Lei Zhen was frustrated with all the gossip he just wanted to tie Feng Yi in bed and then asked him what was going on in his mind. Why do you always ignore me, don't care about me nor even do you like me? Why? Because I'm low key person? Because my mother was a brothel woman? Your saint-cold eyes can't bear me?
He felt like he was short of breath. The surrounding turned black pitched room. He can not see anyone. There was only darkness in this room. He came to his senses and tried to call someone but there was no response. He shudders in fear and starts to run in one direction, then another.
He doesn't know, how he ends up here. He remembered he was with his fellows. And was thinking about Feng Yi's harshness, yet how I am here. He panicked and ran in the other direction. Just to see a light. He really wanted to see a light, otherwise he could not breathe evenly.
There was a white fog. Which was getting denser and denser as the fog danced to reach him. The whole black room was once covered with white fog. The sound of guqin echoed in his ears. He recalled the past life before he became a king. The situation is the same but this is not the right time. Then how and why i am here? He was not sure, he didn't even know what this place was called. In his past life, he did not pay any heed to other stuff. His heart was burning with hatred. So he had no idea how long he stayed in this room and how he returned.
It was like a trap, which enabled him not to cross over. The walls of the room were printed with some demonic patterns. He remembered such patterns were all over his body when he became the king.
The floor of the room suddenly lit up with red light. There was a sign of one eye, the evil eye. He was standing in the middle of the eye. He didn't know if he had to stand or run for his life.
His mind was not working, how it should have, he was a vulgar, illiterate person. The only word that came from his mouth was "Fuck"
He didn't know anything about these ancient signs nor did he know how to read them. He only remembered the scroll he had in his previous life and he read it with great difficulty. Right now he was not in the mood of trying to read such words. He wanted to be away from demonic words for now. He wanted to change some past events. He doesn't know what he wants but sometimes he wants to be a demonic king and sometimes a simple cultivator with someone who really loves him and cares about him.
This was a difficult decision for him. He only has two options but even if he goes to the first one and becomes a demonic king he would not merge the two worlds with each other as he did nor would he kill anyone. But if he doesn't become a king then he will better live a life.
He was so confused with so much nonsense in his mind that he even forgot to find a way out. He called out for his cousins, An Zhi, An Huan, and lastly his Shizun. But there was no response.
The sound of the guqin becomes strong. His ears were bleeding, he shouted "Who the fuck are you? Huh, come out"
He tried to use his spiritual powers but not in vain, he tried to call for his sword but there was no response. He heard someone calling him. The familiar voice, he checked everywhere from where this voice coming from. But he can not find the source of the voice nor even the source of Guqin.
"Come out you fucking bastard, who do you think you are"
There were three types of sounds that echoed in his ears. He felt like he would become mad or lose his sense of listening, nearly become deaf.
The room lit up, there was a man hugging the woman. He came forward to see who that person was, he was happy to find someone. When he came forward just to touch it. The illusion vanished. He looked left to right but there was nothing, only white fog.
Then there was a crying sound, he saw a woman giving birth. He knew now this was just an illusion so he wanted to see the women's face. The girl he saw was An Huan giving birth. He was stunned to find such a scene. Then the illusion vanished again.
He was confused, his palms were sweating, and he clenched his fist. He moved forward to another illusion. A man was using his spiritual energy to save the dead girl while holding a baby in his arms. It was Feng Yi trying to save An'Huan.
He doesn't know why he saw such a scene. But the weather in this illusion was red, there were so many demons running towards him but he still stubbornly refused to let go of her. He saw the love between them. He felt jealous, the tears were rolling down his cheek. He didn't know why he hated it.
There was a call for him he looked back and saw a glimpse of light. He ran towards the source of light. He doesn't want to stay here to watch the love, affection, and care between them. He loved him and respected him as his shizun but he would never forgive him for pushing him down the peak.
He breathed heavily, his eyes were closed, and tears were rolling down. Everyone was calling out his name. Feng Yi was also in between them. He used the incantation spell and everyone left them alone. He knew the situation.
Lei Zhen was not at his proper start. He opened his eyes after a short interval of time and called out "Why don't you pay attention to me? Am I that bad person" his rims of eyes were red and asked nervously.
