I'm starving. No, starving doesn't even begin to capture the hell that's been gnawing away at my insides. It's a constant, relentless ache that claws through my gut, tearing me apart from within. Every breath is a battle, every heartbeat a cruel reminder that I'm still here, still trapped in this body that's more carcass than man. The cold is everywhere, in my bones, in my blood—so deep that it feels like it's a part of me now. Even the pain has dulled, replaced by this all-consuming numbness that chills me to the core.
Time has lost all meaning. How long has it been? Days? Weeks? Months? I don't know. I don't care. All I know is the emptiness, the hunger, the endless torment that has become my existence. The darkness is my only comfort now, a void that promises escape from this living nightmare. I can hear it calling to me, coaxing me with the sweet promise of an end. No more pain, no more cold, no more loneliness. Just… nothing.
I want it. I want to fall into that nothingness, to let go of this wretched life that's nothing but suffering. What's left for me here? A broken body, a shattered soul? There's no one left who cares, no one who would notice if I disappeared into the dark forever. It would be so easy to let go, to give in, to let the darkness swallow me whole.
And then… something. A flicker of sensation against my lips. It's so faint, so fleeting, but it's real. Cool, damp—water. My body reacts before my mind can process it, greedily sucking in the drops as if they're life itself. They burn as they go down, but it's a pain that reminds me I'm still alive, that my body, against all odds, still wants to survive.
But why? Why keep fighting when there's nothing left to fight for? I can't stop the tears that leak from my eyes, hot against the cold that's become my existence. The darkness still beckons, still promises peace, but that damned instinct—that damned instinct—keeps me tethered to this wretched world. My soul may be ready to surrender, but my body, this broken, pitiful shell, clings to life like it's all that matters. I don't know whether to curse it or beg it to let me go. But it won't.
The chilling cold that had been my constant torment is finally gone. The warmth from the newly lit fireplace envelops me, a soothing balm that seeps into my aching limbs and numbed skin. The relief is profound, almost overwhelming. It feels like a gentle embrace, a promise of safety after an eternity of suffering. Tears well up in my eyes, unbidden and raw, as the pain and loneliness that had become my life begin to ebb away.
*
Noelle gently wiped away Thorne's tears, feeling his own eyes well up as he observed the pain etched on the man's face. His heart ached with empathy, and he remained by Thorne's side throughout the night, continually moistening the cracked lips with the damp cloth. The room was dim and cold, only illuminated by the faint glow of the fireplace, as Noelle tended to him with an unwavering dedication.
As dawn broke, Noelle, bleary-eyed and fatigued, checked on Thorne before heading into the kitchen. He found some wheat and pots, and with limited resources, prepared a light porridge. The process of feeding Thorne was painstakingly slow, as his mouth barely opened, but Noelle persisted, determined to provide nourishment.
The rest of the day was consumed with cleaning the dilapidated house. Noelle scoured every corner, dusted away the cobwebs, and eradicated the spiders that had made their home there. Exhaustion weighed heavily on him, but he continued, driven by the necessity of making the place livable. As the sun dipped below the horizon, Noelle ate a small portion of the coarse porridge and then fed Thorne once more.
By nightfall, Noelle cleaned Thorne gently and settled beside him in the bed. The comforting scent of Thorne's pheromones—cedarwood, sandalwood, and the faint hint of mountain air—enveloped him, providing a small measure of solace amidst the weariness.
The next day, Noelle tackled the laundry with methodical efficiency, washing and hanging everything from the curtains to the beddings. Finally, as the last piece of clothing was hung out to dry, Noelle took a moment to sit on the porch at the back of the house. From there, he looked through the kitchen door at Thorne, who lay in the morning sunlight, his pale form a stark contrast to the warmth of the day.
Noelle's heart ached for the man who had endured so much. He needed time to heal, and Noelle was committed to providing it, hopeful that his efforts would restore Thorne's strength and spirit.