To feel alive is to embrace the rush of the moment, where your heart races, your soul ignites, and every breath reminds you that you're truly living—yet even the fiercest flame must weigh the damning consequences of its light.
Consequences be damned ! As I stare into the eyes of the four people who are currently under my skin I realize , if I could go away for days I would without thinking .
" What caused this , why the recklessness? You would never do something like this " Now more than ever if I had a bottle I'd break it on Ale's head
" Right , why would I do something about
My happiness when I can just feed on yours right ?"
" Feed on ours what are you talking about ? Rami say something" I turn to face Rami waiting for it .
" Did you have fun ?" Rami asks with a smile
" Yeah I -"
" That is not the point now Rami ! , she was reckless"
" So she did something you do for a day and you freak out , but if it's you she's meant to clean your mess?" I feel gratitude towards Rami , he's always understood me
" It's not about me !" Alejandro yells
" Exactly !!! " I snap " it's not about you , it's about me , about me being happy I was happy for one night and you can't even be happy for me , I don't stop you from shagging Inéz, despite the fact that sometimes you treat her like shit ! Because I know that you make her happy "
" My relationship with Inéz is not your problem "
" Exactly neither is what I do yours,Alejandro, get off my freaking back "
" I can't believe this he scoffs "
" You know everything that is at stake "
" No , it's not my fault that I'm like this , so it won't be my fault no matter how I live my life "
" The way you guys speak is confusing " Stacy interrupts and I snap
" Shut it "
" Hey don't tell me to shut it "
" Or what ? You'll hide behind my brother ? Or behind the facade of a friendship you forced on me? " That's a low blow and I know it
" Oh forgive me for not bowing at your feet you just feel like the whole world is in your hands , carrying a load that isn't yours to carry " it's not mine to carry
" Princess let's take a deep breath , she's wrong and you know it "
" You always support her " Stacy yells
" And I'll always support her , if you don't like it then .. "
" Then what ? " Stacy yells .
it's sweet the way he supports me
" Stacy , Stacy what will I do with you ?" Yes I might have borrowed that line from Damon
" Your blood will look awfully good splashed on the walls " I give her a sweet smile
" Wha-t?"
" Diana that's enough!" Ale drags me back before I reach her
" Is it though ? " I turn to face her directing my powers to her , All too soon I hear her scream
" Wh-at i-s going onn " she cries out as the heat over takes her and everyone has to run and take cover
" You think because you are dating my brother you have the right to meddle in affairs that do not concern you ? " My voice booms through the empty hall way
" Ahh Diana ple-ase ," I watch as she falls to the ground , her face distorting in pain as hot energy cackles around us , on the walls and everywhere around us
" Princess please , your mental shields are up I can't get to you and I don't want to hurt you "
" It's a little bit too late for that speech now Ramiro isn't it " I don't need to turn around I'd know that Russian accent anywhere .
" You !! You are behind this" Alejandro yells
From where he is , I hear Stacy's agonizing scream but all it does is fuel my anger " she's weak " I whisper to no one in particular
" She is isn't she , so you want to kill her ?"
" It wouldn't make a difference " I lift my hands up controlling the energy that radiates out of me swirling it around her neck now to block the flow of oxygen
" It wouldn't so what's a tiny life you can't spare ? "
" Since when are you all about sparing?" I ask him
" I'm not " and in a flash his shadows surround Stacy and her eyes turn white
" Wait no !! " I find myself yelling
" Good , glad to see you are back !" He lets go of Stacy and her body falls with a thump
" Let me go Damon !"
" No " he wraps his arms around me tightly and takes me away , we appear or Apparate in the crystal cave
" Why did you bring me here " i ask despite the fact that I'm grateful deep down
" I told you that the more you supress your monster the more rebellious it becomes ! And you let it control you " he states calmly which pisses me off
" This is your fault if you hadn't come along , my monsters as you so often put it , would be just fine !"
" Is that what you really think ?" He asks not taking his eyes of mine
" Yes !!" No
" Fine then ! I'll take you back to your dorm " I walk into his arms but don't hold on tight ! Consequences be damned , we arrive and I don't look back as I walk into my dorm to find my brother's and .. well Stacy .
" So that was what this was about ? Damon ? That piece of shit ?" Very original
" That's quite fair coming from you isn't it Alejandro?"
" You almost killed Stacy because of him !! " He yells and points at Stacy
" I almost killed Stacy because she couldn't keep her mouth shut , I almost killed her because you all attacked me and I lost control" I yell back
" It wasn't your fault princess" Rami's voice breaks from behind me , when did he get there ?
" It wasn't ?" Ale asks
" No it wasn't , we assumed that you are going through what we went through but we were wrong " he sighs and pulls me in for a hug " you have something so powerful in you and you didn't even let it all out !" I can't help the tears that fall down my eyes
" I'm sorry about Stacy " i whisper
" Well you might have ruined my chances of dating her , but I will be fine " he shrugs it off like it's nothing but I know it's not
" What if I explain things to her , well about you "
" You would do that ?"
" As long as it's for you " he cleans the tears on my face
" So we are going to act like she didn't almost commit murder ?"
" Yes she only owes Stacy and Inéz an explanation, but when it comes to you I think you can cut her some slack since she almost commited it and didn't actually do it " he gives Ale a knowing look
" Finee Diana fine !! But learn control even if it means with him "
" That won't happen with him anymore" I slump on my bed
" Why " they chorus
" I might have insinuated that he's the reason I lost control " .
" And was he ? " Ale asks
" No , he wasn't " I involuntarily touch my lips
" I can't believe what I'm about to say but if you know it wasn't his fault then go after him" I'm surprised he's even okay with this
" Ale's right, you should be happy and it seems that he makes you happy a lot "
" I really appreciate your support but he wouldn't want me anymore "
" I doubt that ! With the way he looked at you when you were fighting for control back there , I'd say you let him go and not the other way around "
" Common go get him !! " Ale pushes
" Okay ... Okay um now?"
" Of course princess! Go we will handle things here" I don't need to be told twice as I dash out into the forest
" Damon !! Damon !! Please come out " oh no no no what if he's gone ?
" Damon !! I'm sorry !! Please " I turn around in circles " please " I whisper as I fall to the ground in tears .