I, Mademoiselle Astria of Beaumont, have pledged my allegiance with Emperor Kyron of Fitzgerald to attain peace and order in this lifetime.
This is the story of a girl named Lee Yura who was bedridden due to an accident that took a toll on her body, in the present time, and was waiting for her time to perish. While waiting, she read a lot of novels, including "Looking for You in Another Lifetime". The story in this novel shows how love and fate created by the gods are working in the daily lives of this world and even on the other worlds that exist.
Yura's POV
During this time, I can feel that it's near. My Ending. My Finale. My Death.
Every parent's dream is to give the best to their children, maybe not all, but the parents and siblings I have now in this room. I can say that I am so lucky to be part of their family.
In this room, I got them on my head and bidding goodbyes. Seeing them crying, hurting, and regretful makes my heart ache.
While Mom is holding my hand, I can see the bright light while someone's calling my name. "Yura, my child. You have suffered in this lifetime"
I squeeze my Mom's hand as hard as possible to reassure her that I will be alright. My Dad while comforting my Mom also held my hand and said
"Yura, don't worry about us, we will be alright. You have to rest and be at peace. Remember that you are our only Princess and have fought a good fight, my dear."
These words of affirmation helped me to get through this disease. Every day, I was able to see how great this family is. How loving, how caring, and how reliable
Currently, I am in tremendous pain and I really cannot distinguish if I am really in pain. Is this how it feels when you are dying? It is unique at some point that makes me anxious.
I still want to have at least an extended time to visit him, but I don't think it will be possible.
BACKSTORY
On our way home after our 3-day vacation, Tenshi was driving while I took a nap. But a sudden impact came into our car and all of a sudden, I saw Tenshi. I wanted to cry, but the shock was so immense that I didn't have time to react. I tried to move my body, but I couldn't feel anything.
I can't feel any pain. I can't feel my body. Am I paralyzed? But, how about Tenshi, I should check on him.
Moments later, I heard the rescue team and I could feel my eyes dozing off. I can't close my eyes, how am I gonna see Tenshi? If he's okay or not. If I can still hear his voice or not. How can I…
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I can still remember the first time we met. He was so shy during our team-building activities and so was I. But one of his colleagues came to our table during the buffet and asked who is Lee Yura when they knew that I was Lee Yura.
They asked if Tenshi could take a picture with me and to my surprise he was framed by his teammates. He was so shy that I could feel it in his voice saying...
"I don't know that they are up to something like this. I'm sorry"
After that, they were cheering and teasing us. Even on our workstations, they still teased us, especially Tenshi. Then there was this time that my teammates were talking something about me to Tenshi and the rest is history.
I was the first one to chat and told that those rumors weren't true. Well, I found out it was just a ploy that my teammates planned for me to do something since Tenshi was so shy to the bones. But, while we were chatting, he asked me for a date.
After years of dating, he asked for my hand in marriage and my parents' approval. We are all so happy even his parents. We both have the same history, and our parents want to teach us to start from the bottom until the time we prove ourselves to be worthy as an heir.
Tenshi's family holds the largest Technology company that produces electronics and electronic components for use in the information technology, communications, automotive equipment, automobile, precision molding, and consumer electronics industries.
Our family holds the largest manufacturing company for luxury goods like bags, shoes, furniture, and many more related to luxury. Name it, we have it.
So our engagement somehow showed great value considering that we came from both high-ranking families in the present time.
Hence even if we hold those titles, our families are still humble and on good terms.
So after the engagement ceremony, our parents gave us a gift which was a 3-day vacation in the Philippines due to their beaches we knew we could enjoy it due to the cold weather in Korea. We long for something that is somehow warm and beautiful at the same time.
But after we arrived at the airport and while we traveled back home. We got into this accident.
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Current Time
I have been in this hospital for a year now. I wasn't able to even attend Tenshi's funeral. Even so, his family is still visiting me despite my condition.
