Chereads / survivalist instinct / Chapter 19 - Chapter 19: Paranoid

Chapter 19 - Chapter 19: Paranoid

A Confusing Confrontation – The Growing Paranoia

The tension in Rivermouth had thickened to the point where it felt like the city itself was suffocating. Both the nobles and the common folk were moving in shadows, each side weaving a web of mistrust and suspicion. It was becoming increasingly hard to know who was pulling the strings, and for Mellali, the weight of that uncertainty was bearing down on him like never before.

He had heard whispers—a radical faction within the commoners was growing more aggressive, pushing for direct action against the nobles. The subtle cold war was about to boil over into something far more dangerous, and Mellali and Hadjer were being dragged right into the center of it.

That morning, Mellali and Hadjer had been summoned to a hidden meeting, deep in one of the old warehouses by the docks. They had been told that the leaders of the common folk wanted to discuss something important—something about a plot that could change everything. But as they approached, Mellali couldn't shake the feeling that they were walking into a trap.

---

The Meeting – Mistrust in the Air

The warehouse was dimly lit, the flickering lanterns casting eerie shadows on the walls. Hadjer walked beside Mellali, her usual silence heavier than ever, though her eyes flicked around the room, always alert. The meeting wasn't what they had expected.

Instead of a unified group of common folk and guild members, they were met with two factions, each clearly distrustful of the other. On one side, a group of radical commoners, led by a man named Jorran, stood with their arms crossed, glaring at the guild members as though they were the enemy. On the other side, several guild leaders, including Guildmaster Vayen, watched the commoners with thinly veiled contempt.

Mellali's heart sank. He had expected tension, but this was something else. The air was thick with paranoia, and even before anyone spoke, it was clear that no one here trusted each other—or them.

Jorran, a tall man with a rough beard and fiery eyes, stepped forward, his gaze locked on Mellali. "We heard rumors, sorcerer," he spat, his tone sharp. "That you've been meeting with the nobles. That you're playing both sides, waiting for the moment to sell us out."

Mellali clenched his jaw, keeping his voice calm. "I haven't made any deals with the nobles. I'm here to keep the city from tearing itself apart."

Jorran sneered, his eyes narrowing. "Then explain why you've been so quiet. Why haven't you chosen a side? You claim to care about the people, but all you've done is stop us from acting. You stopped the riot. You've stopped us from pushing back against the nobles. Why?"

Mellali opened his mouth to respond, but before he could, Guildmaster Vayen interrupted, his voice smooth but laced with venom. "Maybe because Mellali knows what we all know—that your little uprising is nothing but a suicide mission. You think you can just storm the nobles' estates? They'll crush you, and everyone you care about, without hesitation."

Jorran shot Vayen a glare. "We don't need your permission, guildmaster. The guilds have been cowards for too long. You've sat in your halls, counting your gold, while we've bled in the streets."

The room was growing hotter with every word, and Mellali could feel the storm brewing. These two factions were on the brink of tearing each other apart, and the worst part was, he had no idea who to trust. Both sides were throwing accusations—each one trying to discredit the other, all while casting suspicion on him and Hadjer.

---

Unraveling Lies – Who Can Be Trusted?

As the argument escalated, Mellali's mind was racing. The information they had been given was scattered, conflicting, and drenched in paranoia. He knew that both sides wanted something from him, but he didn't know what their true motives were.

Hadjer stood beside him, her eyes flicking between the factions, her expression unreadable. Mellali could tell she was assessing the situation, but even she seemed to be struggling with the chaos of it all. They had both expected a clear direction, but instead, they were drowning in lies and half-truths.

Mellali wanted to read their minds, to reach out with his Aberrant Mind powers and cut through the confusion. But there was something off—something that made his head hurt every time he tried to focus. He realized it quickly: they were all wearing anti-mind reading items. Somehow, they had anticipated that he might use his abilities to get to the truth, and they had prepared for it.

They didn't trust him. Not really. Neither side.

Mellali's frustration boiled beneath the surface. He had always prided himself on his ability to see through deception, to understand people even when they were at their worst. But now? Now he was in the dark, and it terrified him.

"This is pointless," Mellali said finally, his voice cutting through the shouting. "You're both talking in circles. Accusing each other of betrayal, but no one's offering any real proof. All I'm hearing are rumors."

