I have to admit, I've been skimming through some of these pages ahead of time...
And man, my anxiety has spiked quite a bit I tell you.
It is cathartic as hell.
It also has brought me a spot of clarity.
Someone asked me if this was really a good idea. If reliving all of these things could be more hurtful than helpful.
I don't believe that it will be harmful.
I don't believe that any of the more negative experiences could hurt me again, as I have grown beyond much of this and have taken the time and energy to learn from much of it about as much as I could.
I do feel...slight triggers at times, you know?
But I am only human.
Memories can be painful...but the pain for me is kinda akin to the whole phoenix thing.
Let's see what the next journal entry holds lol.
Enjoy.
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January 4th, 2012.
Journal #005.
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And now that I have nothing more material to offer, I am of no use!
I should have known just by the gleam in her eye.
And the plot thickens...both are closer than I could have imagined. How wild this notion is.
What that I'd never returned to this place?
Sad is the thought that I could care less for these people while some would actually miss me...
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Hmm.
I can't say that I remember what this is about folks, my apologies.
But I am getting the same feeling from this entry that I got from the last, and seeing that they are from the same day, something or someone had to have really bothered me.
Enough for me to want to kill myself.
Hmm.
I can't definitively say that I recall what "the plot" was that was getting thicker...but I believe that I have an idea lol.
No spoilers.
See you soon folks.
-Redd.