And that was it.
We became "friends" .
When break time came he called for me with his friends and we sat together.
His name was Taehimin ,it was quite similar to mine which I thought was really cool and his two other friends.
Randirose and Rondirose
And they were as weird as their names.
One time when I was walking with Randirose around the school building ,he pointed at a blonde ,eyes coloured, girl and strated talking about how much he likes her and I was as supportive as i could be even though I kinda felt weirded out .
We were walking past the girl .
Randirose suddenly pushed me in her direction and yelled " this guy likes you hah! "
My eyes widened , I couldn't even look at her to see her reaction , I don't even know if I bumped into her or not I just quickly steedy myself and grabbed his hand and left without looking back .
I was furious but I didn't say anything although I did ignore him and walked away but he came after me and said "are you mad? I was just joking around! " Tapping on my shoulder.
Asshole.
While we were passing he yelled to the girl " I was only joking, Kay! " .
I sighed and just entered class , him and Rondirose were really close they hardly involved anyone with them, I didn't want to be their friend anyway..
Taehimin.
He was a good student , decent looking and he looked quite kind.
That's right.
I took him as my one and only friend.
following him everywhere , listening to him , smiling to him , hugging to him.
For whole 3 years .
He was some what distant around people and that's understandable since they must think something weird's going on or so.
Although I loved him like a brother to me and he took said once while leaning on my shoulder on the bus since I let him do that to get a nap before going home.
" Taehwyan , you know , you're the only person I feel like I can be myself around "
I didn't know how to reply to that so I just smiled.
There were times where he was also somewhat.. well maybe it's just me who was a bit dramatic but..
He once recommended telling eachother about the things we hate about eachother.
Although I didn't hate anything about him I always thought he was perfect so I left the paper empty but he wrote :
" Sometimes you're just quite and you'd be boring "
I do admit that hurt my ego a bit but I understood, a little bit..
And there were times he would reject my hug and so on when I was trying to comfort him about his girlfriend , although of that I learnt after that it was because I was doing it in public and so I reached out for his hand and leaded him to a hidden spot and hugged him and he smiled and replied
" What do you expect me to do "
Well I didn't get that one.
And there was this time where he tried to see if I liked his girlfriend or not , even though I would never.
There was this time when I got a bad grade in my test and I stayed quiet not that I'm scared of my dad but I don't know I felt upset for some reason and so while we were walking he stopped before me and said
" Taehwyan. "
I raise my head and look at him.
" Hm?"
" What is it why are you being like this. "
That was the first time I hear someone asking about me no.. him asking about me and I don't know I just started tearing up and surprisingly he went up to me and hugged me .
But when we were in the bus he said that his crush was looking.
I couldn't tell if he was trying to see my reaction to see if I like her or not or did he actually do that for the sake of his girl to see him in a good way but I replied with " see? I'm useful aren't I? " As a joke , Anyways.
I loved him like a brother to me but I never asked myself...
Does he even consider me his friend.
He always go out with those kids , forgets about me then lectures me about leaving his side without saying a word.
And so..
I distanced myself.
I just felt like this was right and not like he is gonna care anyways.
By that time I met Jason a curly hair dude with really pale skin he was older than me but shorter I thought he was weird at first but when I got to know him he knew the game I was playing that almost nobody in the country , no joke .
Knew .
And so these three words came out of my mouth in the heat of the moment and that's how our "friendship" started.
"Jason , I love you "