"Young miss!Young miss, please wake up." Huh? What's going on? Who's calling my name?
Last i remember, i had died to my husband's hand.
I recognized the voice. It was Lily's voice, my personal maid! However, i did not open my eyes immediately because i felt like this scene was a bit familiar, like deja vu.
Next, my uncle would properly make a scarcastic comment about me.
"Oh please, this brat is probably just pretending to be sick. I know that she does not want my sister to remarry!" And there it was.
I was right. I had been reincarnated on the night before my mother got married, the day my step siblings started all these tricks.
A few days after my mother announced her marriage, I threw a tantrum and told her that I did not want her to get married again because we could be happy just the two of us. I told her that she was betraying dad.
I know, that was stupid of me.
I later found out that she did it all for me. No one in the capital wanted my hand in marriage after i turned 18 because i did not have a male in the household.
I felt guilty and unreasonable for my behavior, so when my step siblings reached out, i immediately saw that as an opportunity to make my mother happy.
They had sent me fruit as a friendly token. I was glad for the gesture, so i ate the stuff without hesitation! Then i suddenly felt sick, i even fainted right before i could board the carriage to my step-family's house.
This was seen as my unwillingness towards the marriage.
Soon, rumors spread throughout the capital that I, Charolette, was an unreasonable and ungrateful daughter for not seeing my mother's sacrifice.
They even went as far as implicating my mother, calling us charity stray cats who were not appreciating my step-family's gesture.
Now that i am back, i am going to change the narrative.
I slowly opened my eyes and looked around. I saw my mother's worried face, but there was hurt in her eyes. She probably believed my uncle's words that i was using another tactic to stop her wedding.
I immediately got up and threw myself in her arms.
Her embrace was soft and comforting. I cried. I cried and apologized to my mother.
"I am so sorry, Mother. I am sorry, i am so sorry." I said as tears came down my cheeks.
I let all it all out, the bitterness, the anger, helplessness, and fatigue I had from my past life.
I cried over my death because
I never did, i cried over my failed marriage, and lastly, i cried over how i never considered my mother's feelings as i let Ryan kill me without a fight.
"Charl, darling. What is the matter?" My mother's worried said trting to soothe me.
" I should have fought, mother. I should have fought." I said in between the sobs. My nineteen year old body shook so much that i gave my mother a scare.
"Charl, what do you mean? Talk to Mother." My mother said.
She sounded very panicked, i do not blame her because she did not know what i was talking about.
I did not say anything and just cried in her arms.
She hesitated and then said, " I-if this is about the wedding, I-I can always call it off." She said with a sigh.
"Sister,you can not!" My uncle shouted
"Society will shun you as an unwed woman!"
" Not now Robert, my daughter takes precedence over everything else." My mother states calmly
"Even at your own happiness?! Marrying the marquess will boost your social standing! I am sure that low life you married before would have wanted what's best for you, and this is it!" My uncle continued.
He has always disliked my father because my mother was from a family of earls, and he was a viscount, a level below my mother.
"Robert, that is enough out of you. You shall respect your deceased brother in law! Like i said,we can have this discussion later. Now, let me take care of my daughter." My mother said firmly.
I did not like them fighting, and in as much as i disliked my uncle for disliking my dad, i would not let my mother suffer again.
In this life, nothing my step-siblings did would stop me.
" Do not cancel the wedding, mother." I said between sobs
" What are you saying, my dear? I thought you did not want this wedding to happen?" My mother said in a soft voice, looking very confused.
I rapidly shook my head, pulling away from my mother and sitting properly on the floor, " No, mom. Uncle is right. You should be happy."
"I am?" My uncle said, echoing my words.
Nodding my head, i said in a meek voice, " I was only afraid that you would forget all about me after you got a new family." I do not care how this sounded like i was 5. I just needed a believable excuse, and it worked perfectly.
"Oh, Charl. That is ridiculous. You are my pride and joy. I would never leave you behind for the sake of securing a new marriage." My mother said, hugging me again.
"I am sorry, Mother. I promise to live up to that. I will make you proud." I said once more, melting in my mother's embrace.
" Alright, Robert, tell the marquess to not cancel the banquet." My mother said instructing my uncle.
If memory served me right, the banquet my mother was referring to was probably a small family and friends gathering to welcome my mother into the marquess household.
And from what I recall, my mother's side would not be present because they were still bitter about the fact that my mother married my dad and the fact that remarrying would only shame them more (their words not mine).
Perhaps attending the banquet in this life would change my past life's events a bit~