She wasted so much money on pills, how could she think she needed that shit, I will always remember her face, her shakes, she was so pale, so lifeless like her body was with us, but not her soul.
And there was no care, no passion, where did her passion go? Me and Cassie try to hand a 100 dollars each to Roxy, but she pushes it back into our hands, "We're gonna need this for Liv not me I'm fine"
this happens sometimes, everyone goes through this, this happens to everyone, sometimes you snort and sometimes you pop, or you shoot and sometimes it feels too good, but you get over it, after a week and then you are the same, that happens right?
this is fine, I look to Cassie, to tell me it's okay so I don't cry, I look into her eyes mine pleading she shakes her head "No, this isn't normal"
"Not even-" I try to find the words, but a shake of her head silences me, I knew and I chose this life anyway, no complaining. "How are you feeling" I tap my foot, the question making me anxious.
"I'm coping," I say, heading to my room. I need weed, I need something, I just wanna forget.
I swear ever since I hit it I ain't ever been the same
Next day
I wake up screaming the next morning I leave early and don't wait for cassie and on my first day of work I avoid meeting people, and focus on every task at hand, and by the end of my shift my manger has complimented me 3 times and I'm not sure if it's because he wants to 'tap' that or actually likes my work ethic. When I get home I check on Liv, she's screaming at the door, and when I come in she throws a lamp at me, "I can't even move, how could you treat your friend like this" her body has become limp from not using, "are you hungry?" I ask instead, she looks like she wants to punch me, I've never seen her this angry, but then her expression turns somber, "please Alice, I just want some just some not a lot, I'll quit after just one more time" I shake my head, and she begins to scream again, I hate you, I hate you, I hate you, she says it so many times even after I shut the door the whole house fills with her sound.
"So Roxy" I start with, it's been a few hours since I've checked on Livvy and I'm pretty sure she's sleeping, Roxy has a small smile "yes, I'll go drinking and dancing with you" I frown that's not even what I was gonna ask, "Can we go after I look in the attic?" I ask. Compromise gets you everywhere her eyebrows raise "why the attic? it's the most haunted up there"
"That's exactly why," I say
about 5 mins later I'm alone, by the attic door, and it's late at night. Damn, this is a bad decision. The door creaks open, without me even pushing it ok...freaky, I push myself up the stairs one by one. then finally top floor the dust hit my nose, faster than the spiderwebs hit my hands. I find a lightswitch and flick it on, it flickers but slowly the room lits up, I cough as dust hits my mouth, god has anyone ever been up here?
I take a slow look around the room, being careful not to miss a thing, the attic is huge, and covered in mirrors, old furniture like lamps, funky dressers, and torn couches, the wallpaper is torn all over, streaked with time. Was there really nothing up here? What am I even doing here? I sigh, and turn to leave ready to tell Roxanne that I spooked the ghost, when something so small, catches the my eye in the light. Wait, what's that I crowd over the tiny object, and finally pick it up. A key, a little tiny key that's gold and has flower print on it. To where though? I look around the attic to find something the key could fit through, I check the walls, the mirrors any secret drawers and I find nothing.
the excitement leaves my body, washing me with disappointment, I turn to leave when I bump into something, a chest. old, and odd large, brown. I kneel by it and try the key twisting it, and the chest clicks telling me it's unlocked, I open it.
I had to go through diaries, letters, and old fashion items, like tiny mirrors, old makeup, a music box, and gowns, like late 1800s gowns, and more stuff. I practically ran down the steps, to my room. I don't think I'll be going out tonight. oops.