That day was my last day at college, I couldn't find the courage to go back to Rivers High, the talk of me sleeping with a teacher to obtain a role spread like wild fire and I was getting mocking stares to the point that I refrained from going out and secluded my self in my room crying and cursing my fate all day.
I shunned everyone, my mom, Wenie, Travis also came by twice but I wasn't interested in seeing anyone and he didn't come again. My mom watched helplessly as she couldn't do anything to help me, she'd stand outside for long ours trying to persuade me to open up the door but her pleas fell on deaf ears.
Taking legal actions against the incident was not an option as we couldn't win against Brianny's family and I also guessed she was in cohorts with Mr Steven.
As if my life wasn't miserable enough, I found out I was pregnant the next month, whatever was left of my life shattered with that revelation, I was so depressed and could only ask why I encountered such nightmare. I questioned my whole existence from the scratch and seriously considered suicide.
I couldn't imagine giving birth to the child of a monster but with time I accepted my fate knowing the child was also mine, I had promised myself to give my child all the love I could and make sure to remove anything concerning his father but, life.. had always been full of shocking twists and surprises.
Our life was already hard and I knew training another child won't be easy but I had my mother, she never left my side during these times, though I was not in good health till the day I gave birth. That was how much pain Brianny and Mr Steven had put me through.
I encountered premature labor and was taken to a local hospital without enough care.. we didn't even have money for that.
My baby would have survived if I could afford the cost of a premature baby's effective care. After all the pains I went through to bring him fort to this cruel world, his life lasted only a few hours before he died.
"Congratulations! It's a baby boy!" The doctor had said to me as I took deep breaths of relief after yelling through the painful process of labor, I was already very weak and passed out immediately with the doctor's last words becoming a distant voice in the background.
"It's actually a miracle he is alive! considering your health state and being bron earlier" those were the last words I heard with a tiny crying voice soothing my aching heart as I fell into to the irresistible call of sleep with a smile.
That smile didn't last long as I woke up and asked for my son but no one responded, each person was giving each other a look a couldn't quite comprehend. I looked at my mother "mom? where is he?" but she shook her head and looked away. I felt dread at that instant and prayed to the heavens it should not be what I thought it was.. but to my dismay it was exactly what I deduced in my mind.
He is dead! He died!! I shook my head frantically not ready to accept the harsh reality in front of me "wh.. where? Where is he?!" I hastily got up and pulled out the hollow needle at the back of my palm "Where is he??!!!" I yelled as tears welled up in my eyes and blurred my vision "bring him to me!! I know he is still alive!! get him back to me!!!"
I felt like I was already insane and I was held in place and injected a substance that made to pass out "will she be okay?" came my mother's worried and stressed out voice.
"N-no I'm not.. I won't... be okay" I managed to speak before consciousness left me.
I woke up without a soul, the only thing I could feel was hate, anger and the hunger for revenge but I knew that was impossible with my current life.
My heart turned cold. It had died alongside my son.
The rest was history, all these happened within a year and I met Alfred months later, it was also because of Brianny's betrayal that I wasn't open to Alfred and gave her the cold shoulder at first. The incident was very traumatizing and I almost lost my mind, for a long time I was depressed and mentally unstable until I decided to get over it and move on. I haven't exactly forgotten what happened but it doesn't hurt as much or make me want to affront death anymore.
I just want to be able to change my life and become a woman Brianny and whoever was responsible for my family's downfall never thought I would become.
I want to step above them and make them fall to their knees and plead to me.
I want to make them feel the helplessness they made me feel a ten fold more and clear my father's name.
I want to put them all in their places and just like Brianny had said to me, I'm going to show her that no matter how she breaks me I'd pick of the pieces of my life and rise up again. This time around not as the fallen Princess Jena but as a proud Queen Jena.
I'd become that person she had always envied and make her spend the rest of her life envying me.
I am going to do all these and unless I'm dead, I won't stop until they all pay. I know it may take time but I'd persevere.
Alfred doesn't know about this and she told me she would be back next week for us to hang out and hear what each other have to say, she said she won't force me to speak.. but I've decided to tell everything, if I wanted her to be my friend then I might as well let her know me more and also find out who exactly she is.
"Sis Jena?" I heard Wenie's voice as she pushed the door and strode in without bothering to knock. I slammed my diary close and wiped my face immediately before she could reach me
"Are you crying?" she frowned
"No my dear, something pricked my eyes" I lied
She rolled her eyes "your eye looks pretty okay for something that was pricked sis"
Being caught red handed I couldn't find words for reply again. She moved and flunged the book I kept on the table to the other side of the room.
"Why Wenie? that is my diary!" I was totally confused about her actions.
"Hmph! that must be a really bad book because you cry anytime you read that particular book!" she pouted her lips
"I don't like that book!" She moved closer and hugged my waste and I looked down at her, quite surprised and touched that she already noticed such a thing.
"Wenie it's not a bad book okay?" I caressed her hair and gave her a soft smile
"Sis Jena you used to cry a lot before and not talk to me, I was so sad then.. I don't want you to be like that again okay?" She blinked her cute eyes at me and I wiped a tear that was already at the corner of her eyes.
"Sister wouldn't cry again from today, I promise you Wenie" I reassured her and she nodded. She let go of me and went to sit on the bed, tapping her hand slightly on it for me to come join her and I did.
"Sis Jena do you know that Jack the fat bully doesn't actually know anything?"
There we go again, I mentally facepalmed and rolled my eyes whilst smiling at her at the surface, Wenie and her classmates would be the death of me.
"He couldn't answer a question in class today!" she dramatically clapped her hands together "I mean I knew he was dumb but I didn't think it was to this extent, he looked like a total joke" her eyes sparkled as she told me her endless encounters with her colleagues and I could only place my jaw on my palm and listen to things I didn't give a damn about.
At a point I got tired of her Jack this, Colton that and pretended to be asleep so she could leave "Sis Jena..? sis Jena??" She shook me with her small hands to wake me up but I didn't react.
"What a party pooper you are!" she said as she left. Did she just call me a party pooper? I was tempted to call her back and twist her small ear but that would blow my cover of pretentious sleeping so I let her be.
When I was sure she was gone I picked up the book and kept it back on my shelf and got ready to go get a new hair style.