As for the matters she omitted, Lin Suqing wasn't particularly curious. Whether she spoke or didn't, in comparison to having overturned everything he knew, it was truly insignificant.
The reason he agreed to her request wasn't merely to find out what she had left unspoken, but rather because he felt he needed to do something to shift his energy and attention. Otherwise, he worried he might sink into self-negation due to regret, denying everything about himself, even the significance of his own survival.
In fact, ever since then, he had been contemplating whether it was still necessary for him to live.
If his existence was always a cause of trouble in the world, then why should he continue living?
Yet, he was not willing to die. However, his unwillingness to die now differed from the past. His current reluctance was mostly because of the Crown Prince.
Had the Crown Prince not made all kinds of sacrifices just so that he could live? How could he not choose to live?
