The first thing I remember was being in the back of the school cart. Looking off the side, seeing the places in the distant, and up close, pass me. Its the only time I remember not feeling pain that comes to mind. Its like a trick candle, it just wont stay dead after I light it. But the year or two after was fine in my head.
The place it starts is roughly when I was about to turn eight. My school shutdown and I was transferred to a new one, just like all the people I knew of. I felt slightly empty as if something was left in that school, but i dont think ill ever know what it was. Prittymuch lost all my friends as thay lived closer to a different school than the one I whent to then.
But atleast... no im not gana lie to you i never did make new friends at the new school.
Now let me tell you a horrible feeling. No im serious to an eight year old it was horrible. Being the only kid transferred to a new school, after a whole school shut down. And its not like I didn't try, I did try, I sat in this spot next to others, and thay left. I think I tried a total of a hundred times before stopping. So I just passed what work I was given and moved on the the next school, now called a learning center, it was the same thing just with older people in it.
I again tried to make friends as the learning center gave time to chat with others before and after lerning sessions. Still nouthing, thay all ignored me and picked on me. At one point people kept saying I smeled nomatter what. Hell i took three showers one day, and thay still said it, I gess thats why I hate them so much. I did stop showering at that point, that somehow shut them up.