Is it possible to be on earth and feel like you are in heaven? Feeling like the butterflies in your stomach will never stop? That is the exact feeling I've been having this past months.
Charles and I have been going out for the past three months and I can say with all affirmation that they have been the best days of my life. He was so sweet and how he has been getting to see me everyday since then gets past me, because of the amount of work he has to do. He sends flowers to me at random times at work. My colleagues have been teasing me a lot about the secret admirer I have. I didn't tell anyone anything about the fact that I was dating our boss's son. That particular part still bugs me. I told him not to tell anyone about us because I was scared of his mother and I didn't want us to break up. I have this feeling that if she knows, she wouldn't want us to be together, even though he was totally ready to go public with it.
There is another problem I have right now. I think I'm pregnant. I've not take the test but looking at the related circumstances, I think I'm pregnant. I took the test box I bought this morning before coming to work, put it in my bag and went to the restroom. I opened a stall, went in and locked the door.
After I was done with it, I sat on the toilet seat, jerking my legs nervously, a part of me silently hoping that I was not pregnant and a part of me was happy about it.
Few minutes later, two vibrant red lines stared back at me. I was not exactly shocked, but the fact that reality just dawned on me made me start crying. I cried for almost twenty minutes before I stopped.
I went out of the stall and stared at myself in the mirror. Luckily, no one was here at the moment. What if he does not accept the baby? What if he denies it or say things like I cheated on him? I've never been with any man except him. What if…. My heart started beating rapidly. I washed my face nervously before I left the restroom. I went straight into my office. I won't exactly call it an office because it was a changing room. But I tend to spend most of my time here and my colleagues started calling it my office so it just stuck. It was at this particular moment I thanked God that I had I personal space.
Later at night, I was the only one left in the office. I was literally just staring into space, doing nothing. That was when I heard a knock on my door. I pulled myself together.
"Come in." I said. I pulled my hands through my hair and put my glasses in a very good position.
"Babe." I immediately raised my head up when I heard Charles's voice.
"Charles?" I said in surprise. Oh God…. What was he doing here?? "What are you doing here?" I asked in a surprised tone, standing up.
"I wanted to surprise you. I knew you were still going to be here. So instead of calling, I decided to just show up." He said. And I did something I have not done since morning, I smiled. He had that effect on me. Just seeing him makes me happy.
"Are you okay? Your face is swollen. Did you cry? Who hurt you?" He asked in one breath coming close to me and touching my face.
My heart started beating fast again.
"I'm okay. I….."
"Don't lie to me. What's going on?" He said sternly holding my eyes. I need to tell him now. If he's going to reject me, he should do it now.
"I… I …I…." I stuttered.
"Calm down babe. Calm down. You know you can tell me anything right?" He said touching my hair. He backed me towards the chair behind my table and made me sit down. I didn't take my eyes off him but I knew I was already crying. He sat on my table and faced me.
"Talk to me." He said in a worried tone.
"I'm….. I …" he suddenly bent down and picked something up from the floor. My eyes widened when I saw what it was. The test. It was the test. I didn't want him to know this way.
"I stepped on this…" he stopped mid sentence. I was looking at the floor not even daring to look at him.
He was silent for what seemed like a long time. How could I have been so careless with it?
"You are pregnant?" He asked carefully.
This is it. Then end of everything. I might as well pull on my big girl pants and deal with this once and for all.
"Are you pregnant?" He asked again with a little bit more force, raising my head up to look at him. I was expecting to see hate and resentment in his eyes but he was smiling.
I nodded.
That was all it took for him to sweep me into a very big hug. I was amused at his reaction as I was not expecting it.
"You are not angry?" I asked. He released me and looked at me weirdly.
"Why will I be angry? You are carrying my baby. I never expected it happen but now that it has, it is the best thing that has ever happened to me, Gwen. You have no idea how happy I am about this."
"I love you." I suddenly blurted out. I have not said those words to him even if he had said it to me a thousand times since we started our relationship.
He was smiling from ear to ear like he won a jackpot.
"You have no idea how much I love you. Let's get married." He said and my eyes widened. "I know this is not a romantic proposal and it is not what you dreamed about, but I want to have the assurance that you belong to me forever. I'll set up a….." I placed my hands on his lips to stop him from talking further.
"Yes. I'll marry you." I replied, placing my lips on his. He kissed me back passionately and I wrapped my hand around is neck. We broke off the kiss but not our embrace. He was just whispering thank you into my neck.
Suddenly, the door of my office swung open only to reveal Astrid. I was the one facing the door so I saw her first. I pulled out of Charles embrace and kept a distance between us, he frowned and pulled me back to him. What was she doing here?
"What in the seven heavens did I just hear?" She asked calmly.
No no no ... anytime she sounds like that, there is going to be a very big problem.
Charles didn't seem fazed about the situation.
"We are getting married mum." He answered her, squeezing my hand in his.
"What???!!!! And you have the guts to tell me again?!!! She's pregnant and you are getting married!!!!??? Are you kidding me?" She flared up. "You can do better than this…" she pointed at me disdainfully. I normally don't let her words get to me but the fact that she was saying it in front of Charles made me feel embarrassed.
"Don't speak to her in that manner mum. I won't let you do that. She means everything to me. I..."
"What???!! Gwen, did you seduce my son? What have you done to him?!!!" She screamed almost pulling her hair out.
Charles pulled me behind him. I am not one to hide from my problems. I won't just stay here and allow her to talk me down. To talk down our relationship like it means nothing. I came out from behind him.
"I love Charles, Astrid and I want to be with him." I said loudly so that they will be able to hear me over their argument. I continued when they both went silent.
"I'm pregnant with his child and I don't regret anything about our relationship. I love everything about him and nothing will stop me from being with him. Not even you." I said strongly.
"I… I …. " Astrid was looking at both of us like we were deranged.
"You are fired. I don't ever want to see your face here any longer. And you Charles, I'm so disappointed in you right now. News flash for the both of you, especially you Gwen, you two will never get to be together. I'll do whatever it takes to break you apart." She said with a final tone and walked out of the room angrily.
I almost collapsed to the ground, but I felt Charles hold me.
"It's okay, sweetheart. We will work things out."
"Charlie…Charlie…." I said over and over again.
"Everything will be fine baby." He smoothed my hair and kissed my forehead.
I am not even surprised at the fact that I was fired. I was totally expecting that. But Astrid, I was concerned about her. She never makes an empty threat. She does whatever she says she'll do. And I know that she'll do whatever it takes to keep both of us apart.