Words cannot express how terrible I feel right now... I can't even place it. Are my angry that she didn't tell me earlier or are my angry at myself for not knowing. Are my happy to hear her voice or not.
She's dying.. how?
The relationship between I and my sister wasn't always this rocky. We used to be the best of friends in the world. We could take on the world so long as we were together..
We made plans together, slept together ate together and always fought but it brought us closer and closer..so close that even as semi grown ups we couldn't be up to a mile away from each other.
She was my first love... platonically.
Until she found her mate....and lost him. When Kevin died in a battle, I lost half of my sister. And sadly the part I lost was the better part of her. I tried and tried to see how to fix her, to see how make her see the light again but she refused.
She kept fighting me, pushing me away and finally said that I caused his death, that I put him in the front line on purpose because I was jealous.
I have to admit, I really was a tad jealous of their relationship. Jealous enough to want one like that with my own fated mate but not jealous enough to want to separate them. She was my sister. She was always going to be that and I never expected more. Why would I even do that?
With that notion, she left our home. Cut all ties with our family and travelled to India. And since then she's never picked my calls, replied my texts or letters. She even burns all gifts I always send to her. I never stopped though. I always send her a peculiar gift every month, letting her do whatever she sees fit. But I stopped calling. I decided to give her the space she wanted.
But I've always missed her. And now, for the first time in 4 years she calls me to say she's dying?!!!! What are my supposed to say?! How are my supposed to react?! My sister, who was my backbone and I her's is dying. Fucking perfect.
Anna has been sitting beside me for the past 10 minutes now. Patting my back slowly and kissing my neck at intervals. I feel broken, betrayed and I'm sad she had to see me this way.
"Will you like some wine? We can get drunk together?" I laughed loudly at her suggestion.
"Get drunk, really? Thats the best idea you could come up with, Assistant Anna."
"No it's not... You know what fuck off." She said stomping away from the bed and into the closet to finish dressing up. I went after her and hugged her from behind hiding my face in the crook of my neck.
I felt at peace instantly as warmth flowed through my body. The member stiffed in my shorts as I pulled her closer..bad timing buddy, please go down.
I sniffed in her scent deeply as I left it engulf me. This feels so fucking good .
"I do not need wine when I have you, Anna"
"Well" she said turning to face me. " You are going to have to take the wine because I'm off to work. You ain't having me today." She said flashing her teeth at me and slipping out of my embrace.
"Oh c'mon. Just stay, please." I went to stand beside her as she selected her dress.
" Nah.. I can't. Neither of us have been to the office in days and Paige would be back soon. I do not feel like explaining anything unless you do."
Urgghh!!!
"I'm coming with you then." I said and she turned to look at me immediately, giving me a once over.
"Nah, I suggest you return to your house, binge eat and think about how to handle your sister. And maybe go visit her in India. -"
"-She needs you, Ray. I do not know what your relationship was like and what changed, but right now, I know that you both love each other, you need each other and right now she needs you. So go on and fix your relationship before it's too late. You do not know how long she has remember." She pecked my cheek and left .
I sighed. I might as well start leaving then.
I straightened her mattress and picked up all our clothes that were littered around. Then went into the kitchen. I was thinking lunch for her then send it to the office but since Paige would be back soon, I just cleaned up our plates from last night.
Satisfied with my work. I put on my clothes and left the apartment.
As I drove out, I contemplated going to the palace or to one of the penthouses. It's better to go to the penthouse, just in case she's at the Palace.
I'm not ready to see her yet.
I got to my penthouse in no time then ordered Breakfast for myself and for Anna. I ordered a lot for her. That would teach her to never leave me behind next time.
"Hey, what you doing here?" I looked up to see Ferd on my couch with tissues and magazines around him, scrambling around trying to pick up his pants.
WTF!!!
"So this.." I said motioning to the things littered around him "...is what you do in your free time? And why are you at my house? Or why do it on my... Are you crazy?!?!"
He just sat there with baby eyes staring at me.
"I'm talking to you, asshole?!!!" I said pushing the table closer to him.
"I'm so sorry okay.. I just wanted some peace and quiet."
"Some peace and quiet" I muttered laughing " On my couch?! What happened to the guest room? Look I don't want to know.. this is disgusting enough already. But make sure to get me a new couch, table and rug, ASAP! Understood?"
I didn't wait for his reply, I walked up the stairs into my room. I have a soul crushing call to make.