feel included in everything. "Jake had a soccer game last week, and he scored a goal! He was so proud. We cheered for him together."

I could almost picture her smile as I spoke. "Lily is practicing her reading. She read a whole book by herself and couldn't wait to show you."

Suddenly, I heard a faint sound, almost like a breath. My heart skipped a beat. "Rebecca?" I leaned closer, hoping for a sign. I watched her closely, waiting for any movement. The machines continued to beep steadily, and I felt a rush of emotions.

Just then, I heard the door open again, and Collins stepped in. "Hey, Ryan," he said quietly, taking a seat across from me. "How are you holding up?"

"I'm okay," I replied, though the truth felt heavier. "I've been talking to Rebecca, sharing stories about the kids."

Collins nodded, his eyes understanding. "That's good. It's important for her to feel that connection. How are Jake and Lily doing?"

"They're managing, but they miss her a lot," I admitted. "I try to keep things normal for them, but it's hard."

"I can only imagine," Collins said. "Have they been able to visit?"

I shook my head. "Not yet. I want them to be ready. I don't want to overwhelm them with fear."

"That makes sense. Just take it one step at a time," he advised. "If they want to see her, let them. It might help them feel closer."

I nodded, considering his words. "You're right. I need to encourage them to express their feelings, even if it's tough."

As we talked, I felt a sense of comfort in having Collins there. He was a reminder that I wasn't alone in this fight. "Have you heard any updates from the doctors?" I asked.

"Not much has changed, but they're still optimistic. They believe she's stable, and that's a good sign," Collins replied. "Just keep believing in her. Your support means everything."

We chatted for a while longer, discussing ways to support the kids and keep Rebecca's memory alive. I felt the weight of responsibility resting on my shoulders, but with Collins by my side, I felt stronger.

After a bit, Collins excused himself to let me have some time alone with Rebecca. "Take care, Ryan. I'm here if you need anything," he said before leaving the room.

I turned back to Rebecca, looking into her still face. "You know, Rebecca, I'm going to make sure the kids remember you and all the love you have for them," I said, my voice firm. "We're going to create a memory book together, filled with pictures and stories. It'll be something they can look at and cherish."

The sun started to set, casting a warm glow in the room. I watched as the light danced across her face, feeling a sense of peace wash over me. "I'll keep fighting for you, for us. You're not alone in this."

As the evening wore on, I found myself feeling a mix of exhaustion and hope. I stayed by her side, telling her about my day and everything that was happening. I shared my fears and my dreams, hoping she could hear my heart.

"Tomorrow, I'll bring the kids. We can all be together," I said softly. "I want them to see you, to feel your love. It's what they need right now."

Before I knew it, the clock struck nine, and I knew it was time for me to head home. I stood up, leaning down to kiss her forehead. "Goodnight, Rebecca. I'll see you tomorrow."

As I left the room, I felt a flicker of hope. I was ready to face whatever challenges lay ahead. I had my family to fight for, and I would do everything I could to keep Rebecca's spirit alive.

When I got home, Jake and Lily were already in bed, but I could tell they were still awake. I quietly opened their bedroom door and peeked inside. "Hey, you two," I whispered. "How are you doing?"

"Dad, we've been thinking about Mom," Jake said, his voice small.

"I know," I replied, sitting on the edge of their bed. "I talked to her today. I told her about you both and how much you miss her."

Lily looked up at me with wide eyes. "Did she say anything back?"

I smiled gently. "Not in words, but I believe she can hear us. I think she's fighting to come back to us."

"Can we make that sign for her tomorrow?" Jake asked, his excitement bubbling through his worry.

"Of course! We can make it colorful and bright, just like I know she would love," I said, feeling warmth in my heart. "And we'll work on that memory book too."

Lily smiled, her eyes shining. "I want to put in all my drawings of her!"

"That sounds perfect," I said, my heart swelling with pride.

"We'll make it a beautiful tribute to her."As I tucked them in, I felt a sense of hope begin to bloom.