I kneed on the ground for a long time. Firmly i said
"I will marry, according to what you said. I will marry because you have carried me in your tummy for 9 months and allow me to live! I will marry for that! However in return i will not have any links to your mansion, your tittles, your world dealings. I don't want to hear or receive any news of happiness, sadness nor asking me to visit you. If you agree i will marry Prince Xian Wen!"
The lady of the house, my so-called birth mother is weeping in tears. While my father Duke Su is fuming mad while pacing up and down in front of me. With his twitching moustache and long index finger, he point to me
" You are so ungrateful! I shouldn't allow you to live at all! Just because your mother was bagging for your life! You you!"
"Shung Yun, i know you must be upset but we have our reasons to do so. Our dynasty don't allow twins. One can live another to die. Your sister is weak upon birth. While you are healthy and bigger. I asked your father to spare your life so that you can live in the other province in peace. However i did not expect that a royal decree to fall upon us, your father tried to reject it but the emperor threaten to massacre the entire clan. We …"
"i don't want to hear anymore Madame. Just agree with my terms and we will part in peace. I will marry as my sister and keep as a faithful wife. Not destroying the name of Su."
"Fine, fine fine. This is what you want. So be it. We will never contact you in future! So prepare to be married in 2 months time."
I nod my head and get up. I take a last look at them before i walk off. Just 3 days ago, i was so happy that a carriage came by my little house by the river. They told me that my parents are looking for me. My grandmother who is my nanny is living with me. She verify that they are from the family i supposed to know. Delighted to know this, i ran to the nearest little hut. My best friend, Cheng'er live at. We grow up together and watch the sky together. I told him of the good news and ensure that i will return within months.
When i arrived at the Mansion, i was amazed and delighted to know my birth parents. My father had a lineage to the previous empress. His title is pass down by his father's side. While my mother is from a noble clan with the current Queen mother. We laugh and talk and bought me out to sight seeing for 2 days. On the 3rd day, they told me, i had to take my sister's name and why they want to send me back home. I was shocked.
Now i know, my birth parents just needed me to marry in my sister's place. Just because we are twins and also I'm the healthier daughter that they can present to the world. i know that they don't care about me after all.
For the next 2 months, i learned everything what a lady must know. Also i learned that my sick sister is not able to walk nor stand for a long time. Her only hobby is paint and play the GuQin. We have similar style in painting but the music instrument is my first time touching it. Strangely it makes me feel calm. i spend many hours playing that my fingers have blisters and my wrist is sore.
As i look like my sister, the new servants did not notice the difference. While the older servants have been reminded to shut their mouth and not to say a single word about it. For a month living in the north courtyard, i haven't got a chance to see my twin. Sometimes i wonder how much are we alike. "Granny, can you help me? i want to visit Shung Yu." My old granny smile and nod her head. Quietly she walk out the room. The bronze mirror look back at me with a sad look on her face. "I hope you are not that sad looking."