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Chapter 4 - The Weights of Regret

Alexander's thoughts were a whirlwind of confusion as he observed Isabella from a distance. There was a strange tug in his chest every time he saw her, an unnameable feeling that gripped him, yet he couldn't quite understand it. For thirty long years, his heart had been a desert, barren and unfeeling, but now, inexplicably, something had sparked to life.

"It's not love," he told himself, the words cutting through his mind like a jagged blade. "It's guilt. Just guilt for what I did."

But deep down, he knew the truth was far more complicated. His connection to Isabella was undeniable, like an invisible thread tethering him to her well-being. He wanted to fix things, to erase the harm he had caused her, to see her healed from the wounds he'd inflicted. Yet why? The question clung to him like a shadow.

"Why does she matter so much when I've spent my whole life indifferent to everyone else?"

The answer evaded him, but the pull remained—a gnawing sense of responsibility that wouldn't loosen its grip.

As weeks turned into months, Alexander found himself gravitating toward her again and again, like a moth drawn to a flame. He observed her quietly, trying to decode the mystery of what she had awoken in him. But each time he thought he'd figured it out, the answer slipped through his fingers like sand.

In an attempt to escape the turmoil of his own mind, Alexander buried himself in work, taking a business trip far from the city. He hoped the distance would dull the ache, would drown the constant churn of guilt that gnawed at him. He convinced himself he could outpace his thoughts, throw himself into meetings and endless presentations.

But no matter where he went, no matter how far he traveled, Isabella's tear-streaked face followed him. At night, when he closed his eyes, the sound of her sobs echoed through his mind like a cruel melody. Her voice, quiet yet unmistakable, whispered his name in the silence, and his chest tightened with regret.

During the day, he'd see her reflection in the faces of strangers—a haunting reminder of the pain he caused. He couldn't shake the weight of his remorse, no matter how hard he tried.

"Why did I hurt her like that?" he wondered, the thought looping endlessly, a curse that haunted him.

He didn't have an answer, only the cold, suffocating certainty that he had to make things right—somehow. But the way forward was shrouded in darkness, and he felt trapped, unable to find a path out of the cage he had built around himself.

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Isabella, meanwhile, had been reduced to a shell of the person she once was. The devastation of Alexander's betrayal tore through her, leaving behind raw and open wounds that refused to heal. She curled up in the confines of her room, where the shadows seemed to press in on her, smothering her in their suffocating embrace.

The days blurred into nights, each one more painful than the last. She neither ate nor drank, too consumed by her grief to care about the state of her body. Her friends and family tried to reach her, offering support and solace, but she pushed them all away. She couldn't face them—not when her world had crumbled so completely.

The silence was her only companion, broken only by her ragged sobs that echoed through the dark room. Every memory of Alexander was like salt on a fresh wound, and she replayed their last conversation over and over, each word cutting deeper than the one before. It was a torment she couldn't escape, a storm that raged endlessly within her.

As the days dragged on, her body weakened, her energy drained to the point of exhaustion. Her eyes were gritty and swollen from constant tears, her throat hoarse from screaming out her pain to an empty room. She felt hollow, like a shadow of her former self.

But somewhere, beneath all the anguish, a spark of something else began to grow—a faint ember of anger. A sliver of determination. Isabella knew she couldn't stay like this, trapped in her grief forever. She had to find a way to escape, to heal from the wreckage Alexander had left behind.

For now, though, she allowed the shadows to hold her a little longer, her tears her only release.

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When Monday morning arrived, the sunlight broke through her curtains, cutting through the darkness in her room. It was a new day, bright and clear, but the world outside still felt too foreign, too distant. Yet, for the first time in weeks, something stirred inside her—a restlessness, a need to move.

"I need to get out," she whispered to herself, her voice barely a murmur in the stillness. With a newfound determination, she rose from her bed, threw on some clothes, and stepped outside, the fresh air hitting her like a shock. It cleared her mind, if only a little.

Isabella walked aimlessly through the streets, her thoughts swirling as she tried to piece herself back together. Eventually, she found herself outside a small café. The hum of conversation and the aroma of freshly brewed coffee drew her inside, and she took a seat, letting the normalcy of the scene soothe her.

That's when she met him—Ethan. A stranger with a warm smile and kind eyes, someone who didn't know her story, didn't know her pain. They struck up a conversation, his easy laughter a balm to her aching soul. It was the first time she had smiled in what felt like forever.

"You've helped me forget, even if just for a little while," she said, grateful for the lightness he brought.

"Sometimes, that's all we need," Ethan replied softly. "Someone to listen."

As they talked, Isabella felt something shift within her. It wasn't healing, not yet, but it was hope. Maybe she could move on from Alexander's betrayal. Maybe happiness wasn't entirely out of reach.

But fate, cruel as ever, wasn't done with her yet.

Alexander, returning from his business trip, spotted them through the café window. His jaw clenched, his face darkening with anger as he saw Isabella laughing with another man. In a flash, he was inside the café, storming toward them with a fury that ignited the air.

"Who the hell is this?" Alexander growled, his voice dripping with venom.

Isabella's heart raced, fear coursing through her veins as she stood frozen.

Ethan rose, placing himself between them. "You need to back off."

But Alexander wouldn't listen. His possessiveness twisted his expression into something monstrous as he lashed out, shoving Ethan aside and grabbing Isabella roughly.

"You think you can just forget me? That someone else can take my place?" His grip tightened, his eyes wild. "You're mine."

The world around Isabella seemed to collapse as Alexander's violence consumed her once again. She tried to push him away, but his strength was overwhelming.