I didn't know the mother, that's why I didn't answer her. But it was as if I was waiting for the blue-eyed girl to move her lips.
blame me. This would not happen, she would continue to sew with red silk threads regardless of the woman called mother.
It weaves an endless shawl. Mother smiled strangely, sad? Worried ? Happy? I don't really understand emotions.
Mother spoke other words, I did not understand their meaning, but she paused at one word and I turned my head to the side.
I returned my mother.
"Vanya, what is that?
Mother's eyes trembled, she was pleased with my reaction to this word. Before the mother opens her mouth, I continued.
"It is an identity, if I choose it as my identity, does that mean I can live?"
Mother smiled.
"You may not remember, but you are a breeze that carries God's magnificent gift with you, you are a truth, right Like a butterfly that flies outside this room."
Mother finished her speech and put me on the bed in the room and went to the door with the intention of leaving.
I just got an identity, but I'm still not sure that I'm alive, there are still many things I need to ask, I still don't know what other valuable thing I have besides this name.
"My child, I won't leave you, rest assured that I'm here whenever you want, I'm here whenever you don't, you should close your eyes and
sleep now, your weak body cannot bear more than this truth."
Mother left the room but I kept my eyes open and did not sleep, I was afraid that after sleeping the new identity that Forget what I had achieved, I still didn't know who exactly "I" was.
After the mother left,blue-eyed girl raised her head again, she had decided to pay attention to me again
"you saw one of your family members, now tell me if you still want to live or if you finally decide to Return to the world of the dead?"
"What is a family?"
"What is a family?!"
He returned my question to me, but it was as if she felt sorry for me and decided to answer me. I felt the dead butterflies Inside her eyes, they shook.
"The family usually consists of a woman, a man and probably some small creatures called children, which are related to each other.
They have blood, sometimes this title goes beyond the blood relation and reaches the emotions of people, as it is possible for people to Non-blood relatives are like a family to each other."
"What is a child? Is it the same child? The same word that my mother used to call me? If I am a child, you should be a child too, you answer my questions more than others, do you want to be my family?"
"Only living people can have a family, how do you want to prove to me that you are alive?"
"I have a name and the name is the identity, maybe my mother thought that I look like a blue butterfly, that's why my name is Vanya.
She turned to me, she talked to me, touched me and said that I am alive.
"But you, who still don't know me, how do you want to be friends and family with someone whose identity is unknown and non-existent?"
Next to the metal bed on which I was sitting, there was a white table with colored beads like a water bottle.