Am I dead?
I thought if I ever truly died, that would just be it. There won't be any 'me' to realize that I was dead. No consciousness at all to perceive the death. I've died countless times before from the Hell Beast. And every time, I just woke back up in my room.
But right now, I was experiencing something weird.
Perhaps this was what people meant when they said 'my whole life flashed past before my eyes" upon imminent death.
I saw moments.
Glimpses of all the good and the bad that happened in my life.
It was mostly bad, but having lived in my cycles for so long, and having spent a significant amount of time in it with Haein now, I guess I could say my life wasn't all that bad.
I remembered that I actually had some good childhood memories.
The memories that I have forgotten for so long.