But the last time my parents talked to the doctors, due to the accident's impact on my body, some of my organs were starting to fail, and my spine was the one that got the toll of that accident. In this accident, we also found out that my previous cancer had also taken a toll on my body. For some, it does sound awful. To have such a disease and be bedridden for a year.
Due to my condition, the cancer spread even after so many attempts to cure it or delay the spread, however, due to the accident and organ failures. This is how I face my demise.
I don't feel scared, I don't feel alone, and I don't feel sad.
"Yura, my child. Come to me. I am to give you a chance"
That voice was so soothing that I smiled even if a smile can drain the remaining energy that I have. I can feel my Mom and Dad's hug. I also can hear my brothers crying. Is it the end?
Or is it a new beginning for me? Will I be able to see Tenshi in another lifetime?
Will I be able to get the same affection my new family will be if I am to be given a chance again?
"M-Mom…" I said in a wispy voice.
"Yes, my princess?" I can hear her voice cracking in tears. It hurts so bad that even if I want to hold them one last time, I really can't. I just opened my eyes for the last time. "Please give me more time to say how much I am happy and grateful to have them as my family"
"As you wish, my child"
"M-Mom, Dad, m-my u-ugly brothers *ahem*, I-I love you. Thank you for taking care of me. See you in my next life.."
Slowly, my eyes shut and a bright figure showed with a long hair that is like a bright moonlight. An old type of robe wrapped around its body. A bright silver-like eye color. Who is this?
"My child, I am Libitina, goddess of rebirth and death. I have been watching you suffer and was in great pain to see you in that condition." The deity said, but is this always like this? I mean I have read about deities or gods or goddesses, but I wasn't a believer of such fantasies.
But here I am now, standing in front of her. She truly is remarkable. Her beauty is to be of a full moon that shines bright at night.
"Am I going to the Paradise now?" I simply asked since I have no idea what is happening and where will I go. If to the paradise or hell.
*A/N: Paradise = Heaven hee hee
"*chuckles* You, my child, deserve so much in this life but someone took that from you," she said while looking sad. Did someone take that from me? But how?
"Took what from me?" I asked since I am really confused right now.
"Loviatar, my sibling was so angry with me that I favored you even in your previous lives." Favored me? How? Previous lives?
I don't get it huhu.
"What do you mean by previous lives? Have I been reincarnated multiple times?" There's nothing to lose in asking.
"Yes, and in those lifetimes, you still suffered so I as the goddess of rebirth was tasked to remove every memory you have. But for this lifetime, I am giving you the privilege to choose if you want to erase your memories or retain them." She said while holding me on my shoulders and looking at me intently.
"Even if this lifetime was cut short, I still was able to have fun with the people I love and cherish. I wish to retain this when I am to be reincarnated again." I said with a smile. I do love all of them, especially Tenshi. But is it possible that Tenshi also reincarnated? Should I ask her?
"I can see that through your sufferings, you still were able to see the positivity in those situations. But.."
Okay, I am now nervous about that pause she made. She turned her back to me and with a sad tone she said..
"I know how you love Tenshi, your lover. Even in your previous lives. You chose him over and over again. But, he chose to forget about this lifetime. His reason was that if you were bound to see by fate again, he would know it immediately."
But why did he choose to forget this lifetime? Is he not happy to be with me?
"My child, don't be sad. This may favor you once you reincarnate. I have no powers when it comes to fate. I can't see what your future will be. But, I can guide you on this journey in Beaumont."
Beaumont? Isn't it that familiar? I think I remember it in one of the books I read. In this world, rather than the universe. Nothing is impossible. It could be possible that those worlds mentioned in the books I read were existing.
"Does it mean that I will be reincarnated into a book? Beaumont was one of the places that holds great power when it comes to political views and resources." This is what I remember but am I reincarnated in this book out of all the books? Seriously?
