I live happily, I do really, but I wish I can be like others. I wish things would go easy for me as it would for them. I admire a lot but none admire me, they only compliment me. Don't get me wrong I love compliments but really?, nothing more?.. I want a "you really are hard working!", or "you seem to do very well!". I know you won't understand what I'm saying 

no one ever does…. 

I hate when I speak so much and speak my mind so much I go blank?,

does it get that bad?, why do I speak so much till my mind goes blank?..

I spoke so much?…, it's alright.., these things happen!, I hope so!.

my mind goes blank for a while before I regain thoughts

I continue my conversations, but when I get home I sleep till I get my energy back.

I end up waking up when everyone gets ready to sleep, I hang out with friends and family for a few till I end up having to go to bed. I stare up at the ceiling revising things I'll do tomorrow or today. I turn to the side and stare at the wall over thinking things, I tell myself it's alright than my mind just goes 

blank. 

Then I shut my eyes wishing I was a little better than yesterday and hope I will be better tomorrow .