I can breath.
I don't want to breath like this, this feeling, shame, that is I despite myself because I cannot do want I want to do the way I want to do it, This system doesn't matter it's me the one that can't overcome it, the result would be the same in any world. I have more ego that I can accept, I believe that I'm better, I feel everyone's stupidity so much that even when I'm exposed to my own stupidity I'm unable to accept it.
Full of excuses and regret I go one more time.