Jorran turned on him, his eyes blazing. "You want proof? Fine. We've seen members of your precious guilds meeting with nobles in secret. They're cutting deals behind your back, preparing to sell us out once the time comes."

Vayen scoffed, crossing his arms. "And what evidence do you have of this? Your gut feeling? You radicals are so eager for a fight that you're willing to burn the entire city to the ground. We've been trying to keep order, but you're too blind to see it."

---

Mellali's Confusion – A Future Clouded in Doubt

Mellali's head spun as the accusations flew back and forth. He could feel the weight of the moment pressing down on him, the way the future seemed to narrow into a single, fragile thread. Both sides were convinced that the other was betraying them—and by extension, they were both accusing him of playing a part in it.

Hadjer finally spoke, her voice quiet but cutting through the noise. "None of you are seeing the bigger picture," she said, her eyes sharp. "You're so busy trying to tear each other down that you don't realize you're playing into the nobles' hands. This is exactly what they want—a divided people, too weak to resist."

Mellali glanced at her, admiration flickering through his confusion. Even in the midst of this storm, Hadjer could see the truth that everyone else was too blind to notice. She always had a way of cutting through the chaos, of pointing out the obvious when everyone else was too wrapped up in their own agendas.

But as much as her words resonated, the confusion didn't lift. If anything, it deepened. Both sides were throwing half-truths and misdirection, and with his mind-reading abilities blocked, Mellali felt more lost than ever. He couldn't tell who was lying, who was telling the truth, or if there even was a truth to be found in all this.

"Hadjer's right," Mellali said, his voice calm but tense. "All of this—this infighting—it's what the nobles want. If we're too busy tearing each other apart, they'll sweep in and finish the job. We need to stop fighting amongst ourselves and figure out what's really going on."

But the room remained tense, the distrust still hanging in the air. Jorran's eyes narrowed, his voice low and dangerous. "And how do we know you're not already working for them, sorcerer? How do we know you're not playing us all?"

Mellali felt the sting of Jorran's words, but before he could respond, Vayen stepped in, his voice smooth and cutting. "Oh, please, Jorran. If Mellali was working for the nobles, we'd all be dead already. The man brought down Renwald, remember?"

"Or maybe that was part of his plan," Jorran shot back. "Maybe Renwald was just the sacrificial pawn in a bigger game."

---

A Future Clouded in Doubt

Mellali stood there, his mind swirling with the conflicting accusations and half-truths that filled the room. The factions of common folk and guilds were too wrapped up in their own fears and suspicions to see what was really happening—they were playing into the nobles' hands, just as Hadjer had said. And even though Mellali could see the trap being set, he felt powerless to stop it.

He couldn't trust anyone. Not Jorran, with his rage-fueled radicalism, nor Vayen, the guildmaster whose smooth words hid deeper ambitions. They were both so fixated on their own battles that they couldn't see the bigger picture. Mellali was starting to wonder if they even cared about the city's future at all. It seemed like everyone just wanted to destroy the other side.

The longer he stood there, the clearer it became: This meeting wasn't going to give him any real answers. It was just another move in the cold war that gripped Rivermouth, with both sides looking for a way to exploit him and Hadjer. Mellali felt the weight of it all, pressing down on him—too much confusion, too many shifting pieces, and not enough clarity.

With a sigh, Mellali turned to Hadjer, catching her eye. She gave him a subtle nod, as if understanding that this conversation was going nowhere. Without another word, the two of them stepped away from the confrontation. Neither Jorran nor Vayen made any move to stop them, too absorbed in their own argument to notice their departure.

---

A Moment of Quiet – Reflection Amid the Chaos

The streets of Rivermouth were unusually quiet as Mellali and Hadjer made their way back to their rented room. The tension in the city still hung in the air, but for now, the chaos seemed to have subsided. As they walked, Mellali's mind was buzzing with thoughts, each more frustrating than the last. What was he supposed to do now?

For days, they had been pulled in different directions, dragged deeper into the conflict between the nobles and the common folk. Every step they took seemed to lead them further into a web of deception and betrayal, and now Mellali found himself lost. His Aberrant Mind powers, which had once been his greatest tool for cutting through lies, were useless in this situation, thanks to the anti-mind reading items everyone seemed to be wearing. Without those abilities, without the insight they gave him, Mellali felt... blind.

