It all started when I was 14, of course I was a teen at thirteen but I started experiencing new things that seemed uncommon and weird to me when I turned 14. From skipping class to bringing a lighter to school just for fun, little did I know that was a manifestation of what would really happen to me 3 years later. I was more of a shy kid around the girls but I had an "alpha male" attitude when I was around the boys. I had so many features I felt very insecure about, from having big eyeballs to having big lips that matched perfectly with my big uneven teeth. I went from squinting my eyes so the size would be less noticable(at least that's what I thought at that time) to making researches on how to reduce my lip size. My insecurities made my confidence level reduce drastically which made talking to girls very hard for me. Thankfully I had 2 seatmates which were girls and I sorta realized they didn't care about my appearance since they were the ones always starting a conversation first, studying with me, defending me when some other girls tried to roast me, always asking about me when I wasn't in class. They were like bestfriends but not actually bestfriends. Like any other student, I belonged to one of the class groups, a music group to be precise. Although there were other groups like "the nerds, bullies, hotties, the popular ones, the cool ones, the wealthy ones and some groups I didn't know where they belonged in the class. Me being part of a music group was a flex because we would always freestyle in the class, sometimes go to different studios to record a song, but sadly we didn't record any songs because our budget was not up to the studio's price to record a song. But we didn't give up and kept the high energy. I got older and started loosing interest in many things including music and most of my friends. The main reason I lost interest in music was because the members in my group weren't really serious with the whole music career. Another reason I lost interest was because our group treasurer, the one we gave all the money we contributed to record a song at a studio duped us all and went to another school. Weeks passed and one evening while watching tv in the living room alone, I heard a knock on the door and wondered who it was, I sat on my sofa and thought for a second who that could be because nobody usually comes to my house at late hours, I soon summoned the courage and asked "who's there?"
And I heard a female voice respond but the words sounded feint, I walked up to the door still wondering who it was, I opened the door slowly with anxiety and to my greatest surprise, it was one of my female classmates just standing there, smiling, I thought to myself "what should I say?" While my head was in the clouds she said "hey" I was shocked that she was actually interacting with me because she was one of the popular girls in my school. I summoned the courage and stuttered the words "what's up?" She responded by saying she was around the neighborhood and just decided to stop by and say hello. I stood there smiling uncontrollably and for some reason she smiled back. I invited her into my house and offered her soda. We talked about school work and classmates as well as other random things. The way she laughed was so beautiful and pleasant I was proud of myself for making her laugh. Time passed and she asked if she could get my number, I was stunned because no girl had ever asked me for my number. With a big smile on my face I put my number in her phone and she did the same in my phone. It was getting really late and she told me she would leave soon. She soon rounded up everything and said she had a great time and would love to visit me again. We said our goodbyes and she left, I couldn't stop staring at her from my window, she was out of sight and everything felt like a dream to me, something clicked in me and I couldn't resist the urge to call her, I immediately called her and asked were she was, she told me where she was and I immediately went there since she hadn't gone far, I soon caught up to her and she asked why I called her immediately after she left my house and I simply said I wanted to be a gentleman and escort her to her house to make sure she would be safe but I actually wanted to know where her house was also. We made some small talk on the road and she soon got to her house, surprisingly, it wasn't far from my house. We said our goodbyes and she went into her house. I went back home and couldn't stop thinking about her, I didn't want to disturb her so I didn't chat or call her since it was late. The next day, I went to school but she didn't want to talk to me even though I approached her first, something I don't do usually. Her responses were dull and short so I just said "later" and went somewhere else. I started thinking what could be the cause of the sudden low energy, I thought I did something wrong and started judging myself, I told my best friend about how she came to my house the the previous day and now wouldn't want to talk or interact with me. He laughed and said I joke too much, with a serious face I said I wasn't joking but he still didn't believe me, he asked why one of the beautiful and popular girl in the school would randomly come to my house. I thought about it and started doubting myself, asking myself if she actually came to my house the previous day or I was just imagining really hard.