Feng Yi was confused yet on the outside calm. He doesn't know, now which person is he thinking about such desperately. Could it be Yue Shi or An Zhi? He has no answer. He can only look at him with a cold gaze. His lips were tightly shut into thin lines.
There was complete silence in the room. No one can come inside the room. They don't know what happened to Lei Zhen all of a sudden he was unconscious and fell down on the ground. So they call for their shizun. Feng Yi also doesn't know what happened, how he fell down. He was also confused and rushed toward his room.
He try to inject his spiritual power in his body, but it all bounced back. There was no explanation so he could only looked at him.
Lei Zhen murmured something but Feng Yi could not understand what he is saying so he can only try to inject spiritual power this time his body accepted it.
Lei Zhen's head was hurting so he gently closed his eyes holding Feng Yi hand tightly. Like it was a piece of life for him. If he let go he will lost again. He holds it like a child holding the hand of his mother. So they will not lose.
The sound in his mind once again awake.
"Lei Zhen!! Are you waiting for him to push you down? Are you willing to spend your life in difficulty? Come and accept me now so you don't have to go through all those hardships of five years to become a great devil lord. Come Lei Zhen, i will teach you everything in one night. Everyone will kneel in front of you"
"…no"
Feng Yi looked at the veins of his forehead. He don't know who he saying no. He used some spells and thought about qi and blood deficiency but everything in his body was fine. He doesn't know what kind of thing hurting him so much.
"Go away.. Just go, i don't want you. I don't need you. You go away!!"
He shouted that Feng Yi let go of his hand and ready to go out. But his wrist was grabbed again. He looked down and saw Lei Zhen was holding his wrist.
"Shizun. You don't go please" he pleads in front of him. He never ever in his life thought that one day he would plead in front of Feng Yi to stay.
"Mn" Feng Yi doesn't know what's going on in his mind but he can clearly feel that his state of mind is not right.
He was just sitting while looking at Lei Zhen who was murmuring something in his mouth. His lips were pale, lost all color, and were champed. He didn't know how long it had been that he had drunk. He asked An'Huan to bring some Tea for him.
She came inside and quietly placed the tea near the bed on the table. Feng Yi gave him some tea but it was not in vain. He throws it all. But he didn't get angry instead he was worried.
He didn't give him any drink but used a wet piece of cloth just to moisturize his lips. He was sitting here while his hands were gripped tightly by Lei Zhen.
He didn't know how long he was waiting for Lei Zhen to let go of his hand. But he heard him saying.
"There is darkness, shizun, I want some light" his voice was small. No one could hear it but Feng Yi focused on him so heard it. He brings the lantern near him.
"Now there is a light, is it enough"
"Enough"
There was no other response from him. He was lying down like a dead wolf. His claws were holding the Wings of a bird. So that the bird will not leave him and die with him.
But the bird was quietly looking at the wolf. He did not try to escape like he was ready to die with him.
Lei Zhen's body was aching, there were voices crying, pleading, flute, guqin, and bird voices which were flying on the top of the mountain. So many different types of voices he doesn't know why he hearing them. But it was all about the last life. Not about this one, might be he did so many sins that god is punishing him in that way.
After crying for so long finally he fell into a deep sleep. Feng Yi can feel the even breaths of him. Then he tries to flee but Lei Zhen is still holding the last straw which can save his life tightly. He did not let it go from dusk to dawn.
The next morning he slowly opened his eyes. The sight he met Feng Yi sleeping at his bedside. Lei Zhen was still holding his hand. He let go of it instantly, he looked at his shizun sleeping face in a daze.
His shizun, his Feng Yi looks so harmless while sleeping. The coldness which surrounds his body is nowhere to be seen. The gentle little bird was sleeping in his nest. Curled into a ball using his wings to cover his face. It was a cute moment for him. Feng Yi you did not try to flee from me why? You hated me yet you still stayed by my side all night long! I feel like it's a dream but if it is a dream then I don't want to be awake. I wanted to sleep more.
But he remembers the scene he saw in the darkness, the illusion of Feng Yi and An Huan. But now his heart is again warm from the warmth he felt because Feng Yi did not try to push him aside and went to his pavilion to sleep. He slept with me in my bed, I was holding his hand all night all day. He was happy at least it felt good even if he did because i begged but it felt good.