Being touched by Blake makes me feel happy and my heart flutters. But in fact, I haven't really thought too seriously about whether Blake has the same feeling.
Moreover, I have never cared about the fact that he wants to touch me. Just being casually by his side already makes me feel satisfied. No matter how many times he says it, I will accidentally forget.
He always smiles as if nothing has happened. I am always charmed by his smile. Different from me, he almost never panics or loses control, nor does he do anything excessive. That's why I feel at ease and get too close to him.
I never thought that the reason for Blake's distress would be such a thing. Maybe it's because I was originally not very sensitive to love matters, so I have brought him extra burden. But I still want to fulfill Blake's wish. However, being looked at and touched by him like that makes me feel so ashamed that I really feel ashamed to the point of wanting to die.
