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"Gemma asking her to go on a Olympic deep pool, to compete against the two twins of Christian, definitely double triggered her. And the way she snapped and humiliated her, only proves that Aella didn't really trust her at all, as I imagined, as much as it makes me furious, she definitely liked Sasaki more than she did Gemma. She has some obvious deep trust issues, she doesn't trust her shadow, even less any of us."
"Definitely not us," Pietro added. "What did she tell Gemma exactly, girls?"
Instead of saying it, Izzy took out her phone and opened the private social media of the academy, then she turned it on, advanced the video that had been broadcasted in live, and turned it to us.
["I never spilled one secret that you've told me, Gemma," her voice was a whisper, "but in the first opportunity, you went and threw at my face everything I confided in you. Everything. You didn't even ask why I said no, you simply... did it. But it's okay, you're right, I am nothing close to any of you monetarily speaking, and I was abandoned, I did lose my father, and I am very aware that my siblings would choose themselves over me, and I'm glad they would, because as an older sister, I would never want to throw that burden on them."
"You don't need to offend me, you don't need to throw all I confided in you, on my face. I do the job of beating myself up just fine without nobody's help, it's all I've always known how to do ever since I was abandoned by woman who raised Tristan, when I was barely 7 years old. My father did his best, and I am not ashamed for stepping up and raising the twins, who were cruelly abandoned at the tender age of 1 year old, and I did it without complaints because I know it was my fault."
"Just because you're rich, with both parents loving you and still alive and together, it doesn't mean you have the right to throw that on my face, because you don't know what tomorrow awaits for you, Gemma Russo. You boast about being rich, but you know what? I would much rather be a lowborn middle class girl who will work to build herself from nothing, than to parasite in my Old Money family's money and hard-work, to get everything given to me without any effort of my part."
"That's what nepo babies like you do, you parasite on your family. You think they were always this rich, that they have never been of the middle class? Old money is just a few generations rich, Gemma Russo, not since the 1st testament. You are free to mock me, in fact keep mocking me, please, because I may not be from privilege, but at least I will live a life knowing that everything I conquer will be mine, I'll have made it, because I am talented and skilled enough to be more powerful than your families in the future."]
We all stayed silent for a moment, and there was not helping the grin the curled my lips, "I don't know if she has an inferiority or superiority complex."
"Inferiority towards you, superiority towards the rest of the world in a certain way, not necessarily a bad way," Keira chuckled but she sounded self-deprecating. "I know she lost her dad, that he tried to make you in the last year, but he was a jerk for putting so much pressure on her. You said it yourself that aunt left them there because she didn't want to mess their lives switching from the US to the UK all the time, but she thinks the absolute worse of it, because of her dad."
"Babe," Yohan sighed, "when we met him back in 2021, he said that she took that burden to herself. Aunt also said back in the dinner when she called uncle to drop the bomb, that Aella was like that even as a little kid, she had always tried to make herself worthy. It's not necessarily about her parents, she seems to never have felt worthy enough, never have felt like she was enough, like she was doing enough."
"She is more talented than us," Keira cried, "how is she not worthy enough? She's literally better than us is almost everything, and she still thinks it's not enough? Bloody hell, I wish I was able to draw like that," then she took out the sketchbook that Aella handed to her earlier from her bag and showed it to us, "she is an artist, like, she doesn't even know it's hard to do this, because she was born able to do it. I don't get why she keeps wanting to carry the world in her back, she's human too."
"She's a perfectionist and no matter the reason, she's broken," I sighed, taking the sketchbook from her hand and looking at the ideas of clothes that she draw. "She came to us like this, and she's gotten worse because of her inferiority complex regarding me. She carries a weight on her back that doesn't belong to her, but there's nothing any of could do to help on that."
"What do we do? Aunt asked us to help out with her," Yohan groaned frustrated. "The director even pushed her to our committee, but she's not willing, all she cares about is ice skating, how are we gonna go around that area?"
I felt all of their eyes on me, and I knew exactly the reason why, but I sucked on my cheeks, trying to ignore their burning gazes on my skin. Not like Keira cared about my attempt to ignore the elephant in the room.
"You can get around that, Tris."
But I didn't even look at her, "And make her feel worse when she learns that I have a past in figure skating? She thinks it's something only hers, that I got nothing on, that's for the best. Besides," I clenched my jaw, "I'm past that, you know what happened the last time I was in the ice like that, I'm better staying back on the hockey field."
They tensed up, knowing what's holding me back, they were around when it happened, everyone was. I lost my old best friend because of that, and my partner.
"That was not your fault, Tris," Keira sat down next to me. "Olivia made the mistake, it wasn't you. It doesn't matter what Oliver says, it wasn't your fault."
"I should have avoided it, had I been quick enough," I clenched my jaw, "had I,"
"Don't do this to yourself, Tris," Killian came to my front, staring at me with worried eyes. "It wasn't your fault, at all. She had been struggling with that pass for ages, even then, she was stubborn and insisted in going for it, and you tried to talk her out of it. You tried, Tris."
"I didn't try harder enough," I snapped. "She fractured her spine and can't walk anymore because of that. I'm not suitable for figure skating, not when I couldn't even help my partner out, I'm better in the hockey field."
Pietro sat next to Keira, "Mate, you say that your Cinderella carries some weight on her back that don't belong to her, but you do the same. Oliver blames you because he can't accept that his sister brought that on herself, he needs someone to blame, he broke your friendship, ours, just because he couldn't handle it. But just because he's petty like that, it doesn't make it your fault, at all, we were there, we know."
"You should try with Aella," Keira suggested.
I stared at her, no short of flabbergasted, "She hates me, Keira, she would never let me ice skate with her."