"My child, this is a new world. A new world where you can live and fulfill all of your heart's desires." But what kind of desires? I am clueless. Is it like I am going to search for Tenshi in this lifetime of the desire that I am about to find out once I am there?
"But, is it okay to request that I can choose a family where I will be with? Or is it like random?" Just to make sure I will not be born as a worm LOL.
"Yes, you can. But, since I do have limitations, I can only guide you. I cannot intervene in your choices as there will be conflicts with the other gods and goddesses. All I can do is to protect you." Protect me from what or who?
"Alright. If that is the case, I won't ask any more questions. I chose to be part of the Beaumont family. Based on what I read, they resemble my family in my previous life. They may be different when it comes to attitude and other things, but I know I can work on that." Just as in my previous life, everyone is still unique with each other, but I still can work on that.
"Alright, as you wish. Also, I will be giving you the power as a gift for all those tragedies you have been through. This power holds great importance when you are to be reincarnated in this new world. It may sound like fantasies, but it exists." Power? But what kind of power? Can I fly with it?
She looked at me as if it was an amusing view. Maybe because this is new to me and in my previous life, there was no such thing as powers.
"May I ask what kind of power is it that you will bless me with?" Just to make sure, there's no harm in asking.
"Power of physical strength, combat skill, knowledge, and divine power that can heal you and others." Well, that's many to start haha.
"Do you mean, if I punch someone, they will be dead in an instant? And for the knowledge, is it like I will know everything at a glance? How about the divine power, is it limited to physical injuries or there are other things that it can heal?" I told you, there is no harm in asking. Just to clarify things so I won't have to decipher this in that instant.
"Well, it is for you to find out. Goodbye for now, My Astria." What on earth!
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I woke up in a warm and cozy room with the smells of freshly cut flowers and the warmth of the sun on my cheeks. I can feel anything again. I am alive again. I thought I would be reincarnated as a baby, but here I am at my 18-year-old self. I am now Astria Beaumont, the only daughter of Duke Edward and Duchess Elise Beaumont.
A lady immediately held my hand. From her look, I think she was around her late 30s or 40s. Well, maybe this is Duchess Elise. Then on her back is Duke Edward.
"How are you feeling, my dear? Your father and I are so worried about your condition. How are you feeling?" She's crying now, and I can say she resembles my mother in my previous life.
Yep, I can remember everything. As Libitina said, I have my memories from my previous life and now I can recall even this body's memories. But what happened to the soul of Astria? That baffles me.
"I am now feeling alright, Mother. I am sorry to worry you." As per my last memory, I am one of the knights that protects the emperor. Hence, my family in this world was against it in the first place. I was compared to the other noble ladies who are so lady-like while I am not.
Well in my previous life, I am the same. I joined the MMA Team in my previous life and was hailed as a prodigy due to my multiple achievements.
Maybe I can use that knowledge in this world too. Since they are still using swords in this world, my hand-in-hand combat skills can still make a great impact when I return to training in the knight's order again.
"Why don't you resign from your position and just take care of our businesses instead?" My Father said, but I don't want to go back to doing paperwork again. Oh please, spare me! HAHA!
"It's okay Mom and Dad." They looked at me so confused. Is it because my mouth slipped that I am used to calling my Mom and Dad as is?
"Sorry, Mother and Father. I am alright. So don't worry, you have a strong daughter." I stood up immediately and was surprised that after a year of being bedridden in my previous life. I already forgot how it feels to move freely.
I danced, jumped, run like a maniac. Maybe, Mother and Father are confused now about what I am doing. So I stopped hehe.
"H-Hehe sorry to startle you, Mother and Father. But can I just call you Mom and Dad? Mother and Father are quite long hehe" I said while scratching my head, they might get it as disrespectful. But, yeah it's long to begin with.
