I rushed through the hallway holding my chest as I heard them say all that shit about me, what me an attention seeker a pick me just because I tend to have a loud voice, why me,

No, it was always me; I hate myself so much just because I tend to be more kind does it mean they can trample on me and use me when they want and then throw me aside like a used piece of paper

No it was just me, it was my personality but why me why me, what did I ever do to them except for being kind, I changed myself for them and this is what I get,

No it's all my fault I should've known ,I should've figured it out ,I shouldn't have been so naive , so gullible , so easy to manipulate , it's all because of my people pleaser personality , or am I actually a people pleaser or is that only what I say to make myself feel good, I'm such a disappointment I should just kill myself ,I---

ANASTASIA,

I heard them call my name, they looked at me with that naive smile, what do they think I don't know that I am clueless and don't know anything that I am a kid

Well when I was a kid when was, I prioritised anyway, I was always the alone lonely kid even though I had many people growing up