I have calmed down, now only an uncomfortable silence spreads all over the room, my brother Evan only looks at the emptiness with a lost look, he seems to be thinking about something, but I don't know what, I gather my courage and break this silence.
-Brother, I'm fine, don't worry-, I seem to have surprised him, even so he smiled immediately and gave me his smile, he immediately came closer and looked at my head, of course the reason why I was unconscious is because I hit my head.
-It doesn't seem to bleed anymore-, said Evan, of course it wasn't going to bleed, I already spent 3 days lying in bed or at least that's what he said. -I was very worried, you collapsed out of nowhere and didn't wake up for 3 days-, he replied, it was obvious I was going to collapse, after the death of our parents I became obsessed, I didn't think about Evan and I immersed myself in the investigation thinking that there would be some way to revive our parents with magic, as if there was such a convenient magic.
I still think it was very stupid of me to look for that magic, now that I remember that novel I know I will never find something so convenient, not even the main character could, how would I find it, thinking about it, who was I in this novel, I don't remember reading about a character like me.
Suddenly I looked at my brother. He did appear in the novel, he was a great commander and swordsman, he smiled, unfortunately he died in one of the coming wars, ... what, will my brother die?
-Alisha are you ok?, you haven't spoken for a while now, maybe, you are still feeling bad-, his sudden words surprised me, without time to process he suddenly stands up, -I will go call a doctor, don't get up and rest-, he left very fast, he will be back soon, he never breaks his word, as noble as always, so noble that he will end up sacrificing himself for his sister.
-Why should I lose my brother too, I don't want to lose him-, I start to cry, I can't accept it, I don't want to accept it, I love my brother too much, where is the rule that says I can't change the future, since I have this information why not use it?
-Alisha, I bring a doctor- I was surprised, why does he always appears suddenly, anyway it seems that I drag the doctor here, they both seem to have run, I am not so weak, or at least I was not in my past life, ..... well, I must stop thinking about it, I don't remember anything anyway, besides, I love my brother very much, I don't have to think about a life I don't remember, I'm fond of my present life.
-Everything seems to be in order, your head is almost healed, you shouldn't worry too much-, that's what the doctor says after examining me, I think that will calm my brother down, Evan is usually very overprotective.
-You heard the doctor, you shouldn't worry-, I say while smiling, and Evan seems to relax his expression, he sighs and then speaks, -I see that I don't have to worry-, he smiles, and strokes my head, I look around, but I don't see the doctor, he seems to have slipped away in the middle of our conversation.
-Brother, you will be with me for a long time, won't you?-, He smiles and says yes, he is a liar for this kind of things, in the original novel he also said the same thing, and in the end he couldn't even say goodbye.
Someone knocks on the door, it's Liam, our butler, apparently my brother left all his work while I was unconscious, now he has a lot of work accumulated, Evan complains and clings to stay in the room, but Liam doesn't agree and drags him out of the room, I love that childish part of Evan, the one he doesn't show often.
Now I find myself in this dark room, desolate, although I think I'm lucky, many don't even have a place to sleep, in this dark city, people are just looking to survive.
I approach the window, looking to see at least a ray of light, failure, maybe not so many would go crazy if at least a little moonlight came, but Meihr's kingdom doesn't even have that, we need clocks to know if we have to sleep or wake up, it's very confusing.
Since I was a little girl I have never seen the sun, but I have always been told stories about it, everyone is told it, I guess to keep hope, and I guess that hope will be the one that will lead our kingdom to destruction.
I think the only thing that kept me alive until now was also that ephemeral hope, but now that I remember everything I know that hope will not take me anywhere, I will only keep losing things if I don't act, I can't be satisfied with what I have and continue my life, remembering that novel has given me a new kind of hope, I won't remember almost anything, not how the sun looked or even if I was happy in that life, but it has given me hope.
Suddenly the watch I always wear on my wrist has started to ring, apparently it's time to sleep, I hope my brother can sleep and have sweet dreams too.
I lay down on the bed, it is an acquired habit to sleep just when the alarm sounds, when I was little my mom was very worried, she said that many people go crazy for not following the rules, yes, the rules, sleep whenever the alarm sounds, likewise wake up whenever the alarm sounds, entertain yourself, do not let thoughts flood you, never take suspicious substances, only take medicines if necessary, do not waste food, and above all never leave the kingdom, do not covet to see the sun and the plants, it is not good to cross.
Soon I fall deeply asleep hoping to have good dreams, but reality is not as expected, I guess I have a regret of my past life, there are only nightmares in my dreams, a man is bleeding to death at the edge of the beach, and who is that crying next to him, I guess it's me, did I love him so much, why do I cry so desperately and feel this immeasurable sadness, I don't want to feel it, but I want to remember.
I get up and breathe shakily, my heart beats fast, my eyes are swollen, I seem to have cried a lot, why, I don't remember anything, did I have a nightmare?