It wasn't until Asa and I were left alone in the cabin that the true weight of my situation settled in. I had been fooling myself, thinking I had any control at all. Asa wouldn't just escort me back to the palace and act as my maid. She would be there to keep me on a leash. To ensure I didn't rebel. She was a constant reminder that I wasn't free or even close to being in control of my fate.
Asa may act friendly, but I knew it was just that—an act.
The silence of the cabin was deafening as the night settled in. I had no idea when I would return to the palace and what I would do from there. How can I tell Alaric I won't be returning with Eryx now? It was all so messy.
Why me? I wallowed in my self-pity just a while longer. Only for a little while, then I will pick myself up again and re-strategize.
