This was a mistake."
All he could say is it was a mistake.
Alexander Valentino Rossi looked me in the eye and told me that his sleeping with me was a mistake. Coming from an Italian and Spanish family, I can tell you I've been slapped a couple of times, but that sentence alone had more impact than the slaps. I wish I listened to my grandmother and kept my virginity just like she did. Imagine losing your virginity at 20, and the person who took it, says it was a mistake.
Alexander's family and mine have always been close. It was no surprise that Alexander was also best friends Nico, Noel, and Nozel, my brothers. Neither was it a surprise that Alex's twin sisters Amber and Alessia are my best friends. It was as if our families planned the number of children they wanted, and how. I have 3 brothers, and Alexander has 2 sisters.
Our parents hoped we'll all marry each other. Especially Alexander and I. If I'm being honest, I wanted the same too. WANTED being the key word. I almost always had a crush on Alexander who is three years older than me like my oldest brother. The only problem was because we grew up together, Alexander took on the role as my fourth bodyguard. Having three older brothers is not for the weak. It was especially horrible as a teenager. Sneaking out was a hassle. I finally snapped from my thoughts, "What do you mean it was a mistake?"
He struggled to talk for a bit then cleared his throat as if there was something there. "Well, this was a mistake."
Finally realizing that what he said wasn't a dream, I laughed, "Oh my Lord. You sure know how to make a girl feel special Rossi. Did you slip and fall into my vagina? Why didn't you stop before the mistake happened?"
He actually had the nerve to flinch when I referred to what happened between us as a mistake. When he doesn't reply, I said, "Aw look at you being all quiet? Who knew you could actually shut up."
He decided to finally speak, "Look Amaia, I understand that you're pissed. I would be too if the roles were-"
"SHUT THE FUCK UP! You don't get to say shit like that. I guess going to Havard doesn't automatically mean you have a working brain, but referring to what happened as a mistake? Well, you are not wrong or right. The thing is I made the mistake here not you like you probably think. I gave my virginity to an imbecile. That's all I can think about."
"I'm sorry Amaia"
I start dressing up without looking. He also joins to dress up while apologizing like a foolish weasel. As I get ready go to out, he grabs my arm and brings me close to him. He looks at my lips, and I decide to let him kiss me. He brushes his smelly lips on me. Don't get me wrong, my lips were also smelly but his is more potent due to his evident stupidity. As I was saying, he brushes his lips on mine, and I let him deepen the kiss, then I bite him.
HARD
"Fuck!"
I grin when I see blood on his lips, "I didn't want another mistake to occur. Then I walked out ignoring him calling me back. I sigh as I leave the building. If there's one thing having 3 brothers taught me, it is, "Tears don't solve anything."
My virginity is gone and I can never get it back. Sadly, getting a time machine is impossible so, I can't rectify my mistake. I will move on though. Thank God I will be going back to school. I won't be seeing Alexander for a while.
The only thing is, my brothers must never find out. It's not like I pity Alexander or anything. He deserves to be beaten up by my brothers. The thing is it is quite humiliating. Even though Alessandro deserves the beating of his life, it might, no, it will ruin his friendship with my brothers. Apparently, I was/am a no-go area. If only I adhered to that rule. I don't even know who I can talk to about this. My best friends are his sisters. I sigh. There's nothing I hate more than doing something and regretting it. Right now, that's exactly how I'm feeling. I should've never had sex with Alexander. I guess I'll be going back to school earlier than I thought.
*Home*
I almost thought I won't see anyone today, but I guess luck isn't on my side which shouldn't be that surprising considering that the one who took my virginity said it was a mistake. The worst part is I was thinking I could have a little quiet time to think about all that happened. Now, I can't.
"See who finally decided to grace us with her presence. I roll my eyes at Noel and Nozel. Although I would've felt as if Nico will take a good look at me, and make me feel like he knows everything, it's still better than having to face the twins right now.
"Where were you?" Nozel asks.
I roll my eyes again, "Out."
They both fold their arms, and I do the same. I really wish I didn't inherit my mum's height right now because it's quite comical looking at my 6'5 brothers while I'm 5'6. At least I'm better than my mum. She's 5'3. My dad's 6. They squint their eyes at me, and I do the same.
"Hope you used a c-," I immediately caught Noel off, glaring at him while yelling, "Shut up" and going back to my room. I lock my door, shower, brush my teeth, and get dressed. I'm still contemplating how I'll go downstairs to eat, when I hear a knock on my door. I'm ready to feign sleep especially if it's Noel.
"Nal?" When I hear Nozel's voice, I stand up to open the door.
"I brought food," he says smiling gently.
I genuinely smile for the first time today, "Thanks."
He nods in reply, and walks in. He keeps on looking at me as I'm eating, and with my mouth filled food, I say, "Just say what you want to Zel."
"Are you okay?" He asks. I almost jump into his arms to tell him that I am not okay. I clear my throat instead, "I'm fine. Why do you ask?"
"You weren't looking happy when I saw you. As if someone did something to you. Did someone do something to you?" Knowing Nozel, I know he's trying to keep his calm exterior although he's planning ways to harvest the person's organs although the person is his close friend. This was exactly how calm he was to me when I was 10, and a boy of thirteen spilled water on me because I bumped into him. Although the boy was older that Zel, he was beaten the fuck up by both Nozel and Noel.
I smile, "I'm fine. Just slightly exhausted."
He sighs, "Okay, I'll leave for now. You can also tell me what happened. I promise, I won't do anything."
BIGGEST LIE EVER.
I grin in reply because we both know he's lying. Anyways, he leaves even though he knows I'm holding something back. I hear Noel asking him immediately, "Did she say anything?"
"Nah. It's quite infuriating dude." I know my brothers, it's a miracle they haven't committed murder yet. I go to my bed to sleep to prevent my tears from falling. I shouldn't cry for the asshole, but it was my first time, and I don't have anyone to talk to.