"No problem, our princess. If it is what you desire. But, it is new to me and your father. Don't worry we'll get used to it in time. For now, let us go downstairs as your brothers are also waiting. You can surprise them since they don't have an idea that you're already awake. Go and ask Anna to help you prepare." She caresses my hand and it feels so warm. I love them even if I just reincarnated into this body. Their warm smiles and hugs are so comfortable that I might cry.
"Just please don't push yourself, your wounds are still healing." Oh yes, I remember, Libitina gave me the power to heal. Why not try it now? Hee hee
"Don't worry Mom and Dad, it will be a piece of cake. I can take care of it before I go down." They hugged me once again and left the room.
The aide I got named Anna is still outside, so I can now try my so-called healing powers. Okay, let's see how it works.
"Kaboom boom pow!" I said while touching the wounds on my face. But it didn't work. Maybe because I used words? Should I try to just touch it? Huhu but it hurts or am I just acting like a baby? Huhu but it stings tho.
"Okay let's try it again." I placed my hands on my cheeks and I felt the tingling sensation run through my hands and there was light. What the-
"It's glowing! Amazing! Thank you, Libitina! HAHA!" If someone will see me, they'll think I'm crazy. All the wounds are gone and even my body feels light. Now to think of it, is it possible that if my hands were cut off I could still heal? Should I try it on these plants? If I try to mutilate it, will it regenerate?
Well, Libitina said, I should find it myself. *evil laugh*. Come to think of it, will I be able to find Tenshi in this lifetime or was he reincarnated to another world? If that's the case fate will do its work tho.
All I have to do is to enjoy this lifetime and be safe. I don't want any accidents to happen again compared to my frail body before. Maybe I am invincible this time.
*Knock Knock*
"Young lady, it's me, Anna." Oh, she's here.
"Come in please."
Well to describe myself, I do have long brown hair, well it's understandable since I am from a noble family and it is unusual to have short hair for a woman in this world. Maybe I should try it today and ask Anna for help muehehehe.
"Anna, can you help me cut my hair up to this length?" I showed her up to my shoulder and the shock on her face that I cannot describe. I think it is new to her to hear something like this.
"My lady, don't you think it is quite short?" I smiled and just gave the thumbs up.
"Don't worry, it's okay. Also, it will be a hindrance when I'll be training again with the knights." Well just to persuade her when in fact it's long even on the first days I am serving with the knights.
Times passed and we're done preparing with my newly cut hair hehe. It's so refreshing and light to the feeling. I thank Anna for a job well done since the cut was like in the salon haha it's quite good considering in this period like the medieval period. I am really not sure huhu.
I wore the clothes I wore as a knight so after the breakfast with my new family. I will be strolling around the imperial palace. I just want to know more about this new world. Especially my work here.
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Breakfast Time
Everyone was shocked when I arrived at the dining area. Especially Mom and Dad.
"Asti my dear, why did you cut your hair short and why are you wearing your uniform? Are you that well already?" Mom asked with a confused look and Dad as well. I think Asti was my nickname, but this time why can't I remember it? Or maybe it is the first time I heard of it. Well, I already gave Mom and Dad the impression to call them the shorter version of Mother and Father.
"I am all good now, Mom. Look I don't have those wounds already–" My brothers run immediately on my side and check every inch of my face and arms. As if inspecting if I am telling the truth.
I remember this white-haired brother is Echary, and this brown-haired brother is Elohim. Since I am the youngest, like in my previous life. I know they are just worried about me. Based on the novel, these siblings were close to each other.
"Confirmed, Mother and Father, she does not have any bruises already. But how come? Did you put any ointment?" I shook my head and showed them how I did it. I think based on their reactions, it is the first time I did it. Which is quite alarming. Should I tell them what Libitina did or keep it to myself?
"Oh my! How did you get the divine power, my dear?" Mom asked while holding my cheeks.
I think I should tell them since they are my family and in my memories, they are reliable and trustworthy.
"While I am unconscious, a goddess showed and gave me this divine power and also hehe physical strength. But I am not sure why."