And then there was Hadjer.

As they walked in silence, Mellali glanced at her out of the corner of his eye. She had been so quiet lately, even more than usual. He had started to realize what was really weighing on her. It wasn't just the confusion and danger of their situation in Rivermouth—it was something deeper. She missed home. She missed her family. She missed the life she had left behind in the real world.

For Mellali, this strange world of magic and intrigue had been a challenge, something he could at least try to navigate using his skills and intellect. But for Hadjer, it was a prison. Her dreams had been tied to the real world, where she had planned to build her career as a dentist, where she had a life waiting for her. The isekai fantasy might be an adventure to some, but for someone like her—someone who had real dreams and ambitions back home—it was a nightmare.

And now that he thought about it, Mellali realized that he missed home, too. He had spent so much time trying to survive, trying to make sense of this world, that he hadn't allowed himself to feel the loss. He had left behind his family, his career, his entire life. And no matter how much he tried to adapt, this world wasn't home. Not for either of them.

---

What Now? – Mellali's Internal Struggle

As they reached their small room and settled in for the night, Mellali found himself pacing the floor, his mind still racing. He didn't know what to do. The future was unclear—both sides of the conflict were using him, and there was no clear path forward. The nobles were quietly consolidating power, the common folk were preparing for rebellion, and in the middle of it all stood Mellali and Hadjer, unsure of where they fit in.

Hadjer sat by the window, her eyes distant, watching the dark streets below. The soft moonlight illuminated her face, and Mellali could see the weariness etched into her features. She was trying so hard to be strong, to hold it all together, but he could tell that she was struggling. And it hurt him to see her like that.

Finally, unable to bear the silence any longer, Mellali spoke.

"I don't know what to do," he admitted quietly, his voice filled with frustration. "Everything feels... off. Both sides are lying to us, twisting the truth. And I can't trust anyone. Not Jorran, not Vayen, not the nobles. They're all just... trying to destroy each other. And we're stuck in the middle."

Hadjer didn't respond immediately, her gaze still fixed on the streets below. When she finally spoke, her voice was soft, almost distant. "It feels like... there's no right choice. Like, no matter what we do, things will fall apart."

Mellali stopped pacing, his eyes locking onto hers. "You've been quiet lately," he said, his voice gentler now. "I know this is all... overwhelming. But if you want to talk about it, I'm here."

Hadjer glanced at him, her expression unreadable for a moment. Then, with a quiet sigh, she looked back out the window. "It's not just this city, Mellali. It's everything. I miss home. I miss my family. I didn't ask to be brought here—I had dreams back in the real world. This... all of this... it's not my fight."

Her words hit Mellali like a punch to the gut. He had known she was struggling, but hearing her say it out loud made it all the more real. She wasn't just feeling lost—she was mourning the life she had left behind. And now that she said it, Mellali realized that a part of him was mourning too.

---

A Moment of Clarity – Choosing the Next Step

Mellali sat down beside her, the weight of the situation settling heavily on his shoulders. He didn't know how to fix this. He didn't know how to make things better for Hadjer, or how to navigate the dangerous game they were caught in. But he knew one thing for sure: they couldn't keep drifting like this. They couldn't keep getting pulled in different directions, unsure of where their loyalties lay.

They needed to make a choice.

"I miss home too," Mellali said quietly, his voice barely above a whisper. "But until we figure out if there's a way back, we're stuck here. And I don't want us to just... survive. We need to decide what we're fighting for. Whether it's the people, the guilds, or... something else."

Hadjer nodded slowly, her gaze still distant. "I just don't know what the right choice is. It all feels like a trap."

Mellali ran a hand through his hair, his frustration boiling beneath the surface. "I don't know either. But we can't just sit here and let the city fall apart around us. We need to do something—make a stand, pick a side, something. Because if we don't... this cold war is going to turn into a real one, and we'll be caught in the middle."

Hadjer finally turned to look at him, her eyes filled with a quiet determination. "You're right. We can't stay on the sidelines forever."

Mellali met her gaze, feeling a flicker of hope in the midst of all the confusion. They might not have all the answers, but they had each other. And for now, that was enough.