"She was the only venom I drank"
-15-
Kamila's point of view
Kamila: Let's leave this topic alone, I don't want to talk about it anymore
Nario: So tell me
X; Hello what do you want
I gave the order and he kept asking those questions about my father.
Kamila: Why do you worry so much Nario, it's a very unimportant topic for me
Nario: I just want to know, is it so difficult to give me an answer?
Kamila: Yes, it's because I don't want to talk about this, do you understand, I don't want to
Nario: Okay, don't get angry right away
Kamila: Well, if you don't ask useless questions, I won't get angry
Nario: Okay, calm down
After the food came, no one was talking, we calmed down a bit and we were eating.
Nario: Did you get angry with me?
Kamila: No, why do I do it?
Nario: Because I asked you about your father
Kamila: No, I just don't want to talk about the man who ruined my life, because he's not even worth mentioning his name.
Nario: What did he do to you?
Kamila: Leave nothing at all
Nario: I am ready to hear anything about your life.
I took a deep breath and...
Kamila: The first thing I would say is that no one is what they seem, no one is perfect, everyone has something inside that they keep and they can't say it out loud, everyone has a story that they keep secret only with themselves because for that secret they only trust themselves, everyone has that chapter of life that they don't read out loud, we are all liars and we deceive ourselves by sometimes leaving reality, but sometimes you get so tired of be nice to people, you get tired of being an angel, you get tired of doing good, you get tired of giving a smile just to look good in front of people, you get so tired sometimes that you think the only way to leave this life is to end it .
But then you say to yourself, I only have 1 life and I will waste it for what?
For people to feel good around me?
Do you care what I'm talking about?
Not to hurt people with words?
I think of people who are not worth doing!
I need someone, you say for a moment, you think that everything will be fine, you think that your life will have meaning, but when the one you trusted the most hits you in the back, it hurts so much, the hell took him, you say, I believed where don't have to...
Then when you hear words from people that you didn't expect, when they talk about you in a way that you didn't expect, it will hurt you even more, you say the hell took it, I believed again.
But when your most beloved and most trusted man stabs you in the back, what do you do? You say he took it, I believed again.
For this reason, be careful who you trust in this life, you only have one life and be careful how you spend it, every second that passes is an opportunity for you to change, it is an opportunity for you to give yourself an opportunity to live, maybe this time you'll get away with it.
And when you trust yourself and not people, you manage to stay on your feet without anyone's help, you don't need anyone to get you through the seconds, minutes, hours, days and years.
When you respect yourself and love yourself first, then you have given yourself the opportunity to live.
And there were tears in his eyes.
Nario: Damn it, that's how life really is
Kamila: I don't like to tell people what I've been through in life, but I believe that this was enough for you to understand what happened to my life.
Nario: It seemed to me at the same time as if you were describing my life.
Kamila: Well, we all have problems, but not the same.
Nario: You are right about that.
Kamila: I know what I learned from life and how I managed to survive
Nario: What??
Kamila: Leave the past behind, live in the present and fight for the future, be someone in life, be someone who will feel good for the rest of your life, life is short why not leave behind something beautiful, why don't only experience happy moments and leave the bitter ones behind.
I'm not a strong person, I'm just a lady to hide my bad side.
Nario: Maybe no one is, and really this strong word means "Hide how weak you are", maybe we all have something we want to say but we can't
Kamila: We all have that part that we are sorry to talk about even with ourselves because that's life, you think it's beautiful but it's all..
Nario: Think a little about the positive side of it..
Kamila: I'm trying to find it and sometimes I think I really found it, I know when you fell in love with life and I thanked it a lot..
Nario: when?